Chapter 60 The Farewell
By Valeria
I organized all the files so that my replacement could open them as Alejandro gave him the key to each file, because each one belonged to a different company.
I had the ticket on my phone, I would pick it up the next day, at the time of traveling.
Around 7 PM, I left.
I didn't stop to say goodbye, nor did I let him know I was leaving.
It wasn't worth it.
I meant nothing to him, because if it hadn't been my cousin, it would have been someone else, and after that night, ours, he wasted no time finding another immediately.
No one, in his entire life, will love him like I do.
I don't think that matters much to him either.
I got to my apartment, Emi wasn't there.
We didn't see each other much, she often stayed over at Omar's.
She will end up suffering, Omar is just like Alejandro, when I tried to tell her, she got offended.
It seemed like she cut off our relationship.
She preferred to deceive herself and distance herself from me.
I packed my suitcases, put in as much clothing as I could.
The ones I liked the most, I want to leave everything ready.
I have everything planned, step by step.
Three suitcases, a bag, a backpack, and my purse.
My laptop.
I’m not taking much more.
Not telling Emi I'm leaving also hurts.
I can't trust my best friend.
Emi was more than a sister to me.
We shared thousands of things, she chose to think I'm not her friend.
I fell asleep late, distressed and desperate, knowing it was the last night I would sleep in that apartment.
I don't know when I would return.
Even though I didn't know if I would have the will to get on the plane.
I am going to leave everything behind.
I feel like everyone is abandoning me, that I am alone in the world.
After sleeping little and poorly, I arrived at Alejandro's house, knowing he wouldn't be with another woman.
He was awake when I entered his room and alone…
We barely greeted each other.
He went to shower, I prepared his clothes and made him breakfast.
We continued with the usual routine, though almost in silence.
Each of us was lost in our thoughts.
I tied his tie and of course, he took the opportunity to hug me.
I closed my eyes, it was possibly the last time I would tie his tie and his last hug.
Of course, I trembled, I was distressed, scared, and desolate.
He kissed my forehead.
In the car, I informed him of a morning meeting and then scheduled a meeting for two in the afternoon, where my presence was not required.
I think my voice trembled, it was betraying me, I just hoped to be brave and manage to get on the plane, the rest… I didn’t want to think about it.
I still hadn't spoken to my sister or my parents.
We won't share anything anymore, Ale and I.
If I thought about it that way, I would go crazy.
Possibly in a week, he wouldn't remember me anymore.
Tears were pushing to escape my eyes.
We arrived at the office, and he canceled the morning meeting.
Alejandro asked me to go to his office.
He was standing, back to the door, looking out the window.
With his head down.
Such a different pose from the overwhelming man who would advance on me with a look and burn me inside.
He was tormented.
I don't think it was because of me.
I don't consider myself that important to him.
“Vale…”
He turns and takes the few steps that separate us and hugs me, tightly, as if he wanted to merge with me.
“Forgive me, Vale, I realized I can't live without you, I love you.”
If Ale knew what his words were doing to me…
I can't trust him, he's not a liar, I know that, he doesn't need to be, I'm sure at this moment he believes he loves me, but among his flaws, he is capricious, a man used to seducing, commanding, getting what he wants and I, apparently, have never been at his feet, if he knew how much I love him, he would possibly forget me the next day.
Instead, I will love him for the rest of my life.
He looks at me and I get lost in his eyes, those eyes that look at me with such passion as if I were truly the most important thing in his life.
The air between us becomes one, and he is devouring my mouth.
I let myself go, but the image of my cousin and the kiss he gave Daniela, the model from Italy, the flight attendants, the countless women I pulled out of his bed or saw at the office, and when I saw him in that damn orgy crosses my mind.
It all happens that if it's not one woman, there will always be another.
I just experienced it firsthand, he was with me as if he were the most in love man in the world and I was the reason for all his lust, and hours later he ended up in my cousin's arms.
“No Ale, don't be mistaken, I can love you infinitely and adore you like a God, but I always told you that I won't be just another one on anyone's list, not even on your extensive list.”
“I love you, Vale, believe me, please.”
I am trembling, being so close to him clouds my senses.
He keeps kissing me and I want to push him away, but he won't let go. His hands go straight to my breasts and I feel all his manliness against me. Soon, his warmth invades me entirely and I hear his rough moans, which shake my soul.
And once again, I fell into his arms.
He didn't even close his office door before Ale pulled off my pantyhose and my thong along with my blouse. Once again, they were on the floor of his office and he, with his pants down, dragged me to the couch he had there. I don't even want to think about how many others have been there, nor do I think about the fact that in a few hours, I will be far away from here.
Maybe that's why I let myself go.
That, and because I love him, I desire him, and my body yearns for his.
I sat on him and there was no turning back. We devoured each other as if there was no tomorrow, and in truth, there wasn't, at least not together.
A powerful, intense, unique orgasm overtook me.
I couldn't stop moving, feeling him, touching him.
I feel him arrive, releasing all of himself inside me.
We stayed embraced for a long time.
In silence.
He withdrew from me, also in silence.
"Ale... we didn't use protection."
"I love you, Vale, and I want to have a child with you."
"That's crazy, I told you I'm not ready to have a child under these conditions."
"We can get married."
His words surprised me.
If he hadn't gone out last night, I might have believed he really wanted that.
He wants to control the situation in any way he can.
He doesn't think about the consequences.
"You're crazy."
I told him sincerely.
"Crazy for you, I love you."
"Stop saying that. If you loved me, you wouldn't have gone out after that night... you showed me it meant nothing to you, and it was too important for me."
"It was a mistake."
"You call it a mistake to seek out another woman, just hours after being with me... I'll give you that, but you showed me that night wasn't important and that I'm not important to you either. Maybe the mistake is having sex all the time; for you, what we live through are just moments."
I went into the bathroom, not wanting to argue anymore.
We rinsed off, and when he came out of the bathroom, he told me he loved me, that it wasn't just a moment.
I know that tonight or tomorrow he'll be in someone else's arms again.
I didn't doubt what Alejandro felt at that moment, but I know that's all it is, a moment, even if he says otherwise. He showed me yesterday.
It really hurt me that after so many hours of passion, he ended up in another woman's arms, and to top it off, that woman was Karina.
I saw them making love; it was different... but still, seeing it made me feel like a miniature, like a woman who means nothing, and today I'm once again giving myself body and soul.
What just happened was a mistake, but it was a farewell because if I stayed, he would go to another woman again and again, and I would fall into his arms every time.
I have no control when Alejandro is near me.
If I weren't about to leave, what just happened would have been the worst mistake.
I might have ended up being his main lover, as he proposed when we were on the plane, on the way to Spain.
"Shall we have lunch together?"
He asks suddenly.
"I have... to see Emi."
He didn't like the answer; I hope he doesn't get suspicious.
"Vale, I love you."
How hard it's going to be to disappear, to go far away...
Knowing that my heart will always belong to him.
Gonzalo arrived and they locked themselves in his office.
I told him I was going to lunch.
I went down to talk to Susana.
I told her the truth. Why make up an excuse?
I told her I hit rock bottom and couldn't be around Alejandro anymore, that he made love to me day and night, and hours later he was in another woman's arms, and not just any woman, he ended up in my cousin's arms.
She understood, though she told me a thousand times that Alejandro really loved me.
"But he replaces me with someone else hours after being with me, and it's very painful to get those women out of his bed."
I told her he had offered me, a while ago, to be his main lover.
She couldn't understand that attitude...
"I'm sorry to suddenly tell you that I'm not coming back. I swear I can't take it anymore. I organized my computer; Ale has the passwords for each of the companies."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes."
I said, crying like a child.
"In the end, I did what you asked me not to do... I had a relationship with him and fell madly in love."
"He fell in love with you too."
"But he replaces me with anyone. I swear, since yesterday, when I walked into his apartment, I've been the unhappiest woman in the world. I ask you to delay a bit when you tell him I resigned."
"You know I won't be able to delay much."
"Whatever you can do, it will help."
"Where are you going?"
I hesitated to tell her.
She doesn't deserve to be kept in the dark.
I confessed that I also argued with Emi and that he doubted our friendship.
"To Miami, with my family."
"Take care of yourself. I love you like a daughter, and María does too. Even Francisco adores you."
"I love you all very much too. You don't know what it means to me to have the enormous affection I know you have for me."
We hugged, and I kept crying. I asked her at least not to tell him where I'm going.