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I just bit my lower lip and went out of my room. I was like a wilted vegetable as I headed to the kitchen, but I backed away in surprise when I saw Luca sitting in a chair. He wasn't wearing a shirt, so I could see his muscular body, which was covered in tattoos and scars. He took a drag from his cigarette and blew out smoke before looking at me.
"Hey." He smiled at me and puffed on his cigarette again.
My vision became blurry as I looked at him, and the corners of my eyes started to sting. I clenched my fists and avoided his gaze.
"Y-You're still here," I just said.
"Why would I leave?" he asked and put his cigarette on the ash tray.
I looked at the floor and fixed my glasses. "A-About what I said earlier..." I trailed off, "i-it was rude, I-I'm sorry..."
I want to slap myself when a sob escaped from my lips. It seems like Luca heard that. He stood up and came closer to me, then held my face to make me look at him. He gently cupped both of my cheeks and stared at me. I tried to remove his hands, but I'm so weak right now. My tears finally escaped as I looked into his eyes... Luca's eyes softened while staring at me.
"Damn, girl... What are you even apologizing for? I don't deserve it," Luca muttered and gently wiped the tears on my cheeks.
"I-I was so rude earlier... I-I might have hurt your feelings, and... and..." I couldn't continue what I was going to say.
Luca's lips parted while staring at me; I couldn't read what he's thinking. He seems amazed for some unknown reason... "Damn, Crescent... you're so soft," he mumbled and pinched my cheeks.
"Y-Yes, I'm kinda soft since I'm chubby," I said and touched my cheek. But his hand was there, so I ended up touching his hand. I gasped and immediately moved my hand away, but he didn't seem to mind it.
"That's not what I mean," Luca said and smiled at me.
Luca brought his face closer to mine and kissed my lips. I just closed my eyes and responded to his gentle kiss. One of his hands went down to my waist and pulled me closer to him.
I gently pushed Luca's hard chest and looked at him... "A-Are we gonna have sex?" I asked bluntly.
Luca chuckled. "Hmm, I'm honestly not in the mood for that, though... but if you want to, it's fine," he said as if teasing me.
"I-I'm not in the mood either," I just said and cleared my throat.
Luca let out a manly chuckle again. He hugged my waist with both of his strong arms and rested his forehead on my shoulder. "Crescent, I'm really sorry... Let me make it up to you."
I couldn't speak right away, but I just let him hug me. I bit my lower lip and gently lifted my hands to hug him back. I can feel his hot bare skin... I don't want to hug him back, but it feels like my arms are moving on their own.
We stayed in that position for a while. Until Luca finally carried me to the room. We both lay on the bed. My head was resting on Luca's muscular arm while he was gently caressing my hair.
We both remained silent. Neither of us had the courage to speak, or maybe it's because we had nothing to say. I just closed my eyes... Luca's caresses on my hair are making me sleepy.
"Do you like me, Crescent?"
I froze at Luca's sudden question. I opened my eyes as my heart went wild... Even though I don't know if that's the real answer in my heart, I still answered his question. "O-Of course not."
He seemed to let out a sigh of relief at what I said; I don't know if I should be happy about that or not.
"That's good to hear, you shouldn't like me... You're too good, too precious, too fragile... I'll just break you," Luca muttered and pulled me closer to him.
"T-Then you shouldn't do things that will make me like you," I mumbled and bit my lower lip. Luca was silent for a moment. I just went silent too and held the pillow tightly.
"I'm really a fool; I realized it too late that you're too good for me... If I could just turn back time, I won't approach you like a jerk... but I don't know, I can't stay away from you now, even if I try."
I remained silent... I don't know what to say. I don't know where this conversation is going... I'm scared of where it's headed.
"Can we just stay like this... can I just do all these without you falling in love with me?" Luca asked.
I looked at him; he's looking at me, too. I bit my bottom lip and didn't respond... That's not possible.
"I'm being selfish, am I?" Luca smiled bitterly and caressed my cheek. "I'm not really a good man, Crescent... I'm not a gentleman and kind; I wasn't really like this... If you meet the real me, you'll surely run away from me," he said seriously while still staring at me.
"L-Luca."
"That's why you need to guard your heart from a jerk like me... Even if I do this..." He hugged my waist then kissed my lips. "You shouldn't fall in love," he added and stared at me again.
"C-Can I still back out?" I asked and looked away from him.
Luca couldn't speak. I just stared at his chest and kept my gaze away from him. I froze when he answered my question, but it wasn't the answer I was expecting.
"No... you're not allowed to back out now."
I looked at Luca. I swallowed when I noticed that the way he's looking at me has changed... His soft stare earlier has turned into a cold and mysterious one... I gulped and was about to pull my body away from him, but he immediately hugged my waist and pulled me closer to him.
"L-Luca, w-what's happening to you?"
I gasped when he suddenly went on top of me. He put his hands on both sides of my head while staring intently at me.
"Damn, acting like a soft-spoken gentleman doesn't really suit me... I'm getting tired of this shit," he mumbled while staring intently at me.
"L-Luca..."
"I'm a thief and a killer, Crescent... I kill people and steal all their riches after killing them. I hurt, tortured, and killed a lot of people, even innocent ones. I use women to entertain and distract myself... I'm a soldier, but my purpose is not to protect people but to use and kill them like tools."
My lips parted. I want to speak, but no voice came out, not even a little.
"I guess you just have to bear with me until I'm done with you; I won't act like a creepy sweet gentleman this time; I'm fucking done with it... You'll have to bear with the real me as I don't have plans on letting you go for now..." He buried his face on my neck. "Your presence is giving me comfort for some unknown reason... I will leave you like nothing happened once I'm done with you... Be thankful that I'm not gonna kill you after that."
I blinked at what he said. I couldn't move; my knees and hands immediately trembled for some unknown reason... How did he change so fast? If that's the case... is this the real him? Is the gentleman and sweet version of him just a facade?
"You should have run away from me when you had the chance, Crescent."