Chapter 42 Pregnant?

Chapter 42 Pregnant?
Pregnant?
Rena’s POV

‘Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck!!!!’

How could I have been so stupid!!!
I stared at the P.T strips in front of me. I had bought a gazillion of them just to be sure and all gazillion had come back to bite me in my face.

I had noticed the flunctuation in my mood, sleep pattern and appetite. I had begun craving shitty foods which was so unlike me.
I rarely had the urge to sleep during the day. Now.
Now I could fall asleep anytime, anywhere.

I didn’t want to believe it. But the delayed periods and sore boobs were starting to make me doubt every thing.
Which made me branch to a pharmacy store I was sure didn’t know who I was to buy a bunch of pregnancy test strips from different brands.

And now, I wished I didn’t get them. Because looking at them made that night all too believable.
As well as the crushing truth. I loved Monroe. A normal person would believe that we were both kids whenever we bickered. And it started with that at first.

But then, my feelings began changing. And now, I was head over, stupidly and madly in love with him.
I buried my feelings and proceeded with the regular bicker routine.

And when he kissed me that night, I believed he felt same.

We were in sync. Like a well oiled machine. He was attentive. And sweet. And fuck, I loved him.
Till the next morning, I watched the perfect reality I had painted shatter right before me. And I haven’t been able to recover from that.
How would I face everyone? How would I tell them?

Hiding my feelings were easy. Pretending that night never happened helped me cope with the pain. But a baby…
A freaking baby was where I cross the line. Hiding it for the first trimester wouldn’t be a problem. I could wear baggier clothes and take mild meds that would help with the morning sickness.

But what would happen when my bump starts showing?
Lila would know. She happened to know the answer to everything.

But how would I tell her that the father to my baby was her own elder brother whom everybody thought I hated?
And then the second thought in my head was whether I wanted to keep this baby?
An abortion made sense considering everything Ethan had made me go through. I touched my tummy. It seemed like I could feel the movement of the baby inside me.

What am I going to do now?
I heard the door to my living room open but I had no interest in going there. Anyone could come in and take whatever they wanted for all I cared.

“Rena where are you?”
That was weird because why was I hearing Lila’s voice. I thought I was hallucinating until the door to the bathroom opened and Lila walked in.

“What are you….”
She casually glanced at the tests I had scattered all over. She bent down and picked up three of them and I watched the realization set in.

“You must hate me now, huh?”
“Why didn’t you tell me? Who is the father? I am going to gut his soul out and hand it to him on a bronze platter?”
She was fuming but she tried not to thread into unknown waters. And I loved her for it.

But then an unknown worry invaded my thoughts. What would happen to my bond with Lila? Would she choose to side with her brother?

Would she leave me in the lurch?
Would she even need me as her manager again?

I fucked my best friends brother. And I hid it. She was bound to get angry with me.
And she would hate me for this. But I had made up my mind.

“Take me to an abortion clinic” I muttered weakly as I closed and let a lone tear slip through.
“Have you told the father yet? Do I know him?”

“You don’t have to worry. He won’t have anything to do with me. It was a one night stand and nothing else”
I wasn’t lying though. Monroe made it clear. He wouldn’t be seen with the like of me.

“Rena. I can support you. I will be your pillar. I promise that no one will judge you. But I beg you to rethink your decision. There is a life at stake here”

“My life is at stake too!!” I couldn’t control my outburst. It was all getting too much to handle.

“I will practically weave a tiny human inside me. All alone. Lila I know you will be there but we both know you have your own to live. Like come on. What about the day you have to shoot? Nursing a baby might seem fun and all but I am not ready to sacrifice my life for the child of a man who doesn’t give two flying fucks about me. I refuse to throw it all for a man.

Are you taking me or not?”
I knew this was too much to ask of her but I needed to leave this place before I started rethinking everything and watch my resolve crumble into nothing.

“So you are sure about this? I don’t want you to regret this later?”
“I won’t” I snapped. Was she treating me like a baby who can’t even make his own decisions now?

“Fine then. I am driving us two cities away from here. If we are doing this, we are handling it once and for all”
She dragged me into her embrace and I swear that was all I wanted.