Chapter 121 Unfrozen
I refuse to answer him. No matter what I say, he'll never listen to me. So, what the hell is the point?
He is insignificant. He is less than the dust of the earth. And one day, I really hope karma comes along and kicks his ass. I want him to feel every bit of pain he has inflicted upon me. I wish he was the one broken on the mattress. I wish I could be the one to hurt him... But I can't.
I wonder if he does this to other girls too, or am I just that special? To be honest, I would not wish this on my worst enemy... Well, Beth might be an exception. Not the rape. Only the fucking torture I've been put through.
"Come on, Josie! Fucking look at me! I've won! Don't you see that? You belong to me now!" he snarls as he crawls up my body. "You are mine! You are not allowed to think of that fucking prick!"
He growls as he lines himself up again, but I still refuse to even acknowledge his existence. He can rant and rave all he wants, but it's not going to change a damn thing.
That might be because my brain shut off.
But then there is a sudden commotion outside. I wonder what that is. But I'm not exactly sure I care enough to find out. I really don't even have the energy to look.
James seems shocked and freezes instantly and almost backs up when someone breaks down the damn door. "NO!" He snarls loudly in my ear.
I don't know who it is. I can't bring myself to look. I don't really know if I care or not. My head is all floaty, and I'm suddenly getting sleepy. I wonder if I can just drift off into oblivion now?
And suddenly James' heavy body is lifted from mine, and I can almost breathe.
But I'm still cold.
I focus on the snow. I can't bring myself to even look at my savior. But whoever the hell it is, he's pissed as hell. I can hear his rumbling low voice snarl words my mind is too slow to comprehend right now.
I can hear him beating the shit outta James. Good for him! I wish I had the will or the strength to do that. But I just don't.
All I have is the fucking cold.
And then I'm being covered up in a familiar jacket. I can smell him. I can feel his heat rolling off him in waves. My heart does a funny little tug.
He came for me.
"Josie?" his voice and soft. "Little dancer, look at me," he begs.
And finally, I have the strength to move my head and look in the darkness at those amazing blue eyes. I think my eyes have finally unfrozen because I feel a little tear leak out. But I don't have the energy to wipe it away.
"Josie, I'm so sorry," he sobs, pulling me into his arms. "I'm so sorry," over and over again, rocking me, holding me like he's scared to let me go. "I love you so much! Don't ever leave me again!"
I want to open my mouth. I want to tell him... something. But my body seems to be shutting down. Everything is getting heavy and slow.
"Sweetheart, I'm taking you to the doctor. The cops should be here any second. They will take care of James," he spits the name. "I have so many things to tell you, Josie," he rambles placing soft butterfly kisses along my frozen skin. "Baby, you are so cold," he gasps.
Rick picks me up in his arms, just as a bunch of strangers in uniforms storm through the door. I don't really look, but I know they are there, and I know Rick said the cops were coming, and since he doesn't seem to be surprised to see them, I'm assuming this is who he had been waiting for.
"How is she?" One of them demanded.
"She hasn't said a word since I found her. The bastard is on the floor. If you want to charge me with assault, go ahead. Just know, I'd do it over again. I'm taking her to the hospital to get checked out," his voice is deep and commanding, brooking no argument.
I shiver as soon as we step out into the snowy weather. I didn't know I could get colder than I already was.
"I'm so sorry Josie. I've got your clothes sweetheart, but I didn't want the cops to see you like that. I can help you change in my car, then I'll crank the heat..." he babbles.
I am not really aware when he places me down in the backseat and helps me into my clothes. Everything is just rote.
The first thing my brain notices is I'm not cold anymore.