Chapter 35 Past Disappointments
Daylan's POV
After Brie went to the bathroom, I walked down the hallway to Abby's office. I was now fuming. Abby cannot think that she can rule over my life. I won't accept this. I won't let her harass Brie either. I opened the office door, she was seated behind her desk, looking up from documents she was going through.
She smiled as I entered and closed the door behind me, "This is a first in a long time. You want me?" she asked seductively.
"I want you to stay away from Brie, do not even talk to her, or I will remove you from my project and stop asking to be f^cked because if you come onto me in any way, I will report you," I hissed at her.
"Daylan, I would never harass you or her. Where did you get that idea from?" she asked, her eyes were huge. It had been the first time that I actually scolded her.
"Don't talk sh^t me to me!" I slammed my hand into her desk and she jumped.
"Daylan-"
"Don't you f^cking Daylan me. I want you to back off and stay the f^ck away from her. She is mine, and she will always be mine, whether you like it or not," I leaned over with my hands on the desk. Glaring at her.
"I would not do any of this. What about us?" she asked. I stood up straight, running a hand through my hair.
"Are you f^cking serious right now?" I asked. "There is no us and there was never an us. You have to get that into your head that there will be nothing between us. I can't believe that I cheated on Tabitha with you. I don't know what I saw in you, and you are just like the other women out there that want me. I wish that I had never met and did all those things with you."
"What about the project?" she asked as she tried to mask her hurt.
"You can work on until I find someone else to help me with it," I said as I walked towards the door.
"But we started that project together," I stopped and turned around to face her. She was now standing, looking at me expectantly.
"It was my original idea, the project is mine. I never said that the project was ours to begin with. You just had the skills that I needed. That was all. Now, because of your sh^tty attitude and thinking that you can have me all to yourself, I have lost every faith in you to help me with it. I wish I had never worked here in the first place. Working far away from you was better." I said calmly now. I said what I needed to say to her and I hope that she got it.
"Can we still work on this project? I love it as if it was my own. Do you not see my passion that goes into it and even my passion for you was there, but you would turn me down every time. You kept me all along just to use me as your toy," tears welled up in her eyes.
I laughed, "Do you even hear yourself right now?" I asked. "I treated you like you were my toy? We both wanted fun. You made the choice to stick around when I made it perfectly clear that I only wanted fun when you wanted more. Did you really think that I would change my mind?"
"Yes! I only ever wanted you. You have ruined me for any other man and I cannot let you go just like that. You ruined me," she hissed with tears streaming down her face.
"So I ruined every woman's life. Well, that is on you and them. You made the choice to be with me and I don't think that blaming me for ruining you is going to work. It is on you. You could have had a family by now, which I know is what you truly wanted. But it won't work with me, not now and not ever. Stay away from Brie," I said as I turned and as I was about to open the door, she let out a scream. I winced as glass crashed against the door and fell into shattered pieces on the ground.
My heart beat fast at what just happened. I turned to her, this was my final straw. Her chest was heaving as she looked at me with huge eyes. "Did you just aim that at me? At my head?"
"I'm sorry," she said and then swallowed. "I didn't mean to do that."
"That just proves to me that I cannot be with a woman who is unhinged. You proved to me that I need to get rid of you, because you are not healthy enough to be working with me. I'm glad I never wanted more with you. Who knows how you would've turned out, especially if you didn't get your way." with that, I left.
What the hell was I thinking about being with her? "Here you are," Tabitha said as she grabbed my wrist and pulled me towards my office down the hallway. "I don't know why you are stuck with that woman," she said with disappointment. "I'm glad that Brie isn't with you anymore. You won't change." she said as we entered my office.
"Abby and I are not together. I won't be working with her anymore, and she is crazy. I just couldn't anymore," I said as I rounded my desk and sat down. She took a seat across from me.
"Well, you chose the crazy woman. On a different note, I spoke to Brie last night. She saw her stepbrother again-"
"What?" I knew that she shouldn't have been alone.
"They only spoke, they came to an agreement not to be in each other's way. As long as it is in place, there is nothing to worry about. He did nothing to her, and she wanted to give him a chance at life. He is engaged and is expecting a baby. We need to respect that too."
"Any idea who the fiancé is? Does she actually know him for who he truly is?"
"Nope, but let's just not make matters worse. You don't want Brie to be beaten up again because she ruined his family and his chance at a good life, especially if he wants to be a better man. Just respect Brie and her decisions. On the other hand, she wants to find her mother and I have asked around. My contacts are searching for her and I hope that there is some good news about that. If there isn't, then I will have to be there for her. She is like my own daughter. The daughter that I never had." she watched me intently, and I know why she said that.
"I'm sorry that we had Rick. Unfortunately, my sperm chose to be a boy. I know how much you wanted a girl and trust me, I wanted a daughter too, but Rick also made me happy. I f^cked up and I realized that. Most of all, I remember how happy you were at the thought of having a daughter and the disappointment on your face when it turned out to be a boy. You loved roses and that was what we would've named her." tears stung the back of my eyes. I felt like I let you down in that moment. I never told you, but I don't regret being married to you and what we had. I wish I had done things differently, and I hope that if Brie gives me a chance, we can be happy. I just don't think that I can disappoint another woman who wants a girl or a boy, and she doesn't get that. You wanted to expand the family. I was afraid that you would be disappointed again. I would stay at work and just try to take my mind off everything and then Aby came along, the rest was history. I'm sorry," I said.
"That happened a long time ago and what you can do now is move on. I'm trying to. I don't know if I will be okay if you and Brie find your way back together again. But don't hurt her if you want to be with her. First think about family, because that is what she wants. Don't give her hopes up, but for now, we need to focus on getting her mother, Bernadine Marcus." she said.
"Just tell me what to do, and I will help."
"Great. I need you to call hospitals and find out if she was ever admitted to one in the past or something. We need to know if she can still be alive. I'm looking at police stations in case they have anything about her."
"That's good. Thank you for helping with this. I just want her to be safe," I gave her a polite smile.
Talking to my ex-wife this way was nice for a change. I got out what I needed to and that was the disappointment that I was afraid of. Maybe this could be something that I need to work on if I really want to be with Brie and give her what she wants without feeling as if she might be disappointed.