feelings

Orion’s p.o.v

I closed my eyes, forcing sleep to come my way but nothing.

I grunted for the thousandth time as the day broke. “Fuck it” I grunted, throwing the sheets to the side.

“Are you ready to start the day sir?” one of the more human maids I had recently just created said.

I grumbled, not even bothering to answer, there was no need to actually answer them, regardless of whether or not I answered, they were going to go with the flow of what I did regardless.

“I take it you did not sleep alright my lord?” the maid said, “What seems to be the matter my lord? Would you like to talk about it?”

“I don’t know what the matter is” I said sighing into my hands. I lied. I knew what exactly the problem was.

Astrid.

I could barely get her out of my mind, especially the look of horror on her face as I eliminated those rebels that I had created.

“What is your name?” I asked her, looking at the maid as she bowed her head to answer me.

“I was given Lucy by you my lord” she said.

“hmmm.. Lucy” i said the name to myself. I looked at her for a while. She had the same physique as Astrid.

“Astrid” i called her name, wanting to taste her name on my tongue.

She bowed “is that the name you wish for me to bear now my lord?”

“No” I dismissed.

The name only suited one person and one person only on this ship. For some reason, I wanted to see her. It was as though there was a pull towards her to find her.

There was no doubt that I was starting to get attracted to her, I was craving her defiance more and more and then I was trying to make her happy, overly so even though I was failing at it.

“Stupid, you just need relief” I said to myself ruffling my hair in the process. “Yes, that is the only reason I might desire her so much that I can barely even sleep!” I mumbled to myself.

“Lucy” I called out to the willing maid who was there, waiting patiently for my next command.

“Yes my Prince?” she replied, looking at me like I was some sort of rare gold.

“Come, get down on your knees” I said, getting myself ready to relieve myself.

She did as she was told, not even putting up a fight. She looked like some thirsty thing ready to take my cock with greed ‘would Astrid have put up a fight? She looked like the type that needed her flames to be fanned in order that she shows her true form.

“Suck this” I said, putting my cock in front of her. She already knew what to do, after all, she was designed for my EVERY need.

She wasted no time, taking in a good part of me into her mouth

‘It is not warm enough, but it would have to do’ I thought as I threw my head back.

She was no doubt skilled, I made sure of that.. I felt my eyes roll to the back of my head as she ran her tongue from the base to the tip.. “Fuck” I muttered, forcing the grunts at bay…

I kept my eyes open, watching as Lucy sent me into a world of ecstasy, or at least I tried to. The more I tried to keep my eyes open, the more I found myself closing it and imagining the one person I tried to rid of from my mind.

"she does not look like she would have this much experience, her hands would be softer, she would….

I could not keep it in. The more I tried to focus, the more I thought of how inexperienced she would be and how I would taint her innocence, which sent me to pleasures gate.

I came down from my high, opening my eyes to find….

“Lucy”

“my Lord” we said at the same time

“get out” I said in a slightly annoyed voice.

I watched as she left, feeling more annoyed that I got carried away.

“who am I kidding” I said to myself with a laugh “there is no way she would even as much as look at me in a gentle manner and I am fucking sure she would bite my dick of if she even has the chance” I laughed at myself as I thought back to how her face was yesterday, full of resentment and anger as she watched as I ended those rebels.

‘but what if…” i let my mind wander for a brief second…. what if she was to let me, what if she actually let me show her this affection’ i thought to myself.

‘it’s dark, twisted, there is no way she would ever want that’ a little voice at the back of my mind whispered. I was to her, the beast…

I sighed, there was no point imagining what could be and what could not.

Dinner

I thought to myself. I would make amends for everything and hope that i have not completely fucked it up yet…

I could barely keep still throughout the day, thinking of how much or how little we were going to interact. The thought of it made my blood bubble with excitement.

“My lord” Caelum snapped me out of my day dream, looking at me like I had grown a second head.

“yes Caelum” I said, waiting patiently for him to tell me why he would snap me out of my daydream.

“forgive me sire but… you were… smiling” he said, looking unsure, whether or not he should say it

“ahh….” fuck i did go too far “where did you go? I did not see you this morning,” i said, effectively changing the topic.

It was his turn to look as uncomfortable as i felt when he told me that i was smiling

“ahh… my lord, i decided to have breakfast at the greenhouse” he said, bowing his head so i could not see his reaction.

“alone?” that was definitely not a place to go alone, it could be rather… lonely.

“of course my Lord, who else would i go with?” i nodded, finding myself lost in dream world again…

**

Dinner could not have come any slower. i, deciding to look my best actually for once, put on a suit, styling my hair a little bit so it did not look like i put in too much effort.

I found myself practically flying into the dinner hall just to see her ‘it has been too long’ i thought as i made my way into the hall as calmly as possible.

She looked tensed, barely saying anything as she ate little bits of the food till the plate was empty.

I was itching to touch her. Since the moment after with Lucy, had itched to touch her

“can I touch you?” I asked as soon as I noticed she was done with her meal. she froze up even more as I said those words. “I just want to dance, I love this song” I lied, referring to the background music, I did not even know the song that playing.

She nodded, taking my hands as we stood up… We danced for a while, with me whispering weird scenarios that made her to relax a bit and even give me some chuckles.

I felt it, even before I could look into her eyes, her essence was melting into mine completely.

She was my match, my perfect guide.

And for the first time in a while, i felt true genuine fear. I mumbled a few words before I pushed her away, running from her like my life depended on it