Lost Girl (10)

Lost Girl (10)
All day I tried to avoid them because of the feelings of shame and inferiority that I tried to suppress. All the insulting sentences that my father tried to direct at me when he slowly began to realize that I was not the person he wanted to stay alive increasingly disturbed my soul.

But what made this so much worse was that the people I most trusted would never hurt me ended up being the ones to put salt on my still-wet wounds.

"You guys made me a bet?"

"I-it's not like that, Lucia! I can explain. We're doing this for you!" Said Bryan who was trying to explain the reason for the stupid thing they were trying to do.

"For me? What did you say?" I felt very angry and disappointed. But at this point, I was still trying to listen to Bryan's explanation even though I really wanted to cry.

"That, we heard when Depney and her friends said that you could never get married. That's why we tried to-"

"You guys did this for me?"

"Right, we-"

"Who asked you to do it?"

"Lucia, please listen-"

"You idiot...! Stupid...! You guys are really stupid...!"

I can't say what I really never wanted to say. I ran away from them with tears in my eyes. How could they do that to me? Do I look so pathetic in their eyes that no one wants me except as a bet?

All night I cried in my room and kept asking myself, why did all this have to happen to me? Why can I sleep like other girls who can be free to be themselves without having to feel guilty because they are not worthy enough to be loved. Why should I waste my life for the love of a father who never wanted me in the first place.

After getting tired of crying, I decided to reopen a wooden chest where I kept my dolls, ribbons and clothes when I was still Lucia, yes just being Lucia, a little girl who dreamed of dancing with a prince in a beautiful and sparkling dress. I miss myself so much.

My eyes filled with tears again when I found a red ribbon that used to be my favorite as well as a photo of me as a toddler and wearing a cute dress. I smiled happily without ever thinking that in the future I would end up like this.






"Lucia? Lucia? Are you okay?"

I was snapped out of my reverie when I heard Chris's soft voice calling my name. I looked at his shady face and it made me feel very warm.

"I'm ok, nothing happen!"

"You've been daydreaming a lot lately. Are you okay? Is there something wrong?"

I was touched, Chris was so gentle and caring. He stared at something on my head that I had been wearing on my head without realizing it since I left home.

"You're wearing ribbons, aren't you?" Chris said. I was too shocked by his words so I hurriedly removed the ribbon from my hair awkwardly.

"N-no that, I-"

"You look so beautiful." He said with a smile.

You look so beautiful

You look so beautiful

You look so beautiful

The words he said were like an echo in my ears. My face turned red and my heart felt like it was going to explode. Beautiful? He said I was so beautiful? Is it true?

I could feel a very strong rumbling in my chest and this was the first time I felt very lucky to be born as a girl.

"Lucia, your face red? Do you have a fever?" Chris said while touching my forehead with his hand. I felt very nervous and tried to avoid his touch because I couldn't help the rumbling in my chest.

"I-I'm fine! I-I'll go to class first, see you later?"

"We can go to class together, right?"

"N-no need! I'll just go alone!"

I spoke stutteringly and quickly left before my heart really exploded. Beautiful? Am I beautiful?

That sentence really penetrated my soul and mind so that without realizing it, my eyes kept looking for Chris, who was previously on par with Bryan, Leo and Pierre.

Chris, I just realized that Chris is really handsome. He had become much taller, his skin was white and very clean, his brown hair was always neat, his candy brown eyes looked very soft and sweet. Not to mention when he smiles and laughs, the two dimples on his cheeks make him so charming.

"Chris, why are you telling me that?" I thought. I wanted to ask him, but I couldn't. We've been friends since we were five years old and I've never distanced myself from him. But for once can I have a little hope?

I suddenly remembered the stupid bet they made the other day, wasn't Chris the one who lost and had to marry me in the future?

Chris and I are getting married? Is it true? Is that possible?

I started to fantasize and those fantasies entered my dreams about what a beautiful future would be between me and Chris. We will get married and live together as a happy couple. Leo, Pierre and Bryan will be coming to our wedding ceremony and they are bringing their partners too. Yes, it would definitely be fun if that happened. I'm sure if I'm with him I will be the luckiest woman in the world.