Chapter 16: Ambiguity

Kelly's POV

I stood behind the door and looked through the camera at the man standing, "Jacob, what are you doing here?"

I picked up the intercom and talked to him.

"I took Lily to the playground today, halfway through my mother called and said she wasn't feeling well so I took her with me, Lily was so cute and my mother liked it so much that she asked me to come and talk to you about if I could stay at my house for the night."

Jacob and I explained in detail why he was standing here and I was happy that Lily was liked, "Just wait for me to change my clothes."

I go back to my room and hurriedly change my clothes, "It's been a long time, come in and sit down, I'll organize anything Lily needs now."

Jacob stood still as I handed him the things Lily needed and noticed something was wrong with his eyes.

"Hey, what's wrong with you, are you uncomfortable?" I waved my hand in front of his eyes, wondering what was wrong.

"Uh ...... nothing, were you just cleaning?" Jacob pointed to my dripping hair.

"Just taking a bubble bath, if you hadn't knocked I might have slept through it."

Jacob didn't rush off, instead he took a seat on the couch, today he was dressed casually, looking energized in a black sweatshirt with white sneakers.

"Is there something else you want to do?"

"I want to talk to you, Kelly, don't avoid my eyes." He leaned back on the couch, exuding a lazy aura as I stood in the doorway looking over as if he were a large dog.

"I'm not running away, we're going to be best friends, Jacob ......"

"Don't you ever think about Lily? She's growing up, don't you want her to have a whole family?"

"I've thought about those things, but I can't hurt you for my selfishness, you're my best friend and so is Kate. You guys reached out to me when I needed help the most and I've been so grateful."

"No, you know that, I've been selfless in my help for you, and it could have been even more ......"

"But that would make me feel sorry for you, that I'm using you."

"I'm volunteering."

"And would your family agree to that?Jacob, even though you haven't said anything about your family, I'll see, you can't hide it. The fact that you used Lily as a test today will make me feel even more guilty."

Seeing me talking more and more, Jacob walked up to me and took my hand and put it on his chest, "I get it, you're a good girl and I didn't do enough to make you feel safe. You're right, we're good friends, I hope you'll give me time to touch you with love ......"

Jacob spoke with a soft look and a reverent tone, and I saw determination in his eyes.

But as he spoke, my fingers subconsciously pinched his chest, as he was wearing a tracksuit today, a cotton fabric that was very light ......

His muscles were hard and felt good in my hands. I didn't resist touching him twice more, and just as I was about to pull my hand back, Jacob pressed my hand against his chest, "Like it so much, then touch me twice more, no charge."

"Who's going to touch you, you're the one holding my hand down to keep me away."

As I struggled my fingers touched the raised spot on his chest, not reacting I snapped my fingers.

Jacob's muffled grunt came from above my head, the sound was sexy in a way I hadn't heard before.

"Are you ...... okay?" I quickly retracted my hand, apologizing profusely, "I didn't mean to."

"Still happy?" Jacob asked, tossing his hair and craning his neck.

"Satisfied with what? Your pecs ...... are really good, you don't usually work out much."

"No, your fingers touching ......"

"Speak properly ...... I even apologized like you did." I tried to break away from his large hand.

"You said it, we're good friends and I was asking how you felt." The way he looked at me remained the same, ambiguous with some kind of unknown light in his eyes that I couldn't take my eyes off of.

This was the first time I seriously scrutinized Jacob, and then joked, "With such a handsome face and fit body, your girlfriend in the future must be very happy."

I said jokingly, but Jacob's face was gloomy.

At this moment, I felt that I had said the wrong thing, although I didn't know what I had said wrong.

"Well ...... it's getting late, hurry back, these are Lily's things, take them with you."

I said to Jacob as I left my bag at the door and opened it.

Jacob pressed me against the door and braced his hands on either side of my shoulders, he edged closer to me and when I thought he was going to kiss me on the lips, I turned my head away to avoid his kiss.

"Don't ever say anything like that again, you know I'll be upset."

"You're making me feel even more like I'm being selfish."

"Well, then be selfish for once, won't you? You see I desire you too."

He moved his hips forward, pressing against me, and I could visibly feel his erection.

After leaning in and breathing clearly into my ear, I couldn't take the excitement and wanted to get away.

I'm no match for Jacob, not as strong as he is.

"Don't try to push me on other women, I don't need it." He said as he wiggled his hips rubbing back and forth on me in a regular rhythm, "Mmmm ...... mmmm ...... so good."

The breath was getting thicker and his movements faster, "Jacob......Jacob...... you be sensible."

"What are you afraid of? We didn't have a substantial relationship, at most you can sue me for sexual harassment, which is fine with me. But before you sue me, can you let me release it ......It's my biological need ......"

I was exasperated by what Jacob said, "If you have a physiological need, go find a woman to solve it, I don't believe there is no woman who is not willing to sleep with you. And ......Jacob, I don't believe you don't have a mistress in New York."

I was so aroused by Jacob's actions that for a moment I wanted to give up my hold.

But reason pulled me back from the edge of danger and I spoke calmly, the lust on Jacob's face had disappeared and stopped his movements, "Kelly, you're different, they're just mistresses ......"

"So you want me to be your mistress too? Isn't what you just did forcing me to do something I don't want to do, you're really letting me down."

I placed my hands and went limp in Jacob's arms, my legs and feet were weak and I had absolutely no strength to stand, relying on him to hold me up.

My hair was still dry and I was crying in Jacob's arms.

I look back on it with a bit of trepidation, afraid that he would control more than himself and insist on having sex with me

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, it was my fault, I was wrong, I apologize." Jacob picked me up and came to sit on the couch, stroking my cheeks with both hands.

"I'm sorry, don't cry, it hurts me when I cry. You have to give me another chance ......"

I leaned on his shoulder and kept crying, I couldn't solve the current situation, full of powerlessness swept through my body.

"You go ahead and remember to send Lily back tomorrow, and don't come looking for me for the last while."

I wiped the tears from my eyes and disengaged myself from Jacob's embrace, never looking at him again.

Kate came back in the evening and didn't see Lily, I told her that Lily had gone to Jacob's house for the night.

Kate is surprised and looks at me wistfully, "You two must have issues."