Chapter 12 Escape From Me
By Alejandro
I feel like the situation is slipping through my fingers and she's slipping away from me.
Valeria thought I was talking about money with my words, and I... I was confused, because at that moment I needed her so much that I was promising her whatever she demanded... in every way.
"You don't understand, I will never again be part of any man's list of women. If it serves your ego or your manhood, yes, I'm attracted to you, and I also know I'm the most envied woman for walking in with you."
"Then..."
"Then nothing. I forgave my ex-boyfriend I don't know how many infidelities. I ended up not going out, all I did was study. I left my friends aside because they'd tell me they saw him with one girl or another. I preferred to be alone. The only one who stood by me was Emi, until one day she forced me to come with her so I could see with my own eyes that I wasn't important to Diego like he was to me. He was in that damn park with his friends, hugging a gorgeous brunette. When they told him I was watching, he looked at me and kept kissing her. I left, and Emi made me understand he wasn't worth it. I never went out with anyone again, and if I have sex with you, whether it's for a day, a month, or however long it lasts, it's going to hurt. I'll lose my job, and I don't want to go through what I went through with Diego again, even though I dated him for over three years."
"You wouldn't lose your job, you're competent."
"I'm not going to be part of anyone's harem, not even yours. I'm fine alone. I even thought I was asexual."
"Asexual?"
"Yes... I can live without sex, as I've been doing since I haven't had a boyfriend."
"How long has it been?"
"Over a year, and even before that, we hardly had sex. All the other women were more interesting to him."
"That can't be, and it can't be that you haven't had sex for so long."
I understood her willpower, but surely that idiot never made her feel even half of what I would make her feel.
From what she told me and because she was young when they started dating, my calculations tell me he must have been her only boyfriend. I can't ask her, not right now. How can a man, having her, trade her for others?
My thought scared me. I'm the first to change women several times a week.
Why don't I side with that unlucky guy?
I look at her. She's so beautiful, so sexy, and so angelic at the same time that I think that idiot must be banging his head against the wall for losing such a woman.
"Do you love him?"
She smiles openly.
"No, I think I stopped loving him long before that day. Emi said it was habit and that I was afraid. She was right, but I'm not going to lie and say it didn't hurt to see him kiss another like he kissed me. That's why I'm not going to sleep with you. We're better off as boss and secretary."
"I desire you like a starving man."
"You can easily satisfy your desires with someone else."
"I can make you feel like a woman, like never before."
Her chest was heaving, I was more than excited, and we were too close.
"Val, no other woman will do. I want to have you."
I kissed her, burying my tongue in her mouth, seeking her skin with my hands.
I couldn't even suppress my rough moans.
That sexy dress didn't even have a damn slit.
"Please, Ale... I don't doubt what you'd make me feel, but you and I both know I already have countless replacements, and I..."
She says when we stop to breathe. She has no idea what she makes me feel. If she undressed right now, I'd climax just by seeing her naked. That's never happened to me.
"Val..."
"Come on, it's getting late, and we both know how this would end if we had something. You're not going to break my will."
Besides her words driving me crazy because she was absolutely right, I wanted to take her right now, and she was so firm in her thoughts that I couldn't break her, which made me want her even more.
We left her room. In the elevator, I tried to keep some distance from her. Her proximity drives me wild. When we entered the hall, with her on my arm, I felt the flashes again.
I controlled myself a bit with what I was drinking.
Even though there were many beautiful women, none could compare, and it's true that dress was too provocative. On the sides, it had lace that ended in a sort of tulle, with a lot of transparency on the legs, but even though it seemed to show too much, you couldn't see any of what I wanted to see, not even a damn slit to feel her skin.
The dress was a color somewhere between gray and camel, I can't even define it. I just watched her and saw how many of the men there were captivated by her every move.
No way was I letting her go back to the hotel alone again.
I introduced her as my secretary, though they must have thought she was my partner. When I clarified she was my secretary, they showered her with compliments, losing a bit of respect for her, knowing how my assistants usually are.
Valeria participated in the discussions about agreements and contracts like a professional, as if she knew the entire company perfectly, though she didn't even know half of our subsidiaries.
I'll inform her about a few more companies.
I love the way she works.
When they opened the dance floor, I took her by the hand. I wasn't going to leave her in Kevin's arms, who had been close to her all night.
Other business partners and CEOs from different companies couldn't stop staring at her, undressing her with their eyes.
I knew we were too close, I wanted the others to know she was mine... even if she wasn't.
Hundreds of flashes fell on us again.
I tried to behave as well as possible, those photos would reach my company and my father, and I didn't want to hear it.
I went back with her in the limousine, I didn't give anyone the chance to dance with her, though I didn't even try to kiss her.
Anyway, I was about to lose control, wanting to possess her, and I knew she would reject me. I knew I wouldn't have a relationship with her, though there would be opportunities to kiss and caress her, and if I found her a bit more vulnerable at some point, I could finally make her mine.
I can only think that at some point, I will have her.
When we entered the hotel, I saw two young women, it was obvious they were escorts. I signaled if I could hire both of them together, and they said yes.
I accompanied Valeria to the elevator, and with a wink, I walked away toward those girls.
She smiled at me as usual and got into the elevator without looking back. I know because I stayed watching to see if she would turn around, though she might have seen the gesture I made to those girls.
She probably thinks my words weren't true, that any woman would do for me and that she is just a whim.
I don't know what it is, but never with another woman do I lose control to the point where my mind goes blank and I can't think clearly.
I went up to my room with both women.
She must have heard something, but I know that the next day, though with some distance, she would do her job perfectly.
FROM VALERIA
I fell in love with him.
After what we talked about in my room, he told me he was serious because he couldn't control himself.
Even though it hurts, I know it's just a momentary thing.
If he knew that I couldn't control myself either when he was near, that his skin drove me crazy, not to mention his caresses.
I was getting used to feeling him, to his kisses.
Everything was becoming very difficult.
It hurt to see him with others, I wanted to fool myself into thinking it was just my wounded pride, knowing that when he was away from me, he already had another in his arms, but I realized it was more than that.
Again, I conjugated the verb "to love" while alone.
I wasn't his girlfriend, nor his lover, nor anything.
I'm just his secretary, his personal assistant.
He wasn't an unfaithful boyfriend.
He was honest, he only talked to me about desire.
I thought I was asexual until I felt his kisses and his caresses.
I finally admit it.
I fell in love with him!
I don't know how or when, maybe the first day when I felt his brazen gaze on me and felt that unknown internal fire, or a few days ago when we almost had sex, when I felt his member brushing against me and his deep caresses, his passionate kisses, and I returned each kiss and caress.
I felt such an intense fire inside me, like I had never felt before, it burned me, inside and out.
When we stopped for a moment to get condoms and I saw the unmade bed, not like someone who had just gotten up from sleeping, I remembered the moans he had caused that woman, I thought her perfume might still be on the sheets.
I looked at him and left, I know he called me. Why? We both knew what was happening.
I know I'm striking, that I'm pretty, but men like him had women like me, by the dozen.
I am replaceable.