Chapter 31

Confused

Jayden POV

Driving into my compound, I parked neatly at the parking lot, and alighted, before heading to the doors. The incident from minutes ago keep playing in my head, and I just couldn't help scoffing. The look on her face, makes me chuckle.

Pushing the entrance door opened, I stepped in, and headed straight to the staircase, and started climbing it, but stopped on my track, as Mae's voice cut through my ears, bringing me to an abrupt halt, as anger surged through me. Why the heck is she calling me now?

"Jay..." Her voice came on.

Taking a soft deep breath, I threw my head back, as I closed my eyes frustratingly, trying to take in the anger, and after what seemed like forever, I finally opened my eyes, and tilted my head to look at her, giving her a questioning look. Heaven knows that I'm just trying not to get angry, but if she dares to get me pissed, I'm going show her the stuff, which I'm made of.

"What is it Mae?" I asked coldly, as I glanced at her, and faced my front again, while waiting for her to say whatever shit she want to say, before going to my room. I'm in a good mood now, and letting her get me pissed, is what I won't tolerate, so she better learn not to cross her boundaries now.

"About what happened today..., I'm sorry it happened, but trust me Jay, I know nothing about it, I wouldn't do such thing, knowing fully well that it'll get you pissed, I hope you believe me." She said pleadingly, while fondling with her fingers, and I just couldn't help scoffing. For the love of God, I didn't remember asking her anything, so what's the meaning of all these now?

"Are you done?" I asked, as I finally turned to face her, wearing the coldest face ever.

"Now listen to me Mae, your being here, have already made things hard for me, so don't add to it, by frustrating me. I don't know what you're here for, neither do I want to know, but one thing I want to tell you, is to not inconvenience me in this house, just stay away from me, steer clear off my path." I said menacingly, while glaring hard at her.

She bit her lower lip, as tears welled up her eyes, but I don't give a damn about that, she can cry all she wants, I don't give a damn how she feels, she should learn to stay away from my business, I'm going to find a way to clear the whole mess, but one thing I'll never take, is she, adding to my problems.

Turning around, I made to climb the stairs, but stopped abruptly, as her teary voice came on.

"I love you Jay." She said in tears.

Letting out a soft sigh, I closed my eyes frustratingly. I wonder why she can't get this, why has she chosen to frustrate my life? Isn't the handwriting bold enough? Is she too dumb to see that I do not like her?

"I know you don't love me Jay..., I know you may hate me now, though I don't know why, but I am not questioning your decision or feelings of hatred towards me, but one thing I want you to know, is that I love you, and I always will. I'm not asking you to return the feelings, but... I'm asking you to give me a chance to love you, please?" She said, whispering the last part in tears, but too bad her tears doesn't move me. I mean, how could she be this dart? Even after knowing that I do not have feelings for her, she still want us together? Who does that?

"Even if I can't have you..., even if I can't reach out to you, can you at least be my star, whom I'll always admire from afar?" She asked again.

Letting out a soft sigh, I turned slowly to face her, and after giving her a few seconds look, I finally climbed down the stairs, and went to stand in front of her, while staring deep into her eyes, and all I see is desire. The feelings I used to have back then whenever I looked into her eyes, are all gone now, I don't know why it all suddenly disappeared, it mustn't have gotten anything to do with her traveling, right?

"Mae... can you snap out of this? You're just infatuated with me, this is not love, but infatuation and obsession Mae, there's no love that desires torture. Why don't you wake up from this? You're beautiful, there are men out there, that'll accept you, there are men out there, that could kill to have you, a man that'll love and respect you, why do you still want to punish yourself, knowing this will never work out, huh?" I spoke softly, trying to be as calmed as I can, but I don't trust myself, I don't know how long I can contain this anger, I may just burst anytime soon.

"But I want you Jayden..., you're the only one I want... I love you, I'm not trying to force you to loving me, but can you at least let me love you? That's all I'm asking." She held my hands, and asked, as tears slid down her cheeks. Closing my eyes frustratingly, her words rang in my head, and the more I thought about it, the more everything seem confusing and complicated, I think I'm just gonna lose my mind, if I continue thinking about this.

The thought of how we used to be, how close we were, how I used to admire her, flashed through my mind, and slowly, I found myself feeling guilty for an unknown reason, I feel like I shouldn't be hurting her in this manner, I feel like I shouldn't push her away, but then, I feel repulsive about her, I don't know why she keeps repelling me.

"Just let me love you Jay." She hushed, while crying, and before I could restrain myself, I leaned in on her, and crashed my lips on hers...