Chapter 28 28

Chapter 28 28
4 months later 
I smiled when I saw the children's clothes in the children's section of the mall. I couldn't help but get excited and started choosing clothes for my baby. The doctor had already told me about sex a short time ago and made me happy when I knew I was going to have a boy. 
This good news would have been much more exciting and happier if he had been with me, but I think it is useless to hope that he would come to see me. Maybe he's married now and happy with that woman... 
No! Don't think about it! You will only get hurt more! It's already past the time I agreed with him, but he didn't show up so stop hoping and waiting! 
I took a deep breath and shook the thought out of my head. 
When I saw him on TV four months ago, I told myself I'd live my life and forget about him, but it's easier said than done. Sometimes, I still remember him, especially during the night. 
Even though I wanted to permanently erase it from my mind, I couldn't do it. 
Memories of Yagiz are forever engraved in my heart and mind. But I promised myself I would never cry over him again. Although it is difficult, I will try to be brave for my child and now everything is getting better. 
I moved along the children's clothing line as I picked out the clothes that caught my eye. When I finished paying, I decided to go home because it was lunchtime. I have to eat on time because I'm not alone in my body right now. 
Before that I used to eat and do whatever I wanted whenever I wanted but now, my lifestyle is completely different because I think about my child’s health first before doing anything. I am now the health of my child is the most important. 
When I got to the parking lot, I was about to get into my car when my phone rang. I quickly pulled it out of my bag and answered when I saw who was calling. 
' Hello Ali? ' 
“ Hello , Hazan . Where are you? ”   
' I'm in a mall . Why ? ' I asked as I got into the car and fastened my seat belt. 
' I am here in your home but the guard told me that you do not in the house so I called you .'             
" Yes . I went to the doctor and then decided to go to the mall to buy some things. "           
' Really? How do if a child? Asked. 
" Hmmm .... every thing on is fine . We both health good '      
" Okay . I guess I 'll wait for you here. " I furrowed my eyebrows.    

' You don't have to , Ali . I will go to the house of my brother and do not know what time that I will come back to him at home . I'm sorry, " I said and heard him sigh.                 

" Well Hazan . Will come back at the time of the last ' bite lower my lips.     

" Okay, " I answered before I ended the call. I took a deep breath. 

I had no plan to go to my brother's house but knowing that Ali was in my house made me think I needed to go there instead of going home with him. 

I mean, I would love to be with him but I'm starting to feel weird around him after that day. 

Flash buck  

Three days after arriving in the United States, I came across Ali. From that day on, he would always call me and come over to my place every now and then. I didn't find it strange at first because I considered him a friend of mine. But everything became awkward when he suddenly confessed to me that he loves me ... 

" I have signed in love since the first time I saw you in Greece , oh Hazan . But did not have the courage to tell you my feelings because I you think you're married really from Ya_iz . Hid my feelings and I decided to forget about it . But when I found out that Ya_iz fool you , did not I could stop myself About                                            intervention . Now and after that ended your relationship , I hope that the Taatmkny of that give me a chance to be part of your life and to be with you "                     

I looked at Ali in shock. We are currently in the park near Manzai. He called me a while ago and asked me to spend the day with him. 

" You do not know what that talk about Ali " laughed sarcastically , but it was a laugh embarrassing.       

" I know what I 'm talking about, I love you Hazan ." He honestly said , " of please give me a chance to prove it to you ."             

I tried to feel what my heart was saying but it remained calm and I couldn't feel anything special about it but friendship. I couldn't help but compare my feelings for Yagiz with my feelings for Ali and it was completely different. 
" I'm sorry to , but all what I can submit it to you now is friendship . As you can see , I am pregnant and I want to focus on my child now only . I do not think about the entry in any relationship new . I hope that you understand '                                 
hold my hand. " Do not care if you're pregnant . I can accept the child if it was this what prevents you from giving me a chance , " I smiled to him and pulled my hand. 

" Do not . You're a friend is good for me and do not feel any thing to you only friendship . " Became quiet for a few seconds. 
" Do not still Ya_iz your heart , is not it? " His eyes stared at me attentively while he asked me that and I could not answer immediately. 
" I'm sorry this all what I can say ." He laughed bitterly. 
" Ya_iz lucky too . Although it hurt you always , but it is not still in your heart . Now , you're pregnant with his child . I envy really , " he said before he sighed and smiled strongly. 
" I understand Hazan . I will stay beside you until you feel you're ready to find the love once again . Will not give up "             
I wanted to tell him not to, but I saw the determination in his eyes, the same look I saw in Sinan's eyes when he told me the same thing. 
I left for Istanbul because I didn't want to give any of them the wrong idea that they still had a chance to be with me. Now, I'm in an awkward position between Sinan and Ali. 
The end of the flash buck   
Entering my brother's house, I saw Sevda and her daughter in the living room, laughing together while playing. Sevda's belly was big now. I'm already five months old and she's three and a half months old I think. I cleared my throat to get their attention. 
" Aunty, " she shouted and ran towards me. She hugged me and then kissed my cheek. 
' Hello, my dear, ' I said, then Sevda came up to me and hugged me. 

" From the good that you have come . JOIN us to eat food lunch . Jokhan is in office but will return to the house to eat lunch with us , " I laughed and sat down on the couch. 
" I'm happy because he does not still have time to return to the house and eat food with you ." She smiled at me. 
' I can see that you are getting thinner . Your brother is worried about you. "        
" No need to worry about me . I'm good . I have come just from the doctor and told me that my child and I am healthy good , " I said proudly , and I wiped my stomach big. 
He said the voice behind us , " I'm glad you decided to stop from crying and begin to focus on the child who is inside you ."              
" Papa !" She cried cheerfully and hugged her father. Then he approached Sevda, kissed her and wiped her stomach as well. 
This scene made me envy her. She is very lucky to have a brother. . He always makes sure they are in good condition. He always accompanies her to the doctor. 
I sighed when a picture of someone passed through my head. And as I usually do when I remember him, I shook his image away from my mind. This is not good for me and my child. Perhaps, it is time for me to accept that he has already forgotten about me and our unborn child. 
That's why, even after four months he never came back. 
" What who you think about it , my sister? " I looked at my brother and I realized that he was staring at me with interest. I knew he was still mad at me for not telling him anything. I still remember his face when he found out about my pregnancy. 
Flash buck  
I was in the garden, busy watering the plants, when I heard my brother's voice. I stopped what I was doing and made my way towards the gate where I heard voices. 
My eyes widened when I saw my brother and his family while I was talking happily with my mother and Ege. I was about to turn my back and walk away from there when he looked in my direction and saw me standing there. He waved his hand before walking towards me with a smile. But that smile disappeared when he noticed my stomach. stop there 
“ What does that mean ? ” he asked through his gritted teeth and I knew he was angry. I suddenly felt nervous. He looked crazy which made me afraid. 
" Ajebe " cried out to never cry 
' Stop all that Jokhan . You should n't yell at your sister like that . She is pregnant and this is not good for the baby, ' said my mother, and she came close to me and patted my shoulder. His face softened when he noticed my red eyes. 
' Why didn't you tell me about this? Even you , Mom , Aegean? Why didn't you mention this to me ? ''               
" I did not mean to hide this from you , and but Hazan is not ready to tell you after and because they knew you would act in this form ' explained my mother. 
' No I can believe this ' he said , and breathing is frustrated. 
' Who is the father? ' he asked in a quieter voice after a few seconds. 
' I - I'm sorry , but I do not I can tell you ' I answered aloud. 
' Why? Because he abandoned you , do you this is it? ' His eyes stare at me in anger. 
' Is he the one you mentioned to me before that you were with him in Greece? Tell me who he is and I'll teach him a lesson if he really abandons you and hurt you ' Panic began to creep through my body. That's why I avoided telling him that because he would do something to Yagiz. 
' I'm sorry , but I do not I can tell you from is ' I said , and turned my back to them. I quickly went to my room upstairs. 
I could not confront my brother because I knew he would insist that I tell him who the father of my child was. 
The end of the flash buck   
' Hazan ?' I was brought back to the present when I heard Gökhan's voice. 
' Yes? '' 
" I ask you what you think about it now . I have I felt sad ' rolled my eyes he is really trying in various ways. 
' Do nothing . On any case , let 's eat . My child is hungry ' I said, trying to avoid his questions. 
Sevda pulled her husband's hand. I do not thank her in my mind because she understood the subject and attracted his attention. 
It was already 6 pm when I got home. Gökhan used to stay there when he was still alone, but he changed home for his growing family, I was living with them for some time but I decided to live on my own. They insisted that I stay with them because I was pregnant and needed help, but I insisted and quietly refused. 
Now, I'm working with him in the company as a manager and plan to work for as long as possible. Upon entering, I immediately sat down on the sofa to relax a bit. I have noticed that I am getting tired easily now. Probably because of my big belly. 
' I've made your dinner , ' said my housemaid , ' I'll go now .'      
' Thank you . See you tomorrow, ' I said. 
When I left, I stood up, went to my closet, picked something comfortable to wear through the night, and then went to the bathroom and took a shower. When I finished taking a shower, I got dressed and was about to go to eat when the doorbell rang. 
I held my eyebrows. My heart started beating fast but not because of stress or any negative feeling. Instead, it was beating in a weird way, like I was excited about something and that kind of confused me. silly. 
I walked towards the door and looked at the screen to see who it was when I gasped in surprise at who I saw outside my house. I couldn't believe what I saw. My heart was beating faster than when I saw him again several months later. 
What is he doing here?! How did he know my location?! Did he come here to apologize because he's in a relationship with someone else now ?