Chapter 139: I Don't Blame Him

Chapter 139: I Don't Blame Him
Chapter 139: I Don't Blame Him 

Lucious

I was interrupted in those overprotective thoughts when he shrieked that he cheated on me. What does he mean? I know rape victims oftens blamed themselves but I am not going to let him believe that begin abused counts as cheating. It stings a bit when he escapes my embrace soon after though, isn't he happy to see me again? I know I will have to tread lightly around him for the time being and that I will probably have to forget about the lifestyle for a while, leaving him time to heal after this nightmare. He didn't even address me properly but I let it pass.

He finally confessed he submitted to the son of bitch who abducted him which I knew already given the picture I received. I have seen the marks on his back, so I don't blame him for doing what he had to do. Even more, I am kind of glad he did obey and didn't get beaten more by that scumbag in a way. What is bothering me is that it seems to trigger a whole new rag of self-loathing in my boy. I am a bit stunned when he admitted he liked it though, he explained he almost had an erection but that doesn't mean anything. It is normal to have a physical reaction if the bastard did something that could give him pleasure under the right circumstances and I didn't see why I would hold that against him. Apparently, that make him feel dirty though, which again is not uncommon in rape victims. I guess I will just have to shower him with love and affection until he sees again what a wonderful young man he is.

What surprises me the most however is the fact that I didn't manage to calm him down by hugging him and whispering words of encouragement. This is the first time it doesn't work and I have to eventually let the nurse sedate him so that he stops trashing everywhere. What had gotten into him? The doctor eventually comes in soon after and explained to me it very common among abuse victims to take some distance from their loved ones as they often feels unworthy of their attention. He encourages me to take things extremely slowly as all kinds of physical contact even hugs can trigger some crisis like the one I just witnessed. Then he told my boy should seek professional help and I made a mental note to call Gideon's mother a bit later during office hours. Finally, he state thl there is a risk that Nelson was infected by the asshole that raped him but that we won't know for sure until next month as far as HIV is concerned. He concluded by warning me against unprotected sex as if I needed a lesson on that subject. Thinking about the son of a bitch that abducted my angle fuel my anger again. I was too focused on Nelson before to fully experience it but now that my boy lays safely asleep, I can concentrate on what I wanted to do to that pitiful excuse of a human being. I guess having some time alone with him to beat him up and ruin his face will be too much to ask. Pity, it certainly would help to calm my nerves.

Unfortunately though, I know he is only partly to blame and that the true person responsible is my father. He is the one I must direct my rage at, this man must be stopped at all costs and I hoped Jacob's investigation has progressed enough to give some serious links with my father because I really need to have some evidence to show to the board of directors if I wanted to evict him from the head of his company. We have been stuck at forty percent of the votes we need for now and the remaining sixty percent being shared between people extremely loyal to my father or his second in command. This will be for later today, I think right now I need to focus on helping my boy to get better. I wonder how I can do that if I can't even hug him anymore. Perhaps, a small voice in my head said he needs you to show your dominance again. This is what helped him to heal in the first place and when there was the thing at the high school. Kneeling usually helps to soothe him in the past and it doesn't require touching him if physical contact is out of the question. I will try, I said to myself as I doze off, seated in a chair in his room and see if it works.

I only slept a few hours but it seems like a full night of sleep. The fact that I got my boy back gives me wings, I am back in control. I feel like I could do anything which is good since there are so many things to do today. First, I called my assistant to clear my day's schedule. There will be hell to pay later but I can't work today and she reminded me I was supposed to meet the investors wanting to buy my company but they will have to wait for tomorrow morning. Then I called Jacob to have some news on the investigation.

“You will have to find a new house cleaner.” He said before explaining how my house cleaner was the mole in the club who gave all the information regarding my boy's collar to my father's henchman. 

They even had its serial number that the little creep found in my desk, so they were able to track him like I did. Apparently they threatened his family but that is no excuse to betray us like this. He should have told me, I would have arranged for their safety. Then Jacob told me he will need to interrogate Nelson today, to have his account on what happened during his captivity. He asked me to be there just in case. I am thrilled that my sadist friend already managed to get a full confession from the asshole who abused my boy. It also blames my father's henchman for organizing the whole thing, they are planning on arresting him later today but they need Nelson's testimony before that. I am not sure my friend will manage to turn him against my father though, he must be one of his most loyal employees. The discussion around the collar makes me think I will have to use a new one with a new tracker. I called Faya and told him to arrange that, as well as a meeting with Frank Black, my father's second-in-command tonight. I have to try personally if I want to make him switch sides. Getting his votes has become extremely urgent and now that my boy has been freed, I can't be sure my father won't try something more violent, so he needs to be arrested as soon as possible.

While I went to the waiting room to get a coffee, I was surprised to see a sleeping Callan waiting there. Apparently Jacob informed Gideon that Nelson had been found and the little crazy boy couldn't wait to see his friend. I promise I will tell him as soon as my boy awakes so that he can come and see him, which makes me think I had sworn to Liam I would keep him posted but completely forget to tell him we had found Nelson. I corrected my mistake with a text message, telling him the good news and that he is welcome to visit us at the hospital. We had long daily calls while my boy was abducted, where I shared the latest details of the investigation and he somehow managed to soothe me a bit and I must say I didn't think the guy is a jerk anymore since then. I could even think of him as a friend, someday.

When I came back to my boy's room, he was still sound asleep so I quietly sipped my coffee while I responded to some work emails and planned my next move against my father. It doesn't take too long though before he opens his eyes. Sadly, he immediately went to the bathroom to empty the contents of his stomach. I helped him by holding his hair and gently massaging his back, giving him a glass of water when he was done.  The little brat has the audacity to ask me what I am still doing here and to talk back to me. Even if I hadn't decided to go all dominant on him, this would have been enough to make this side of me resurfaced. He reacted so naturally and relaxed visibly when he knelt which comforts me in this tactic. At least he is calm enough to talk about what is bothering him. Since he is apparently afraid I am going to break up with him, I try to reassure him as best as I can that I have no intention to do so.