Chapter 166
Chapter 166
Helen
On the way to the hospital in the ambulance I heard my dad’s heart stop that beeeeeep sound the machine made will stay in my head for the rest of my life. The paramedic was at least well trained he got my fathers heart to beat again. I was so grateful “Is he going to make it?” I asked her with a shaky voice. “I’m not going to lie to you.” “It’s touch and go for now; he has lost a lot of blood.” When we got to the hospital, they moved my dad straight to a theater to operate on him. I was trying to hold myself together I can’t fall apart not yet. I held it together so far, I’m sure I can do it for a little longer. When I saw Johnny, I threw my arms around him and fell apart in his arms, my safe place. “He’ll be okay babe.” I told him that my dad’s heart stopped for a few minutes but they got him back. All I wanted to do was curl up in a little bundle and cry and cry. Cry about everything. But now I had to pull myself together again. Jared and Damon came walking towards us. I got up and walked to Damon, Damon wanted to say something but I threw my arms around him “Thank Damon, thank you so much it could have been so much worst.” “It shouldn’t have happened at all.” Damon said. “Damon not even I recognized my mother it was only when she spoke that my father and I even gave her any attention.” “I still blame myself.” Damon said. “If I don’t blame you, please don’t blame yourself.” “I’ll try Helen.”
The doctor came out of the operating room; Johnny and I was with him in seconds “Is my father okay?” “Your father is stable. We could repair the damage to his leg and get the bullet out. He will be moved to the recovery room and you will be able to see him in 30 minutes.” I couldn’t speak I just started to cry out of pure relief. Johnny had to thank the doctor and asked him in which ward my dad would be in. When the doctor left, Johnny pushed me away from him, for me to see him. “You heard that right your father is going to be okay babe, his going to be okay.” I just cried and nodded at him. Damon and Jared disappeared and came back with some coffee and Damon pulled out a pill holder giving me one of my Ativan’s to calm down. “I can’t take that now what if I want to sleep.” “Just take it babe you need it and beside if you want to sleep, I’ll hold you.” Johnny said with a smile on his face. I really don’t know how this man does it, we’ve been through so much and every time we get out on the other side he smiles. I should take lessons from him. I put the pill underneath my tongue and sat down for a second. I was so full of adrenaline with my mother and the gun, my father getting shot, his heart that stopped in the ambulance, it was just too much for me. I put my head back and rest it against the wall. I could feel Johnny’s presence next to me. For some reason I smile and said “Well if we go at this rate with all the incidents that is happening, we are never going to get pregnant.” Then I gave a very sad laugh.
“Babe things will get better I promise you that. Your mom is in custody, same as your sister and your dad is safe in the hospital.” “He shouldn’t have been in the hospital in the first place. What was my mother thinking?” “Clearly she was thinking that if your father is out of the way she will inherit everything and will be able to help Antoinette with your dad’s money.” “What from behind bars? Or didn’t she think that far?” “Clearly she didn’t.” I got quiet realizing Johnny knew I was inheriting everything. “You knew?” I asked him “Knew what?” “About my fathers will.” “I did, but it wasn’t my place to say anything.” “Did you have any input in the matter?” “Off course not babe, I will never interfere with your fathers’ personal stuff.” “Just asking Johnny I’m sorry everything is just so ………. I don’t know, weird?” “I must agree with you there is definitely something your father is still hiding from you, needless to say your mother to.”
That’s when I realized Johnny never heard what my mother told me. “You know what she said to me?” “Who your mother?” “Yes.” “No.” “She said she never wanted me; my dad got her pregnant and they had to get married but she never wanted me, Johnny. Do you know how it feels when someone tells you something like that. And not someone but your own mother?” “Oh babe.” He said taking me in his arms and holding me “I’m so sorry.” “Everything just made sense when she said that Johnny, all the times she tried to hit me all the verbal abuse everything fell into place when she said she didn’t want me.” “Babe I’m really sorry you had to go through that again, I think it’s time to cut her out of your life for good, she overstepped majorly today.” “I already sort of cut her off but the little girl in me wanted to know why I didn’t matter to her. The big girl in me knew I was wasting my time with her but I had hope Johnny but honestly that hope is gone now. She squashed it like a bug.” He didn’t say his sorry again he just held me while I cried. I don’t know why I was still crying she’s not worth it, after today I should realize she’s really not worth it.
A nurse approached us and told us we can see my dad. I almost ran to the room. He was sort of sitting in bed with his eyes wanting to close. “Oh, Helen are you okay?” My dad asked. “I’m fine dad, how are you?” “I’m good, she didn’t hurt you, did she?” “No dad I’m in one piece.” I said as I took his hand in mine. “Oh, Johnny if it wasn’t for your guy we would have been dead. Thank you.” “No need to thank me John Damon is Helen’s bodyguard he feels bad that he didn’t stop her from shooting you.” “I don’t think he could even if he tried, she was like superwomen or something, she didn’t want to let go of that gun. She would have killed us if Damon wasn’t there.” “You can tell him that later.” Johnny said to my dad. “Rest now dad, we will be right here until you wake up.” “Oh no honey it was a ruff day for you to go home and get some rest, I’ll still be here tomorrow.” “Are you sure?” “Johnny take my girl home.” “With pleasure John.”