(Devan's POV).
Freya took me to an alley that was quite quiet and there were only two of us there. I don't know if she did it on purpose so that no one would see us or if she just didn't like people seeing us together. Not to mention that a strange man had intervened.
I felt so upset that I couldn't control my emotions. I should have behaved better after I found Freya, but seeing her with another man made me jealous. I just wanted to make sure she came back into my arms and apologized for all the things I'd done in the past.
I realize that it's hard to forgive me, and that's why I'm trying so hard to be forgiven even if it takes a long time. But I also didn't want to let Freya get away from me or be taken by another man.
"What exactly do you want?" she asked irritably. "Please don't bother me anymore, Dev. Just get out of here and pretend we never met."
"You think I can just do that? I love you, Freya!" I shouted. I couldn't back anymore. "I love you until I go crazy. Either then or now."
"Then and now?" she smiled wryly. "I never knew that you loved me, Dev. I still remember the pain you caused me and I even clearly remember your every word and harsh attitude towards me. There was no love there, Dev. There is none."
"Are you acting like this because of that guy? Are you guys in a relationship?" I asked because I felt jealous.
"It's none of your business, Dev," she replied curtly.
"He's too young for you, Freya. Don't create a crazy scandal by getting into a relationship with a young man when you already have a husband and son! Because I will never allow it," I said.
"Husband and son? You are no longer my husband since I left you, Dev. And Adam, he is my son."
"He's also my son, Freya."
However, I wasn't sure if he was my child because I didn't know who she was pregnant with or if she was pregnant when she left me. Thinking about it makes me feel even more guilty because for four years she struggled on her own and I wasn't by her side. It must have been very difficult for Freya when she was pregnant and gave birth without me by her side.
"Why are you so confident that he's your son?" she said with a sharp look. "Fine. I admit that I am Freya, but Adam is a different matter. He's my son with another man, so don't even try to touch him!" she shouted in disgust.
"With who? Tell me," I urged. I gripped both of Freya's hands. I'll never let go again.
"I don't have to tell you."
"See? You're even shaking, Freya. I just need a blood test to prove whether Adam is my son or not."
"Dev!" she shouted. "That's enough! Don't cross your boundaries. Don't you think that what you're doing right now is making things difficult for me? I want to live a quiet life alone with Adam. Please leave us alone."
"Does what happened with us that night mean nothing to you? Do you take it lightly?" I asked.
"Think of it as a gift. And it would be great if we lived our own lives," she snapped.
I swallowed hard. She brushed my hand away and I could see the hatred in her eyes. After everything I did to her. How could she not hate me and want to stay away from me? Now I understand why she kept trying to avoid me when I still thought she was Vivian.
I knelt in front of her and took both her hands in mine. I put my trembling hands on my head. My tears just flowed without me being able to hold them back. I would probably die if I couldn't bring Freya back into my life.
"Please forgive me," I whispered, "I almost went crazy thinking about you. I know I was wrong. I know my attitude towards you in the past was very bad and it's hard for you to forgive me. But I realized that even before you left me. I was so blinded by the grudge I had that I ignored my feelings for you."
I continued to cry while Freya remained silent. I also don't dare look up to look at her face because right now I'm ashamed of myself. I had many opportunities in the past not to hurt her, so many, but I kept ignoring them and only focused on my grudge. Until I didn't realize that it would backfire on me in the future.
"How can I just give up after all this time I've been trying to find you desperately. And now I've also found out that you were Freya all along. You don't know how happy I was to find out ... but I know I shouldn't feel happy because you're the only one who got hurt because of me. But I just want you to know that I really love you, Freya." I cried silently.
"Everything is useless, Dev." I felt Freya's hand running through my hair.
I look up to stare at her with my tears welling up. "Freya..."
"I might be able to forgive you for all the bad things you've done to me. But we'll never be together because I can't forgive you, since you're my brother's killer."
"That's not true," I replied curtly. I hurriedly stood up and looked at her intently. I grasp Freya's hand tightly with my trembling hand. "I never killed Theo, Freya. I didn't kill him."