Chapter 170: After love making
Chapter 170: After love making
“So why didn’t you come to me to explain at that time?” he said.
Carina pursed her lips trying not to cry. “I was ashamed, I couldn’t look you in the face and tell you everything. I was afraid. I was so afraid because it wasn’t just about cheating, it was about the baby too, I was afraid that you would find out the whole truth that the baby wasn't yours. Because it wasn’t… and… and I hated myself for doing all that to you so I would rather see myself out of the…”
“But I already knew the baby wasn’t mine,” Harry muttered sitting up and resting his hands on his knees.
Carina gasped and went red with embarrassment, for some minutes she was dumbfounded, a lot of things were racing through her mind.
“How long have you known?” was all she could ask.
“Your mom told me, and I already knew because I overheard you when you accidentally answered my call while you and your sister were discussing this very issue,” he replied.
Carina tried to catch her breath, but she shut her eyes tightly, it was hard to believe that she had suffered so much guilt and shame when Harry had known all this while.
“Why didn’t you say anything?” She muttered as she broke into tears.
“Because I was waiting for you to open up, I tried to create the right environment, but you still chose to keep quiet, and honestly I felt it was better that way, you would think that I was weak if I knew the truth and still didn’t leave. I didn’t want you to know that I was crazy about you, I was afraid that you would abuse the power you had over me.”
Carina looked into his eyes with hurt and disappointment, she couldn’t believe she had messed up big time. She could have had it all by just telling the truth but it was all gone,
“I wanted it to be our little secret, you, me, and our baby. Nobody would know that she wasn’t mine. I wanted it that way.” Harry added, as Carina cried even more the disappointment and hurt were driving her crazy. “Why didn’t you just open up to me Carina, I gave you so many chances damn!”
“I was afraid… of being judged,” she muttered amidst her tears,
“How could I judge you? I don’t even have any right to judge you when it’s true that I married you for a promotion at work. You were looking for a father for your child, I was looking for a position at work, we both had ulterior motives. That’s why I never judged you.”
Carina crumbled even more with every word Harry said, it was hard for her to know how badly she had messed up.
“I’m sorry Harry, I’m so sorry.”
He shook his head, “It’s over now, there’s no need to apologize. I’ve learnt my lessons and I will move on with them. Let’s get out of here after we are well rested and when we get back to town let’s not speak to each other again.”