Chapter song motivation by Kelly Rowland
Everything went silent hearing only the adrenaline in me pumping and his now soft breathing. I hurt myself by hurting him, his words pierced my soul deeper than I imagined. All these times he was alive hating myself over and over again for that grave stupidity. I couldn't even send a search party for his body because I was scared of what I will see, his body looking back at me eating the guilt so I freaked out. I was scared and regret didn't leave my heart rather it lived inside a home. I couldn't bring myself to look at his body, I couldn't bring myself to bury him, I couldn't bring myself to see if he was alive after such a heavy fall; so looking at him now in the eye, his hands holding mine, saying those hurtful words I bawled my eyes.
Untangling my hands from the gun. "I- I can't do it. I don't want to. Please Elijah, don't make me do it." My head falls to his broad chest weeping. I don't want to lose him again. I can't.
Looking up at him red pupil and deep grey meets mine, dauntless. "I'm sorry. Please forgive me. I am sorry papi."
"You are always sorry. Have you thought of what..." He pause pulling away making me cry harder begging for his touch once more. Not a word he moves to the door, alarmed I block his path pleading with my eyes because words cannot justify what I did to him. He didn't even look at me, carefully pulls me aside walking to the door.
Sobbing uncontrollably. "So yes I'm always sorry. I don't know what to say to prove how sorry I am Elijah, for what I did to you. I made a promise that cost me the man I love, I wanted to prove to myself that I can do it but it cost me something more and if... if." Choking on my own tears. "I made a mistake Elijah, I hurt you more than I can say and I get you will not want me after this. I know that I have lost your trust and love; just want to know I was scared, I still am. I could have done something, anything but the fear of looking at your corpse killed me because I caused it. So I ran, yes I ran." Sniffing. "But I couldn't run from the memories, the nightmare of that night, I couldn't run from you. I lost myself that night and prayed that my soul can be redeemed. That I will get to see you soon and ask for your forgiveness."
"If you walking out of my life pays for my sins to you I will let you go, just don't ask me to forget you. Please. I know you won't believe what I'm saying but I love you Elijah. Always have, always will." Sobbing hearing the door close I know I have lost my man. Dejected, I slip to the wooden floor sobbing my heart out in silence.
Whispering softly for my heart to let him go and rid me of the pains I bear. "I love you Papi."
"I love you Princess."
Like a whiplash my whole body awaken looking at him crouching behind me. This time happy tears flow down my eyes immediately wrapping my hands on his neck.
"I'm sorry." Saying over and over repeatedly as I cry on his neck. He pulls me away looking at me faced down; why because I either couldn't stop crying or the guilt of him not leaving me. I didn't deserve him.
"Why are you shaking your head?" I didn't even know I did it.
Sniffing. "I don't deserve you. This. I hurt you."
"Come. Let me show you how much you deserve me." Picking me up to the bed. "Let me tell you the many reasons why you deserve me." Pulling at the strings of my dress as it pool around my feet leaving me naked under his gaze raking me. His lips trails over my expose hot skin begging for him, surrending every willpower to him. Softly he kiss my belly flitting his eyes to me standing back up.
Taking his clothes off he make a step sending me falling on the bed, crawling on top of me never losing eye contact as he lined his thick bulge to my awaiting wet pussy. "Even death won't keep us apart Princess. Nothing will stop me from having you as mine, not even you because what Princess?" Sliding to a hilt fluttering my eyes close.
"You are mine...uhh yes." The feel so intense I cried out. So full that my walls spasms, quivering like a million bolts electrocuted my wetness.
"That's right. I am yours." He says affirmative thrusting inside of me. My head in euphoria as my juice coats his dick driving in and out of me like a loose cannon. Deliciously hitting all the right places in me. His lips fall on mine with my hands on him as he fucks me sensually.
"Mmmh. Oh yes." Words cannot describe how I'm feeling, the expertise of his movements. Precise, powerful.
"You belong to the King." He commands firmly looking at me. I squirm hard under his hypnotic grey till it flutters close again when his thumb rubs my bud. Mewling, moaning and creaming my pussy took me to my first orgasm crying his name out loud.
"Fuck. Papi. Mmh." Fixing my legs on his neck holding them still he thrusts increase pace. My hands fly to my breasts squeezing, tugging my nipples as sweet moans falls out of my lips. It's so good I just want to explode.
"Yes! Oh yes! Uhhh!"
"Fuck Nia." The sexiest groan escapes his lips driving us into cloud nine. This position drive me farther in a passionate universe thrusting to his pace. Rolling his lips, sucking my hot flesh, gripping my waist as his hips joins to mine erotically.
"Elijah...I love you so much." Flipping me on fours, his hand dig into my waist fucking me so fast I see stars and explosions.
"Fuck!" I cry out taking the sweetest pain known to mankind. I wanted more. I had to have more holding the sheets for balance.
"Harder! Faster! Oh fuck yes! Uh-huh. Mmmh." My inside turns a gooey honey mess leaking juice. Slurpy sounds echoes out of his hard thrusts assaulting my sweet spot intimately.
Fuck.
"Fuck princess." He groans pulling me up in a cowgirl. My eyes meets his; not a word or sound escaping, merely looking at each other, caressing each other, fucking each other's brains out.
"Papi." That feeling building in the depths of my stomach I call to him clenching hard that his
head falls to my neck groaning deeply.
"Oh yes...papi!" Holding him bouncing hard on his thickness. He just held me as I ride him hard that my legs begins to quiver.
Cumming. Cumming.
My inner voice yells to me.
"Uuh yes! Mmmh!" I didn't want to end this feeling but I also couldn't stop the beautiful wave of orgasm they came seconds after riding him harder and faster hearing him moan my name. Holding me like he never wants to let go, bringing my lost soul back.
"I love you Papi." Panting breathlessly. My soul is back.
"I love you Princess." Bright grey snaps to me saying those perfect words breathlessly. I came again.
Our day continued with us having passionate sex all through. And I couldn't be more happier.
I regret the yesterdays but I look forward to tomorrows...with Elijah.