With a smile on my face my eyes begins to flutter open turning from my side to face up. I just had a dream, the first of its kind in the past how many dark days. Elijah and I sitting on the beach bathing his extremely pale skin under the sun to get him a tan. It was just hilarious, guess his skin is as hard as his head whining about how much he wants to fuck me than to go through the horror of tanning. Playing fair I roll sitting on him, thick fingers brush my hair aside pulling me down to him inches away from that piercing grey.
I love you princess.
My eyes open.
My heart heavy thinking of the man I love who I killed and if I will ever hear him say that to me or will it always be in a dream I hear those perfect words again. I just... WTF.
Looking down at myself, I'm still in the dress I wore but not my home. Quiet yet cautious I step down to the verander seeing a shinning black car. My car sits outside the beach house. I begin to rake my head of the possibility of running away or getting kidnap in my own ride because I can't remember much from last night. It can't be.
Movements distracts me bracing myself for a fight, luckily my gaze shifts to a gun by the table quickly rushing to it. Fuck! Just one bullet hearing the footstep get closer. All for one. The knob twist open and in came...
"Alexei?" Fear gripped me. Not the psycho brother. "H-how did you find me?" Tremor seizing my frail heart. I'm going to die, he is going to kill me for killing his brother. My hand literally freeze not being able to shoot. I couldn't even if I wanted to.
"I can explain." Unintentionally moving back. His head cocks to the side letting the crazy grin free. It only made me want to bawl my eyes out and beg for forgiveness. To make it worse, he comes to me.
"Please."
"Have at it Sonia. You shot my brother, left him for dead in Berlin and thought I wouldn't find you?" Oh the sob build up to my throat but I swallowed it back in.
Getting closer and closer. "Alexie h-he ...he..." Meeting the wall or what felt like it. Slowly I turn following Alexei eyes.
"Elijah?" Flinching away from the ghost as if burned. This is not real Sonia. This is not real.
He looks like my Elijah, talk like him; same eyes, same face, same body build. I have to be dreaming this. Elijah is dead. So why will he come back to torture me with hallucinations?
"Leave us." He commands.
"Elijah?" Taking a step towards me I pull up the gun pointing it to him. I don't care what kind of joke or imposter this is but if he takes another step I will shoot his fucking brains out.
His piercing grey leaves mine to the gun in my hand blinking before it comes back to me. Angry.
Boldly, he walks to me while I stood rooted in place my hands shaking assessing the man in my front. Sonia you have to wake up. "This time your target should be here" his voice accusing, hurt and angry taking my hands in his moving the nuzzle to his head looking hard at me..."or here," trailing it down to his chest directly to his heart "that way you will truly kill
me." Same electrifying feel as he touch me, same hypnotic grey pool. My focus is on the hand holding mine that points the gun to his heart.
"Do you want that princess?" Snapping my gaze to his, tears I didn't know gathered in my eyes spilled down my face. My hallucination can't be this real neither will a ghost have this effect on me.
"Pull the fucking trigger Sonia!" He bellow in anger as I cry harder.
"I- I am s-sorry."
"You did it once. I'm sure you can do it again."
I want to tell him I was stupid and my life has been such a huge joke without him. That every day I pray that day never existed. Instead, I cried and I cried sobbing uncontrollably.
"Stop! Stop! Please." I didn't know what to say. His grey held anger and hurt, he is angry and I deserve it. "I am sorry please forgive me." His hand held mine in place with the gun to his heart. I can't loose him again.
"Here." Three bullets fall to the wooden floor taking my eyes down to my feet. "Your reminder of killing the great Russian. Tell my child I love him, tell him I was wrong of my actions and hurt mummy. Tell him I will always be with him." My sobs increased ten fold hearing the words fly out of his lips.
"Alexei is right behind that door with instructions when you pull the trigger, nothing will happen to you when I die. He is to see that you and the baby is healthy and when he has come of age he will take over from Alexei." His broken eyes looks to mine red and soft, stepping closer his head rest on mine. "Please let him know his father that is all I ask, and how great of an empire he is born into because he is a king just as his father and the father's before his father. Do not deny him of his Russian heritage, okay." I couldn't stop the tears as much as I try. Thrusting the gun poking his chest harder he sighs before saying. "This time you don't need three bullets." Cocking the gun his eye slowly close whispering softly.
"I love you Princess. Now pull the trigger."