62- The end of secrets

Rebeca

I would have liked to talk to Sebastian more calmly in the morning, but unfortunately he woke up earlier than planned. I thought he would sleep for a good part of the day, but nothing about this man is normal, I thought I had given him a heavy dose, but I didn't take into account who he is.

It seems that the things that normally happen to others never apply when it's Sebastian in the equation.

I couldn't help myself and started to cry the moment I started to talk about how I felt at that moment, my words don't carry a third of how I really felt, it was terribly painful and I hope I never have to feel it again. As I hugged her tightly, I realized that our marriage, which began in a strange way, has a great chance of becoming a real relationship, something beautiful to experience. I confess that I have high hopes, especially after learning the whole truth, I'm glad that my brother is alive and that this miserable chapter can be overcome without any more problems, the guilt I felt for loving Sebastian even after he killed my brother is gone when I learn the truth and that makes me feel lighter than I have in a long time. It really is like they say, the truth sets you free. Of course, there's something else I want to release too, my anger at that treacherous old woman, I'm going to make her regret it.

I finished recounting all the night's events to Sebastian, who listened with rapt attention and only asked a few questions here and there.

\- How do you intend to get revenge? - he asks.

\- I've come up with a funny idea. - I comment enigmatically.

\- You're quite cunning. - I smile.

\- I am, that's why I was going to take over my brother's job while he was on his honeymoon, however, a guy came along and I had to get married. - I pinned it.

\- I had my reasons. - raises his hands in surrender.

\- I wonder if there are any ulterior motives. - I whisper.

\- There is one. I tried to get some information out of your brother, but he refused to answer me, it was the only thing he didn't tell me. It was also the reason he had to fake his death. - he says.

That arouses my curiosity. What could be so secret that Roderick would make such a huge sacrifice? I can't imagine anything more important than his family.

\- What is it? Maybe I'll find out and tell you, after all, you deserve it even though you hid the truth from me, thanks to you, Roderick is still alive. - I offer.

Sebastian watches me for a few seconds and shakes his head.

\- Initially, I didn't want his brother to destroy Anastasia's power, I wanted someone else, someone I'd only heard rumors about. I don't know the person's name, only that he's the best of the best, his name is Blood Flower. - he says.

Hearing the most famous codename within my family, I sat still for a few seconds wondering how I should say that without sounding crazy.

\- Oh, so that's what Roderick refused to answer? - I ask.

\- Yes, for some reason, he refused to tell me and didn't even give me a contact number, he just said he wouldn't involve anyone else in it, he should do it himself. - he replies.

Roderick, you idiot.

I mentally cursed my foolish brother. I can't believe he's made such a huge sacrifice for such a ridiculous reason, everything would have been so easy if he'd simply handed over the information Sebastian wanted, it would have prevented so much suffering.

He doesn't seem to think straight.

When I see him, I'm going to knock some sense into his head and I'm going to do it with my fists, it's been a long time since I've hit him.

\- Do you still need this person? - I ask insecurely.

\- Well, not like before, but it would help speed things up, after all, we're talking about the best. - he says.

\- I can help you with that. - I say.

\- It doesn't matter how much, if I can have this person by my side, I'll pay anything. - he says.

\- Well, you don't have to worry about that. I just need you to promise me that you won't get angry with me. - I ask.

\- What are you going to do this time? - he asks suspiciously.

\- Promise me. - I insist.

Sebastian sighs.

\- I promise not to get angry. - he agrees.

I take a deep breath and prepare myself. This is a closely guarded secret, only my family knows.

\- The person you've been looking for is right in front of you. - I say.

\- What do you mean? - he asks with a frown.

\- Exactly what you understood, I'm the person you've been looking for. Blood Flower, that's my codename. - I reveal.

Sebastian stares at me for a few seconds, looking for any sign that I'm joking, but I'm quite serious about it and when he finally realizes it, his eyes widen in surprise. It's strange to see him make that expression, it's a bit funny too, I never imagined that the unshakeable Sebastian Lucian would be so stunned by something.

\- You're not joking. - he mutters.

\- No, I'm not.

\- Holy shit. - He mutters.

\- How does it feel to hear that? - I ask a little anxiously.

He stares at me for a few seconds.

\- I think I married the most incredible woman I've ever met. - he says.

\- Because I'm the best assassin you've ever heard of? - I ask.

\- No. It's because it seems there's nothing you can't do. - you say.

I thought about your words and I'm not sure I really understood what they meant.

\- What do you mean by that? - I ask.

\- I've always been looking for a special woman, I didn't want someone who was afraid of me or would be blindly carried away by my words, I also didn't want a pawn of Anastasia by my side, I always wanted a woman who could be my equal. Now I know why I was so attracted to you and why you were never afraid of me, since you are equal to or more dangerous than me. - I smiled proudly.

I laughed at his claim that I'm more dangerous than him, that's not true, not yet.

\- You're not angry? - I ask insecurely.

\- No. But I'd like to know why you've been hiding all this time? - he asks.

\- If I were you, I'd do the same. I suddenly entered an unknown house, they despised me and tried to kill me from day one, do you really think I'd reveal all my cards at once? Of course not, I was waiting for the perfect moment to reveal myself. - I shrug.

\- You have a point. - agree.

\- Now that everything has been cleared up, I'd like to make a request. - I begin.

The time to ask for what I want is now, I'm not going to give Anastasia time to get her act together and make a move against Cherry and the rest of the family, if she doesn't know, she'll soon know that her plan has somehow failed and she'll try to silence Cherry as soon as possible and I'm not going to allow that. At the moment, I don't like my sister-in-law very much, I understand her being almost crazy because of her grief, but that doesn't justify how far she's gone in the name of revenge, to the point of involving the safety of my entire family, I hope Roderick has a serious talk with her. I don't want to see her just yet, because I feel sick just thinking about what I almost did.

I also hate myself a little for having given in, I don't want to repeat the experience ever again.

\- You can ask for anything you want. - you say.

Great, that's what I wanted to hear.

\- I'd like to know if I can really do whatever I want, as you said before? - I ask innocently.

\- Yes, you can do whatever you want, whenever you want. You can build or destroy, change your mind as many times as you like and do whatever you want with what's mine. - I assure you.

I smiled with satisfaction at his answer.

\- Okay, about that, I'm going to do something and I think it's best that you know about it now. Since Anastasia blew up my house, I intend to burn down this mansion as payment. I hope you don't mind. - I say jokingly.

\- Are you serious? - he asks.

\- Who knows? - I shrug, kiss his cheek and jump out of bed.

\- Where are you going? - he asks.

\- I'm going to get you some medicine. It's only fair that I take care of you and then I intend to go down to the basement and take care of some tramp who dared to take my man. - I hummed.

Everything finally seems to be falling into place, I'm glad to hear that everything is finally falling into place. I've discovered a lot of things in the last few days, some have been hard to accept, others have been a relief to me, and it seems that the days of struggle and exhaustion are finally coming to an end, it's nice to think that everything is about to change for the better, I can be optimistic enough to hope that better days are just around the corner.

I went back to the bedroom with Sebastian's medicine and gave it to him straight away, I lay down next to him and hugged him and kissed his chest, he pressed me against his body and sighed, I kept listening to the strong and constant beats of his heart and although I had planned to start my day early, I let the beats of his heart lull me back to dreamland, a well-deserved rest after the last few hours. Finally a peaceful sleep for a heart that has just become lighter, I'm sure Sebastian must feel the same way. There's no longer any secret between us, I'd like to tell him how much I love him right now, how my heart beats faster when I see him smiling at me, but this isn't the time yet, I'll wait patiently until better days come, I'll prepare the ground and gather the courage to talk about my feelings in a proper and special way, until then, I'll take advantage of everything he offers me and win him over little by little, until the feeling is mutual.

I'm determined to do it this way, but for now I'm just going to sleep on his strong chest and enjoy this rare moment of peace.