Blackout

Ashley

I couldn't hold back my tears

"No……….. please don't leave me!!" I screamed and made to chase after Nicklaus, but Bianca and Rex held me down

I watched with tears as Nicklaus left the hospital, my hopes were shattered, my plans…my happiness nothing is left, why would he show me light when he knows he's going to take it away from me,

"How dare he do this to me?"

"I'm in pain……..!!" I screamed and fell to the floor, I want to die, there's nothing left for me, everything is gone

I started to roll on the floor, maybe that would take my pains away, but no Bianca and Rex pulled me up the next minute and forced me to lay on the bed...

I couldn't cry anymore, I suddenly lost my voice, I guess they called the doctor cause I saw him walk in

''How are you feeling dear?" The doctor asked, I couldn't answer all I could do was stare into blank space, reminiscing how everything just ended in a blink of an eyes

I could feel something pierced my skin, but I didn't flinch.. the pain in my heart is much more greater than any physical pain I'm to feel right now

I saw the doctor leaving after saying something to Bianca which I didn't hear, I could feel my head feel heavy as my eyes closed, I decided to give in to total darkness... I'm tired of everything

It's been two days since I lost everything Nicklaus never visited me again, Bianca and Rex left an hour ago while Nelly left to buy me some fruits, I needed to see Nicklaus, I can't just allow everything to go to waste, he needs to tell me the reason while he suddenly throws away everything

I stood up from the bed and wore my slippers, I was feeling dizzy, but that's not going to stop me from going to him today, I need to know what's going on

I walked out of the room but when I remembered I'm still in my hospital uniform, I rushed back inside and pulled it off before I left.

I hasten my pace while walking out of the hospital. I was holding onto things while walking since my eyes is going round in circles

I couldn't walk anymore as I stand at the corner of the road holding onto my head, a taxi stopped before

"Where to mam?"

"Baldwin group of company" I replied and entered the taxi while he drove off. I sighed and lean on the back seat hoping that when I reach there Nicklaus is going to tell e that all of this is a joke, I hope he's going to welcome me in his warm embrace and tell me that he's been playing all along,

I don't know what I'll do if he leaves me, I've gotten so used to him that I might just die without him by my side. I've been through the shit I don't want to go back to where I am before, I've fought and sacrificed so far to come this far, I might as well lose my sanity

"Ahhhh…!" I scream holding onto my hair which looks unrecognizable from what it used to look like

"Mam are you okay?" The driver asked but my mind was far from what he was asking me

''We are here mam" I heard him say and look up to see we are standing in front of Nicklaus's company. I came down from the taxi and paid the taxi driver.

I wanted to walk inside the company when I staggered, I held onto the wall by the side to steady my step…I feel tired my head is beating like a drum but I'm determined to see Nicklaus, I was about to walk in after gaining a little strength

My step halted when I saw Nicklaus's driver driving out of the company, Nicklaus was in the backseat with a girl and they were making out

I couldn't hold it any longer, my head suddenly became too heavy for me, my heart broke at the sight, my world crumbled and shattered into pieces, and tears blurred my eyes as my only hope has just been smashed into shreds, I tried to walk but my feet felt stuck to the ground

Tears drip down my eyes like an ocean, my body becomes suddenly hot as a surge of emotions engulfs me. The environment suddenly became so suffocating for me to stay in

I manage to take one step after the other. I can't continue like this. I need to be aware from here, away from Nicklaus, away from everybody and everything that reminds me of him. I need to die, I'm not leaving for anything

I wanted to scream, to shout to vent all my anger and emotion at the moment, but I realized I could not do any of that

I started walking to the road. I wasn't looking. All I was doing at the moment was just walking. I was meant to cross the road but my legs were too heavy to cross. All they were doing at the moment was to just walk. I could see the red light beeping while I stared into space but I could not comprehend what it was. My mind is too messed up to reason anything

"Krrrrrrrr……." I heard the screeching of a car, and look to see a car coming towards me in full speed, my mind was screaming

"Run….. run…. Ashley run…." I wanted to, but my legs were stuck to the ground, the car was almost close when I lost all my composure, my heart leaped out of its socket, slowly my eyes closed and my leg gave in to the ground

"Miss…miss…are you okay?" That was the last thing I heard before I gave in to total darkness, wishing I never woke up, this should be the end of it

"I'm tired" I whispered to my soul, body, and mind