Chapter 84 The truth at last
Logan shook his head. He didn’t want to think that Serena’s actions had been justified. There was no way he could accept that! “The truth is, Logan, by the time I could tell you the truth, it was already too late,” she said. “You didn’t want to know the truth. You never even wanted kids. Remember telling me that in the maternity ward? You said you weren’t ready.” “It doesn’t matter what I said,” Logan argued. “The point is, I had the right to know the truth.” “Maybe you did,” Serena said, shaking her head. “In the long run, it only would have hurt Olivia and Oliver. If you love them at all, as a father or as a friend, you wouldn’t demand knowing the truth when you know it could hurt them.” Logan snarled, shaking his head. He leaned back against the wall of the tree house. It seemed so frail now that he was sober. He couldn’t remember why he had thought that the treehouse was a good place to take Serena when they had been partying together.
So long ago. It wasn’t just the alcohol that had taken his memories. It was time. Time had compromised how he viewed that night. Time and so many little changes in between. He felt like he had grown up so much since then, but the emotional impact was still so raw. “We can’t change the past,” Serena said. “I wouldn’t change it if I could.” “Why not?” Logan asked her. She shrugged.
“I love my kids. I love my career and who I have become,” she said. “I wouldn’t be any of that, nor would my kids, if I had done anything differently.” “It is easy to say that now, but you also can’t know what things would have been like,” Logan reminded her. “It is also easy to say that you would have wanted to be there, that knowing would be better,” she pointed out. “You were struggling with becoming Alpha, you had problems of your own. Would you really have wanted to raise kids along with all that?” Logan scoffed, looking away from Serena. Her questioning eyes were too much for him.
“I don’t know,” he admitted.
“I had my suspicions,“ Serena said. “About you being their father. Before I got the DNA results. There were things I noticed, like how Oliver looked like you when you were his age, how drawn to them you were and they to you.” “Why didn’t you say anything then?” he asked. “Why would I?” she asked. Logan growled again.
You still think it was better to keep your suspicions to yourself?” he asked. 2
“If I hadn’t, what would have happened?” Serena asked. “You would have demanded a DNA test. I didn’t want to put the kids through that, not when they had already grown attached to you. And I was afraid.” “Afraid of what!?” Logan snapped. Serena cringed away from his temper. “That, for one thing,” she muttered. “I was afraid that if you learned they weren’t your kids, you wouldn’t treat them the same.” Logan scoffed, shaking his head. “You really don’t know me at all, then,” he said. “I would have done right by them.” “There is no way you could,” Serena said. “Not with Holly. Not with Holly being pregnant. I didn’t get the DNA results until after she had blurted out her condition in front of us all.”
Logan sighed, remembering how he’d eavesdropped on Serena’s conversation on the phone. She’d called a medical lab. He hadn’t known what the call was about before, but now he knew that she had been asking for the DNA results. “You took my blood when you did the annual exams,” he muttered. Serena nodded. “I wasn’t going to test it at first,” she admitted. “I really didn’t want to know because of all the implications that came with it. I decided I had to know though, and that the kids had to know. If the results proved you their father, I was planning on telling you.” “But you didn’t!” he reminded her vehemently. “No, I didn’t,” she said. “By that time, Holly was pregnant. Shortly after that, you admitted that you weren’t ready to be a parent. There wasn’t any reason to tell you.” “Except for basic decency! You should have given me the choice! I should have been able to decide whether or not I was ready to be their father. I should have been able to decide how I wanted it to impact the pack and my relationship with Holly.” Logan snarled, crossing his arms over his chest again. Every time she explained more, it made him angrier! His body and hands shook with rage, and he had to keep himself
tensed up or let loose! His muscles were starting to cramp up with how tightly he was holding onto his anger.
“And while you were battling back and forth with your consciousness and your girlfriend, what would have become of the twins?” Serena asked. “You were right when you said you weren’t ready to be a father, because you can’t put the kids first. You can only whine and complain about yourself!” Snarling, Logan leapt across the small space. He grabbed Serena’s shoulders, shaking her as he growled at her. Her eyes widened, but she didn’t struggle against him. Instead, she smirked at him.
“See,” she said. “You think I’d ever let you get close to them like this?” Logan released her and turned his back on her. “You’re loving this, aren’t you?” he asked. “Rubbing this all in my face, how great of a mother you are and how horrible a father I would be. when I was never even given the
chance.” Serena scoffed. “You have no idea what I‘m feeling,” Serena stated sharply. “You think this is how | wanted you to find out? I‘ve imagined this moment over and over again, and this….this is the worst it could be!” “Were you just planning the perfect moment then? Waiting for the right time? There would never be a right time, Serena,” he said. Serena sighed, crossing her arms again. “Maybe not,” she said. “But you know the truth now. What are you going to do with it?” Logan looked out of the treehouse and down to the ground. He didn’t have an answer for Serena. She had made a lot of points, and while all of them were justified for her, none of them were to him.
He tried to see it from her perspective. If he had been in her place, would he have done things differently? He would have liked to think so! “I don’t know,” he said finally. “All I know is that I feel a deep sense of betrayal and hurt. You lied to me.” “I didn’t lie,” Serena said. “I omitted the truth.” Logan scoffed.
“You really think now is the best time to split hairs?” he asked. “Lying by omission is still lying! You‘re so concerned about the wellbeing of the kids, and you never thought about what would happen
when the truth did come out!” “What do you mean by that?” Serena asked,
“You think it won’t hurt them now to find out the truth? You‘re right, I can’t be there for them the way I should be with Holly and another baby. Won’t it hurt them now to know the truth and have me be an absentee father?” he asked.
Serena sighed again, turning away from him. “I don’t know what to tell them,” she admitted, “I haven’t thought that far ahead.”
“Neither have I,” Logan said. He looked back out the window. A chilly wind rocked the treehouse. The branches around the treehouse creaked. Serena was calm. Her calmness irritated Logan more. He still felt like she had been unfair to him.
“I always felt like Olivia and Oliver were special,” he said. “Like they were connected to the pack.” “Through you, they are,” she said absently. “I want to know they are taken care of,” he said. Serena’s eyes snapped to him, glaring at him.
“You think I don’t!?” she asked. Logan shook his head. “That’s not what I meant,” he said quickly. “I want to know that going forward they will always being cared for, even if I can’t be around.”
“Well, you make that very difficult when you go around accusing me have having non-existent relationships with other males…” Logan growled when she brought that up again!
“That isn’t exactly what I meant,” he grumbled. Serena scoffed.
“You can’t have it both ways!” she hissed. “You can’t be their father but not be their father. You can’t care for them but not be around. You can’t deny me a future with anyone else when you can’t be in that future.”
“I know that!” Logan cried, losing control on his anger in one final burst. “I know it all! But this is the situation you have created, and now something has to be done about it