Chapter 35 maybe he's not the villain
Lily's POV
His disappearing figure left a hole in my heart.
“Why does it hurt so badly?" I asked myself silently as she stepped out of the wide gate without turning back.
Wade walked up to me and placed my hands in his.
" You don't have to worry about him, I'm here and that's all you need.” He said gently, stroking my hair gently
I pulled out his hands immediately and moved two inches backward.
"Why did you do that?” I asked with visible annoyance
"What did I do?” he responded, looking so confused and lost.
"Don't act as though you don't know what I'm talking about!” my voice was mean yet controlled
Then he took few steps towards me, the atmosphere shrinking down to the little space, increasing tension as he bent towards me and whispered in my ears
"I was just claiming what's mine. You are mine Lily, and no one can take you away from me” his words sent chills down my bloodstream and for a moment, I really wanted to be his.
He lifted my chin up slowly and his eyes strolled down my face to my breasts, Then he grabbed my waist and pulled me towards him.
My breasts pressed against his chest and he leaned down to kiss me.
I closed my eyes in anticipation, eager to satisfy my body which was already hot and craving him.
Suddenly the gate swung open, relieving the atmosphere.
Yet,he still held me tightly so we only shifted our gaze to the gate and immediately I jumped out of his body.
It was Ryan.
Hot tears rolled down his eyes as he stood frozen at the spot.
Then without warning, Wade took my lips and savoured every bit of it.
I was too shocked to protest and I had to budge in Tommy bodily pleasures and enjoy every bit of him.
When we were done, Ryan was gone and guilt flashed down my body like electricity.
“You shouldn't have done that!!" I yelled at Wade
“Why?" he asked unperturbed
“We just hurt someone, someone so dear to me and..-" I stuttered and my hands shook
“And?"
“And…..,.and you're just cruel and you take advantage of my feelings every single time. You called me your baby when you denied me times without number just to please your cheerleader girlfriend!” The words finally came out of my mouth and this time, they were strong and firm.
" Lily-” Wade tried speaking but the words kept flowing from my mouth
" But Ryan has never denied me, not once, not ever. He's always there for me when I need him, always showing up for me.”
"Can you just listen to me?” Wade pleaded, his eyes were glistening with years
" There's no amount of excuses that you would give that would make me forgive. I think you should love your girlfriend Clara more and stop flirting with your nanny!” I thundered, and was about to storm out when he held my hands.
I froze at the spot and turned to him.
Tears were already rolling down his eyes as he looked at me.
“How would I ever explain for you to understand?" the words fell out his mouth slowly and weakly
“Why did you deny me at school?" I asked calmly
“Clara made me do it" He replied and lowered his head to the floor
“Why? why are you a pawn in her game?" I asked, confused on why a stubborn boy like Wade would readily fall at her feet at any call.
“She has my nude. She has it Lily" he said and tears rolled down his eyes
Suddenly, I forgot how to breathe and my eyes widened with shock.
“Oh my God" I exclaimed
“I'm serious Lily, I love you, even from the first day I set my eyes on you" he said
"How did it happen? you sent her your nudes??”
"She drugged me and slept with me"
“The fuckk? Why would she do that?"
“She said that she felt insecure around me"
“That was her only reason?"
“She wanted our relationship to last forever"
“Okay?"
“I lost all the love I had for her. Lily, I never loved her for once."
“Why are you good at denials?"
“I know that you can never trust me again but I need you to believe that I love you and has never loved any girl like you"
"I really want to believe you but I can't. I just can't” I said, tears rolling down my eyes.
"I'm not asking you to believe me, I'm pleading for a chance to prove it to you. A chance to let you know that I really love you” He replied
“I just need my space, please." I said and ran off inside.
I laid on my bed and sobbed terribly.
The worst part about the whole thing was that I didn't even know why I was crying.
Was it because of the guilt that panged my chest when I thought of Ryan or because of Wade?
or maybe it was because of what Mr Gambino told me earlier today about my dad.
“Your dad died when on your second birthday” Mr Gambino told me
"I don't care, he left me as soon I took my first breath” I replied coldly, maintaining a respectful voice
"You don't have to blame him, the pressure was much" Mr Gambino said
“Which pressure?" I asked
“He needed a male child, desperately needed one to take over his business and name."
“That means he was already married when he met my mom, he lied to her and deceived my vulnerable mum" I said
“His wife pushed him to" Mr Gambino said gently
“Everyone has a second choice, he never loved my mother, Yet my mum loved him and he took advantage of that”
" Calm down Lily. Didn't your mum tell you that he kept taking care of you secretly and when his wife found out..-”
" What happened?”
" She poisoned him” he dropped the bombshell and I gasped
" He never left you. Your mother was his high school lover and they separated after school only to find her after he had gotten married already to his vicious wife” Mr Gambino said
"The only part that he kept as a secret was the fact that he was married for ten years with no child! Sir, how is that even manageable?”
"I know he hurt your mum but there's no point holding grudges for a dead man. How would you blame a man that felt so happy when his wife got pregnant only for his son to get kidnapped a day before the naming ceremony?”
Sadness filled his voice as the words came out
" He saw my mum as an..-”
" No, he found peace with her. He was never at rest in that marriage but when he reconciled with your mum, my friend smiled genuinely for the first time”
“Sir.."
“Lily, your dad is not the villain you think he was. He'll be surely heartbroken anywhere he is seeing his daughter talk of him like this" Mr Gambino said and ended the conversation.
Lying down right now in this bed, I wished my dad was here.
Maybe things would've been better, Then, I wouldn't have to face all the painful situations.
Mum never talked about him, she hated talking about my father.
She only told me that he left us at the hospital where she gave birth and never returned.
He sent her a message and told her he was married for ten years.
Mum never mentioned that he helped us for two years, she only told me that he finally left without a trace on the 13th of may which was my birthday.
Little did I know she meant that he died.
Anytime she talked about my dad, that day would be a teary day so I grew up always avoiding that question and breeding
a certain hatred in my heart.
But maybe, he wasn't the villain I thought he was.