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I was awake, but I didn't have the courage to get out of bed. I buried myself deeper in the comforter and seemed to have no intention of getting up. Luca had already been gone from my side for a while since he woke up early, but I still didn't have the courage to show myself to him.
Luca didn't respond to my confession last night. I immediately turned my back on him afterward and pretended to be asleep, even though the truth was I didn't get any sleep all night. I think I only slept for a few hours while trying to feel Luca next to me.
"I must be out of my mind," I mumbled and gripped my hair again.
What is he thinking about me? Does he think I'm too fast? I'm dying to know what he's thinking about my confession! I think I'm going crazy from all this thinking.
"W-What if he brings it up when he sees me?" I nervously asked myself, then gripped my comforter tighter.
I flinched in surprise when I heard the door open. I buried myself deeper in the comforter and closed my eyes to pretend to be asleep. My heart beat faster when I heard Luca's footsteps. I felt him sit on the bed and grip my comforter.
"Hey... I know you're awake," he said and pulled the comforter away from me.
I looked at him and cleared my throat. I bet I look like a bright tomato right now. "C-Can't you see that I'm still sleeping. Y-You're disrespectful," I mumbled and took the comforter from him again. I wrapped it around myself once more.
"Stop being cute. Fucking get your ass off the bed and take a shower. I brought your clothes and books," Luca said and immediately stood up. I heard his footsteps until he left the room and closed the door.
I just blinked because the only word I understood from what he said was "cute." My eyes widened, along with the increasing heat in both of my cheeks. I just shook my head and gently patted my cheeks. I took a deep breath and took off the comforter, but I almost jumped in surprise when I saw Luca standing by the door. His back was leaning against it, with his hands in his pockets, staring at me.
"You were the one who had the courage to confess last night, and now you're shy?" Luca asked; I don't know if he was teasing me or what.
I took my eyeglasses from the bedside table and put them on. I threw a pillow at him after that, which he immediately caught. "I-I told you! D-Don't bring it up," I said shyly, then adjusted my glasses.
Luca didn't say anything. He just threw the pillow back on the bed. I looked at him; he was looking at me too. I couldn't read what he was thinking right now.
"Just take a shower and go to the kitchen after," he commanded, then immediately left the room.
I just sighed and scratched the back of my neck. I still couldn't get him. Maybe even though I told him last night to pretend, he wouldn't do it right away because he had already shown me his true self.
I just shook my head and stood up. I saw a huge bag and a lot of paper bags on the bed. I immediately looked at them; the big bag contained clothes and the paper bags contained books. I just took some clothes and went to the bathroom to take a shower.
I stayed in the bathroom for a while. I was staring blankly for a long time before I started to shower. I'm still thinking about how to act in front of Luca. Just because I confessed my feelings to him doesn't mean I should flirt with him, right? Though honestly, I want him to like me back even if it's impossible. I'm just here because he needs me... He needs comfort and distraction... I honestly want something more than that, but I shouldn't be selfish. After this, I'll go back to my normal life. I'll just make the most of the days I'm with him, even if he doesn't feel anything for me.
I just went to the kitchen after I took a bath. I found Luca there cooking. I just stayed quiet and watched what he was doing. I bit my lower lip while staring at him. He's just wearing casual clothes, a black t-shirt that's a bit tight on him and comfy gray jogging pants. I just smiled when I noticed his hair was getting a little longer.
I just cleared my throat and discreetly walked closer to him. Maybe I'll just act normal around him. I have nothing to be ashamed of anyway. I was too shameless last night. There's nothing to be ashamed of anymore because I can't take back what I said last night.
"Um... what are you cooking?" I asked softly and peeked at what he was cooking.
"Hotdogs," he answered curtly.
I scoffed. "Hotdogs again," I mumbled.
"That's the only food inside my fridge," he just said.
I just nodded and tapped my fingers on the kitchen counter as I watched him cook. "I want to go grocery shopping," I whispered, then bit my lower lip.
"Then do it."
I just pouted and fixed my glasses. He's still grumpy.
"Luca... Um..." I cleared my throat and roamed my eyes around the place.
"What?" he asked grumpily.
"W-What are your thoughts?" I asked and looked at the hotdogs he was cooking.
"Thoughts about what?"
"About me... l-liking you?" I asked in a soft voice and played with my fingers.
Luca didn't answer right away. He put the hotdogs on a plate and went to the table. I immediately followed him and sat in the chair next to him. I cleared my throat again and stared at him, still waiting for his answer.
"You're just confused. It's maybe because you haven't had a boyfriend or someone you like before," Luca just said, then put hotdogs on his plate and my plate.
"So... I will know if I truly like you if I'll try to hang out with other guys aside from you?" I asked and poked the hotdog with a fork.
He was clearly taken aback by my question. He just cleared his throat and put rice on both of our plates.
"What kind of reasoning is that?" he just asked, not looking at me.
I just sighed and bit into the hotdog. "I just want to know your thoughts about it... What you're saying is so far off," I just whispered and fixed my glasses.
Luca didn't say anything and just started eating. I just bit my lower lip and ate too. It looks like he really has no intention of answering my question.
After we finished eating, Luca took our plates and washed them. I just quietly watched him. Why is he so quiet now? I got used to his talkative and clingy version... but oddly, I like his true version too.
I stood up and went to him, who was still busy washing the dishes. I don't know what got into me; I moved my arms and hugged him from behind. Luca was clearly taken aback. I expected him to push me away, but he didn't move; it was as if he was surprised by what I did.
"W-What the fuck are you doing, Crescent?" Luca asked, still unable to move. "You've become shameless."
I just pressed my cheek against his back and hugged him tighter. Luca immediately grabbed my hands and tried to remove my hug. I just bit my lower lip when he was able to remove it. He faced me, his forehead was furrowed and he looked angry.
"Have you really gone mad, Crescent?" he asked; it feels like he's just restraining himself from raising his voice.