Chapter 71 Greatest Fear
He heaved a long frustrated sigh and calm himself when Elena left. His head suddenly gets heavy and dizzy on that conversation. He never thought Elena was capable of doing those things just to have what she wanted. He took a deep breath and seated in his chair to ease the pain in his head. He gently massaged his temples and tried to close his eyes until he suddenly felt the drowsiness take over and engulf him.
Strange but when consciousness came over him, he felt something heavy was on top of him. Still sleepy, he just took for granted it. When he tried to open his eyes, someone gently caressed his face and claimed his lips for a torrid kiss. For a moment he thought he was dreaming and even fantasizing he was kissing his wife. Heaven knows how he badly misses her and how he was so thirsty in her lips. With Bea still in his mind, he responded passionately and deepen the kisses more. For a moment, he thought everything was a dream. He just got awakened from that dream when he heard something fall hard on the floor from afar realizing that dream was a total nightmare. A huge shock of reality slapped him when it was Elena on top of him and the shocking thing was the woman she was fantasizing with was now standing in front of the door looking so shocked staring at them as tears flowed fast on her pretty face. He immediately pushed Elena away and stand up on his seat as a huge fear and panic suddenly rushed all over his system.
"B-Bea!" He stuttered alarmingly. Damn, he got so nervous as hell!
Bea was shaking her head while crying. Her face looked shattered and God knows how he wanted to pull her in his arms to take away that pain. He came closer to her but she just stepped backward while trembling.
"Don't touch me!" She shouted angrily.
"It's not what you think, baby." He explained. When he reached her, he grabbed her and embraced her tight but she pushed him hard so he let go of her.
"Now I know why you keep on siding her over me!" She accusingly stated.
Tears keep on streaming her cheeks and that double the pain he felt knowing the reason she was crying is him.
"It's not what you think, baby. Please let me explain..." He pleaded.
It's not his fault but it's hard for him to explain because he's hating himself more for hurting his wife. Seeing her tears made him hard to breathe and it's kinda frustrating because their rift is got worsened because he keeps messing up all the time.
"You think I will ever believe your lies?" Her voice was accusing and full of pain and that was like a thousand punches in her chest.
"Congratulations, you finally win in breaking our marriage apart." He got even terrified more when he heard that heartbreaking words to Elena.
"W-What d-do you mean?" Panic and fear were obvious in his voice when he reached her and blocked her way.
Bea then furiously stares at his eyes and that expression shock the hell of him. She was so damn mad and with the reflection of her eyes, it seems like she was giving up on him. She immediately walked away from his office. He was trying to run and stop her but it seems like she knew he was about to do that so she fasten her pace and almost run to get away from him. In the end, he never had a chance to stop her from leaving.
He decided to let his wife go for a while. He will talk to her and explain what really happened later. He just has to deal with someone first. He just has to confront someone responsible for doing this mess. He was actually blazing in fury when he came back to his office to face Elena.
"Fuck! Look what you've done!" He shouted mad as hell.
"I'm sorry..." Elena stated but with the look of her eyes, it seems she was not sorry at all. It feels like she was even glad for what happened and that made him angrier.
"Sorry? Fuck with your sorry! Get the hell out of my office before I strangle your neck, woman!"
"I love you Thyago. Why you're so rude to me?" She cried.
Out of anger, he punched his table that created a huge sound. Paper works and other materials on the table were splattered everywhere.
"Why can't you fucking put in that head of yours that I can't love you back because I'm head over heels in love with my wife? Why can't you just accept that fact and stop this bullshit! You're trying to break our marriage apart!"
"T-Thyago...." She saw fear in Elena's eyes as if she never expected he could be this aggressive.
"I'm warning you, I'll make you pay for this if you win breaking our marriage apart and I will never let you get away with it...." He warned giving her a loathing stare.
And he meant what he said. This sick woman just doesn't know what he was capable of doing to her when things get worst because of her stupid actions.
When he opened the door in their room, he got stunned when he saw the baggage splattered on the floor. His wife stands before him and when he looked into her with eyes still sore after crying, he saw pain and agony in her beautiful face. He knew he was so stupid for hurting her. Now he felt stupid more because he let this thing happen between them. He should be the one blamed for this.
"You're leaving?" Too much fear is what he felt being afraid of her answer as he look into her sad eyes.
"P-Please baby, l-lets talk about this. That thing you saw in the office, it's not what you think." He tried to explain still having this thin string of belief hoping she'll listen to his explanations.
"Please, let's end this marriage, Thyago." For a moment, he felt like his world crashed down when she dropped those words.
"What! No, never! Let's talk and settle this please, baby." He said panicking.
"I had enough Thyago. I get it, you still love her and I'm setting you free now." She stated anguishedly. Tears streamed down in her cheeks and God knows how he felt his heart tear apart seeing her like that.
"Hell no! How many times do I have to tell you it's you that I love. All those things Elena told you, were all lies. You were right, she has a plan in breaking our marriage apart and I'm sorry I never believed you. It's you that I love Bea, ever since. Please don't doubt my love for you this time." He was desperately trying to apologize hoping she'll forgive him.
"Good you finally knew but I had made my decisions. I don't wanna be hurt anymore. Let's stop this over, please..."
"Please don't do this to me, baby. I need you, you and our child." He was now begging desperately.
He even stoops down on bended knees hoping she'll listen. He maybe looks so pathetic and desperate but then who cares? If he has to kneel over and over, she will do it just for her to listen. God, he can't live without his wife and his child.
"I will no longer listen to you. I was hurt enough and I learned my lessons now. This time, I wanna love myself and do what's best for me. I can no longer bear the pain. I made up my mind, I want this marriage over." She stated painfully.
"What about our child? Do you want him to grow up having separated parents?"
"You think, I want this? He will understand, I'll make him understand. Don't worry, I will never deprive your rights to our child. You are his father and I can't take away that fact."
"Damn it! I love you, why can't you believe me!" He shouted out of desperation.
He can feel his tears now on his face and he won't be ashamed showing it to her. He was afraid to lose her, he was hoping she'll realize that and give her a chance to make things right but he knew it is impossible. When she turned her back on him and grabbed her baggage, God knows how he badly wanted to pull her in his arms and never let her go but he knew she'll only despise him more if he did that. He felt he died a million times seeing her walk away from him.
She was crying, a sign she don't wanna leave. Did I hurt her too much to make her wanna leave me? Oh God, what did I've done to my wife? What did I've done to my family? Why did I let this thing happen?
God knows how his heart broke into tiny little pieces as he watched her walk away from him. He loves her so much but what he did is hurt her and made her leave? Will he ever make her come back? How does he wish to just die if he never wins her back because there's no reason living this life without her...