Chapter 170 Need

Chapter 170 Need
Sade

Rain has been home for almost a month now. Although I haven’t been able to make love to her, I catch her watching me, and her breathing gets heavier. I know she’s trying to figure out how things are supposed to work, and I am trying not to rush her. I can’t say that I’m not sexually frustrated, though. My hand and I have become very well acquainted yet again. 

I peek into her studio several times per week as she spends quite a lot of time in there. She has finished paintings hanging on the walls or on the racks. She is working on portraits for the most part. Some look very much like us. She has painted the kids in different ways. The first one she did looked more like a memory of her and her mother. 

I had gotten her to let me see them. When I asked her about it, she told me about the Chinese restaurant that she and her mother used to go to every single month. They would eat and drink a lot of tea, and they had become friends with the older couple who ran it. That made me think of the time she froze while looking at the Chinese restaurant when we were doing surveillance. 

There was even one of me, but my face is in shadow, and I think it’s when we were dancing on the back veranda. The kids are prominent, which I would expect. There, however, is one I didn't expect to see. It is a snowy landscape, and there is a polar bear. I will never forget her thing on the island with that polar bear, so this made me pause. When I asked her about that one, she said she had no idea why she had wanted to paint it. It had just appeared on the canvas, and she went with it. I’ll have to keep an eye on that for sure. 

We had another appointment for the baby. Everything on that front looks really good, and she is starting to relax more, I think. I am trying to decide how much I should start pushing us into a closer couple bond. She lets me hold her and hug her. I have even kissed her softly repeatedly. She’s blushing less, so I think she’s getting more comfortable, so I am just debating. 

I have noticed that this evening she is really restless, and I’m not sure why. When I’ve asked her if she’s okay, she has stated that she’s ‘fine,’ which means she’s probably not, but isn’t sure what to say, so I just watch and wait. 

After the kids are in bed and we are alone in our room, she goes into the bathroom. I end up hearing her let out a frustrated growl, almost, and I open the door. She looks up at me, as I don’t normally invade her privacy in the bathroom right now. She doesn’t ask me to get out; she just watches me. 

I notice that her face is flushed, and she almost seems to be sweating slightly. I’m worried she is getting sick, so I go up behind her and wipe her brow. “Are you feeling okay? You seem really flushed.” 

She looks down at the counter, and I can see her gritting her teeth. “I don’t know what is wrong with me, and it’s driving me crazy.”
I tilt my head, looking at her. “What do you mean you don’t know what is going on? What are you feeling?” 

“I can only describe it as frustrating. I am hot, I’m sweaty, my body is tingly, and I feel like I need something, but I have no idea what. I feel weird between my legs.” Her face is bright red as she says this. 

Then it suddenly dawns on me what’s wrong. She’s turned on, and her body is needy, but she doesn’t remember feeling any of that before. So, now I am thinking about what I should do. I decide to just go for it. 

I turn her around and cup her face; she is looking up at me with so much frustration. I bend down and kiss her. At first I keep it light, but then I start to increase the fervor of the kiss. When I nip her bottom lip, she gasps, and I push my tongue into her mouth and caress hers with mine. She jerks but doesn’t pull away. I feel her wrap her arms around my neck, and I moan slightly into her mouth. 

“This is making it worse.” She whispers as she pulls slightly back. 

“That’s because your body needs something. Remember the doctor told you that your hormones would probably play havoc with your body, and pregnant women have an increase in libido and sex drive. Your body is craving me.” She’s got huge eyes as she thinks about that. 

She swallows. “What do I do?” 

“Can I touch you, Rain? Can I help you feel better? I want to make love to you so god damn bad, but I don’t know if now is the right time or not. I want to at least touch you and help you feel better. It might make the cravings back off.” Her breathing is fast, and her heart is pounding. 

“I don’t know what to do.” I can hear the worry in her soft voice.

“That’s okay, baby, I do.” She nods, and that’s all I need. 

I scoop her up and take her to our bed. I decided that it would be better if I got her warmed up before I tried to take off any of her clothes right now. So I lay her down in the middle of the bed and just lay beside her. This is familiar to her now. 

I caress her face over and over again, then lean in and start to kiss her again. This time, when I lick her bottom lip, she opens for me automatically, and I smile as I kiss her over and over again. By now, she’s panting, and she’s moaning. She has her arms wrapped around my neck as she kisses me back. I can tell she’s just copying what I’m doing, but damn does it fucking feel good. 

Now, I just have to ease her into the rest of this and see how comfortable I can make her with this.