Chapter 140: Please, Be Hard On Me
Chapter 140: Please, Be Hard On Me
Chapter 140: Please, Be Hard On Me
Lucious
I explained to my boy how much I have missed him but the little minx takes the opportunity to kneel just in front of my crotch to rub himself against me. Talk about taking things slow, as much as I would like a nice blowjob, I believe he is in no state for this yet and we need to talk a little about his limits before going anything. We were not even in a safe place, as far as I know, the doctor could come back at any moment. I have to reject his advances a little too harshly since he keeps on insisting which makes him break into sobs again. Good job on making himself loved and desired by Lucious. Since physical contact seemed to be okay again, I hugged him and reassured him and promised him we will do everything he wants and then some more once we were back at home.
“If you don't want to punish me, at least use me as roughly as you can.”
Gosh, those words make me painfully hard, after seeing those disgusting pictures, I want nothing more than to mark him as mine again but do I dare jump into an intense scene immediately? That is what my boy requested but he doesn't necessarily know what is best for him. I have to decide for him and I don't know what to do. Once he was calm enough, we went back into the room while I kept thinking about this. I call the doctor so that we can get on with it, he explains everything he already told me last night. Of course, the possibility of being infected makes my boy panic again and I reassured him that it is not why I refused to have sex with him before. That doesn't completely soothe him though, he even hints that I should look for another submissive if he were to be found HIV positive. As if it would happen.
Fortunately, Callan interrupted this discussion, I had sent him a text when the doctor left and we were joined by Liam soon after. The three of us eventually managed to pull out a simile out of him which is no small victory. Sadly, it can't last forever and Jacob arrives shortly after to hear his testimony. Liam returned back to work but Callan stayed with us since Nelson asked him to. I guess he doesn't want to tell his sad story twice. I must admit I have trouble remaining calm while he relates his ordeal, especially during the whipping part. I am so fucking proud of him. First, because he managed to tell the whole thing without breaking down. He just takes one deep breath at the beginning, seated on his bed and he keeps on talking and talking. I recognized the neutral and detached voice he always used to have at the beginning of our relationship but I guess he needs to keep some distance between himself and the facts he is depicting.
Then because he had coped way better with his captivity than I thought he would. Fuck, he coped bett than I did with his absence, I can't believe he was so much in control or that he managed to escape on his own. Since Jacob had given me no details of how he found him, I believed he had somehow rescued him but no, my courageous boy broke free on his own. He was so strong during the whole thing.
“You were so brave, Tiger!” Callan exclaimed with tears in his eyes when he stopped talking.
“No, I wasn't.” He replied darkly.
“I should have been stronger and not have yielded so easily.”
Here we go again with self-loathing.
“Bullshit,” Jacob interjects.
“You would never have escaped in that case.” He added.
“I shouldn't have betrayed my master like that.” He said indistinctly.
Unfortunately for him, I was seated on the bed next to him so I heard him clearly. I have had enough of this, I said to myself smacking the back of his head. Strictness seemed to do the trick earlier so I am going to stop just now.
“Would you guys give it a minute?” I said while my boy looked at me surprised.
“The next time you say something like that again, baby I will spank you thirty times.” I said when we were alone, making his eyes widened even more.
“I have had enough of your self-loathing on this subject, I have heard your story and the only thing I can say is I have never been prouder of you. So, try to stop beating yourself like that, is that clear?”
“Yes, master.” He replied contrite.
“Good boy,” I muttered.
“Now let me see if we can sneak up back home so I can make good on my earlier promise, baby. If you are still willing of course.”
“Very much, master.” He responded lustfully.
I am glad that this new trauma doesn't seem to have attacked his libido, we will see how he reacts when he is actually confronted to sex but the fact that he can be aroused by thinking about it is a good sign. I am still unsure about the roughness he requested earlier but in the end, I can just take it gradually and watch his body language. Safewords are also there for a reason, so if he does well enough, I might give it a try. Gosh, all those thoughts make it so hard that I can't wait to be back home. In the end, it takes another hour during which Callan kept my boy company before the doctor signs his discharged papers. Faya drove us back home and I instructed him to drop Callan at their house next.
“Come and sit on the couch with me.” I ordered as we entered the living room.
“I want us to talk a bit before you go to prepare.”
“Yes, master.” He replied eagerly.
If sex is the right motivation to make him talk to me, he is going to get plenty of it.
“Before we go on the topic that interests you, baby.” I began.
“I want you to try and stop thinking I am going to get rid of you, I have heard everything you did and I saw nothing wrong with it. You will not get punished for it either.”
“But what if I need a punishment to ease my guilt, master?” He said dejectedly.
“Well that is not how our lifestyle works, baby. You get discipline when you do something bad, not when you choose to. I understand you feel guilty, but you have to find another way to appease it. In any case, I will book you an appointment with your therapist as soon as possible, okay?”
“Yes, master.” He replied meekly but I can tell we were not completely done with that conversation.
“Now, for the next part, baby. Are you sure you are ready to have sex? I don't mind waiting a few days.”
“No, master, I don't want to wait.” He replied a bit annoyed.
“And please, be hard on me.” He begged.
“I need to feel owned by you.”
“Do you think your limits have changed because of what you experienced, baby?” I asked.
“No, I don't think so, master.”
“You asked me to be rough on you and I can do that if it helps with your guilt but you have to promise me you will use your safe word.”
“Yes master.” He replied eagerly.
“Before we get to that, baby. There is just a little matter to take care of.” I said sternly.
“I believed you addressed me improperly five times, so you will get as many spanks. Lay over my lap and pull down your pants and boxers.” I ordered.
I wouldn't have punished him for this if he wasn't begging for some sanction. Like the good boy he is, he complies almost too eagerly and I roughly smack his beautiful ass before putting back his underwear. He doesn't really need soothing cream for such a light punishment and he will get a full session of aftercare later.
“You have twenty minutes to prepare, baby and after that I want you naked and kneeling in the playroom.” I instructed, he quickly scurried to the bathroom while I made a few phone calls.
I scheduled an appointment for him tomorrow morning, thankfully, Gideon's mother is always very accommodating. Then, I called Faya to be sure he placed my horse for the new collar. Also to check Mr. Black agreed to meet me at my house tonight which he did and to ask him to go to the police station to get a copy of the investigation report from Jacob. That is not really legal but that is one of the perks of having a friend in the law enforcement.
I didn't concentrate too much on the meeting I have planned later because it will lead to more anger. Right now I must focus entirely on my boy. I took a quick shower while he was already waiting for me and then I went to our bedroom to change into a pair of leather pants, planning what we will be doing in my head.