Chapter 197 DEEP URGE
“Hey, no need to cry,” Nixx said softly. His anger seemed to melt away, replaced by a profound sadness I hadn’t seen before. It only made me cry harder.
He reached out and took my hand gently. “I’m really sorry. I know you’re upset, but Percival was with you the whole time. It feels like you never think about me.”
I was stunned by his words. “He’s just here because he feels obligated! I can’t control him, not even our mate bond seems to help. And the last time we spoke, I thought you’d never want me again because of the terrible things I’ve done… the awful things I’ve been forced to do.” I looked away, feeling ashamed of myself and the person Anita’s wolf had shaped me into. I was genuinely frightened of being alone… not having her around. She made it sound like I could find a partner in a group that might pose a threat to me… I really needed her protection.
“I can’t deny my feelings for you,” Nixx admitted, his voice earnest. “Maybe I’m foolish, but I’m here. No matter what.”
He moved closer and sat on the edge of the bed beside my hip. “So, you actually want this pup? Even if it’s not mine?” He sounded a bit hurt.
I closed my eyes and let out a sigh. “I really want this pup because I’ve grown attached to him, no matter who his father is. Even if the circumstances were difficult, like being assaulted by a stranger, I would still love this pup. I know this might not be the response you were expecting, but it’s how I truly feel. I don’t want to be seen as the villain or the bad person in this situation. I just want to be true to myself and have the freedom to make my own choices. I can’t deny the love I have for my son. My wolf feels the same way.” I looked into his eyes, now filled with tears. “But I would cherish any pup I had. Of course, I’d be thrilled to have your child.”
“It’s kind of tricky, though,” Nixx said, his voice tense. “Since he’s my half-brother. Imagine if you and I had a puppy and it actually survived. They’d end up being like brother-cousins. Can you believe how strange that sounds?”
Wow, I never considered that perspective before. Tears welled up in my eyes, making my face scrunch up even more. “Hey, Nixx, I apologize. I’m really sorry.”
He pressed a gentle kiss to my forehead. “Hey, I apologize as well. The thing with Mirabelle was just a moment of confusion and pain. I promise it won’t happen again. I can’t predict what will happen between us, but now you have the freedom to make your own choices…”
He bent over and wrapped me in a warm embrace, instantly putting me at ease. I felt the gentle breeze against my skin as I breathed in the electrifying energy around us. The soothing hum of the current in the room made me feel completely content.
“Hey, Tatiana, I’m really sorry. Can you forgive me?”
I was just about to ask, “Forgive you for what?” but then I felt it. His teeth… They were gently grazing the nook of my neck, all the way to the gums. I was stunned, my eyes widening and my mouth hanging open in disbelief. On the other hand, I let out a satisfied sigh as he pulled me closer to him. In that moment, I sensed all his emotions flooding through me, and his thoughts flitted across my mind. I glimpsed how he perceived me, and it made me reflect on myself. An incredible rush of joy coursed through me, but it abruptly faded when he withdrew his teeth. He playfully licked the spot he had marked and then placed a sweet kiss on it.
I started struggling to catch my breath as he moved away, looking down at me with a mix of remorse and happiness.
“What on earth did you do!?” I whispered, my voice tinged with frustration. “What did you just do!”
Out of nowhere, a sharp cramp shot through my pelvis, sending a deep, unsettling sensation through my gut. I let out a loud scream.
Nixx leaped to his feet, and just as he did, Percival burst through the door, quickly scanning the room, his eyes darting between the two of us. I couldn’t help but notice him as I squirmed in agony.
“Hey, calm down!” Percival shouted, pulling Nixx out of the room while Nixx tried to scratch his arm with a clawed hand. He glanced at me and said, “Sorry, Tatiana. I had no choice. My wolf.”
It’s always the wolf.
The doctor arrived quickly as Percival and Nixx started fighting down the hall. I felt an intense pain inside me, as if my insides were being torn apart. My stomach tightened with contractions.
He was coming. Three months ahead of schedule.
Thanks to Nixx.
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Edeline
There is a certain vibe in the air, almost as if a heavy blanket of fog has settled around us, pressing down on everything.
I saw Nixx storm into the Clinic, his eyes blazing with anger. There was a wild, almost feral look about him, as if a wolf was just waiting to leap out.
He was unstoppable.
William tried to intervene, but Nixx was laser-focused on his mission. With a determined stride, he brushed past William, who could only shake his head. It is hard to stand in the way of an Alpha and their mate.
This situation was not going to end well. I knew I had to leave. I needed to wrap things up quickly and say my goodbyes.
I approached Mirabelle, a sense of urgency in my step. "Mirabelle," I said, drawing her into a warm hug. "Are you doing alright?"
Mirabelle towered over me, making me feel small in comparison. I used to tease her about how she could have been a model with her tall, slender frame.
"I'm good, Edeline," she said, her voice soft as she hugged me tightly. We held each other for a moment, our gazes locked. "I'm just... not sure. Sometimes I feel like I want to be happy. Being an Oracle is an honor, but there are times when I feel this deep urge for a connection with someone. Seeing all these mates pairing up around me, it's hard. I feel so alone sometimes." Her warm smile tugged at my heart. She would always be on her own, unless she chose to give up the Moon's gift. I wanted to convey how much I cared.