Chapter 68 The store

Chapter 68 The store
Elara
“Zara.” I whispered. She stood beside the cereal aisle. She looked rough, her hair tied in a bun. She wore skinny jeans and a large hoodie, her face was covered in a frown when she turned to look at me.

I didn’t think I would find her here, I didn’t want to speak to Clara anymore, I hate that I was even thinking about everything that she was saying, I hate that I was even considering what she meant by it, and I hate it even more that I am not mad enough.

“Just let me be.” She breathed out. “I don’t want any trouble, I just want to shop and leave.”

Yes she came for exams but she didn’t speak to anyone, since it’s a special case, she didn’t come to school until it was time for the exam, after she was done, she was immediately picked up and she was not allowed to head to the bathroom alone, because no one trusted her. They didn’t want her to have any conversation with anyone who could lead to her getting access to drugs.

“I didn’t want to bother you.” I mumbled. “I’m sorry.” I breathed out, I didn’t mean it like that but once her eyes snapped to mine.

“Sorry for what exactly Elara, calling the cops on me, telling my mom what I was doing? You ruined my life, I knew what I was doing and I would have made a hell ass of a great doctor, I clean up nice and I don’t look like a fucking drug addict, but you made all of that change, you called the cops didn’t you?” She asked.

My heart skipped a beat

“I didn’t, I swear.” I breathed out. “I would never do that, I didn’t think it would escalate, I was only trying to help.”

“You were only trying to help you, because of Landon, and hey, you won you got Landon at the end, I hope you are happy, I’m leaving for rehab tomorrow and I am never coming back to this town, my mom has to sell our house, she is never coming back, do you have any idea how much she loves that school, all her memory with Dad is in it but because of you she has to leave, we have to leave, I hope you are happy, because you didn’t just ruin my life, you ruined hers too,” Zara yelled.

My eyes burned with tears
I didn’t mean to.

“It’s going on my permanent record, I would have to work twice as hard to clear everything.”
“I was. I just wanted you to stop, I helped you, Zara. You were a drug addict, do you think that will help, you being a doctor.”

“You know nothing about me, I had to sell those fucking drugs, we may look rich, we may look pretty cleaned up, mom may have the greatest job with a great salary but we are drowning in debts, losing your husband does not really pay a lot especially after he leaves us with so many debts to pay, you know nothing.” She yelled.

“Zara I-“

She picked up the cereal and she left.

Fuck.

I ruined her life.
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I got an email from UK, it was about the scholarship and an offer, a housing offer, they are willing to not let me stay in hostel and let me stay with a second year student in a two bedroom apartment close to the school, the name of the student and her details were there, the school would cover the cost and there was also a monthly allowance added to the offer, that’s if I choose them. 

They are making it hard to say no, and there is a picture of a class attached to it, my seat, in Elias Cross's classroom, I guess he is serious about making me a part of the team

The program they offered had more benefits, it was by far better but Landon, I made him a promise, he told me not to choose because of him, I should have thought about it more and I didn’t
Fuck.

“Can I come in.”

“Yes,” I whispered. Clara’s mom walked in with a bag. “I’m here to get you ready for prom,” she smiled, “we still have a couple of hours and I thought we could chat, Clara told me what happened.”

“Are you here to tell me Landon is nothing but a mistake?”

“No but I’m here to be with you. He is not a mistake, he loves you, cares for you.”

“But I am making a huge mistake .”

“I didn’t say you were.” She breathed out. “You know what I always tell Clara, always make a decision that makes you happy, but it should always reflect on how you see yourself in the next two to five years. Do you see yourself regretting Elara, if you do, then it’s a bad decision but if you don’t, then it’s good, you are young, you are in love, it’s good but never choose a man over your career, no matter how much he loves you, if he loves you, he will let you pick your career.” She said

I froze

Will I see myself happy or regretting

I don’t know, I don’t want to think about it. I am happy at the moment, I am happy with the love of my life, and I care for him.

“If he loves you. Then this will be nothing, because art means the world for you, you fought with your parents, left home, you better make it all worth it Elara, you told your parents arts is as important as any other career, you better make a good decision that would make that true, you do not want them to win, you don’t want to live a life of regret.” She said. “But whatever you do, we are here for you, dork go fighting with Clara.”

Fuck.

I have to make a decision.