Victoria’s POV
The day my mother left me, I dread the day everyday of my life. I wish she didn’t leave us, I always prayed she is unhappy whenever she is, call me a bad daughter or a terrible human being but I wish she isn’t happy, I wish she is somewhere suffering for what she did to me and dad.
After she left, I spent most days hating her my thoughts were filled with nothing but pure hatred for her until one day I decided I have enough of that, she doesn’t deserve to be in my thoughts. I had a grave with her name on it.
I believe my mother died when she left us, she lost the right to be called my mother, if I am to see her today I don’t know if I would be happy or sad. I let out a breath, my eyes meet Kelvin who is sound asleep on the bed.
I took a quick shower and wore my clothes, it is a black dress, this is how I always dressed on the 17th, black is worn to honor the dead but I wear it honor her, I always visit the cemetery and drop flowers for that mother that loves me and not for the one that left me. I write Kelvin a letter before leaving so he won’t be worried.
When I got downstairs, a familiar face stopped me from leaving Dean.
“I don’t have time for this Dean.”
“What is wrong? Why are you wearing black?.” He asks.
“Dean please.” I didn’t want to speak to anyone, I know I will burst in tears if I do.
He didn’t leave, he was persistent.
“I’m coming with you.” He says and I nod.
“My mom left us today. It’s being six years since she left my father.” I whisper when we got into the car, I felt his hand on mine.
“I’m sorry, does Kelvin know?.”
“No! I will let him know when I come back.” I say and he nods.
The drive to the cemetery was quite just like way I liked it, Dean waited inside the car while I went in, I stood beside her grave. Her grace is near my grandmother’s her mother, she died a couple of years ago.
I thought when mom abandoned us, it would just be us but she never contacted gramma Alice, she never once tried to reach her mother even when gramma was very sick and wanted to meet her. I tried to find her but I couldn’t, it was like she didn’t want to be found.
She never came to say goodbyes to her mother, I still think she has no idea her mother is gone.
“Hello mom. I wish you were still here with me. I wish you didn’t leave.” A tear slips out my eyes. “I met someone, I know you would have loved him, I know how much she liked all those muscular men in movies, he is just like them but only better, he treats me like a princess, I think I am in love with him, I’m not even sure I know what love is. For a year I thought I loved Dalton but I didn’t, what I feel for Kelvin is nothing like what I felt for Dalton, it makes me wonder if I ever lived Dalton, maybe I just liked him a lot. I wish you were here you would have taught me what love is, I always saw it in your eyes whenever you tell the story of how you met Dad.”
I choked back a sob, a pair of warm hands wrapped around me.
Kelvin.
Dave told him, he came.
“You can do it.”
“I just want her to be back, I’m scared everyday. What if one day I find you and you don’t even want me then.” I cried.
I have had nightmares of the day I will find mom and she will tell me she never wanted me, I don’t think I will ever be able to take it.
“Only a fool won’t want you, you are perfect.” Kelvin whispers.
“I’m never coming here mom, I promise you.” I muttered against my breath.
“I want you to find her, I want to know her reason.” He evolves me in a hug, my head rested on his chest. My cheek tainted with my tears, every memory with her came flooding back, what if she has a new family and she is happier with them, since she left dad and I never knew the reason she left us we always thought it’s because of money.
“I will find her love, I promise.” He whispers before pressing his lips against mine to seal it.
I hold her his hand while he walked me out of the cemetery.
“I will have her here by tomorrow.”
“Are you sure?.”
“Do you doubt me love?.” He asks and I shake my head indicating a no.
“Take us to the diner.” He says to the driver and he nodes
Dean didn’t come with us, he had another car come to take him. I nuzzle further into his coat, I just want to hide myself from the world.
“No more crying.”
“I promise, we can meet your dad if you want.”
“No! We never spend time together on this day.”
“Maybe you should.”
He managed to convince me to visit my father, we got some food and drove to the hospital. I felt nauseous when I walked into the hospital, I don’t know if I can do this.
“You have come this far love.”
Fuck.
My hand shook when I swing open the door, he has been crying too.
“Daddy.” I whisper.
“Come here.” I run toward him like a child giving him a hug.
“It’s not your fault, it was never your fault.”
“I know.” He whispers, I wipe his tears.
We are never going to cry when we remember this day again, we are going to happy, we both deserve it.