“Oh god your completely wasted arent you ? thats hysterical”
I shrugged off her words and made a bee line for my bedroom all though it probably wasnt a straight line i managed to get to my room and lay on my bed. This was yet another mistake as as soon as i laid down my room started to spin both horizontally and vertically without any sign of stopping any time soon. I laid with one foot on the floor trying my best to stop the room spinning. I fell asleep with the room still turning however instead of the usual nightmare that i had been having every night i was greeted by blackness and nothing else. I woke and still felt like i hadnt really slept, however for the first time in a couple of weeks i hadnt woke during the night and also hadnt had that horrible nightmare. I vaguely remembered hearing a voice but couldnt remember what it had said to me.
It was a normal sunday morning up until i received a text from an unknown number it read
“ hey chris hanging with you yesterday was pretty fun you seem like a chill guy do you fancy hanging out again today we will all be at the park again.”
I didnt remember giving my number to josh or anyone else in the group. To be honest i didnt remember much from the day before and my head felt like it was both as heavy as an anvil and full of bees. I pondered over the offer for all of about 10 seconds before i decided that i was going to take josh up on his offer. I was more than happy to ditch my friends for one day just to try and increase my social standing. Plus if i did manage to get in with the cool kids then i wouldnt need to worry about my old friends. I know this wasnt the best way to look at it but having been the outcast for most of my life and never being considered as popular the appeal was definitely very real.
I headed down to the park completely brushing off my D&D responsibilities, as i got to the park josh and his friends were there with yet more bottles of wkd and what i assume to be some cannabis, i say what i assume to be as i wasnt really sure. I had seen pictures and had lessons in school about drugs and drug use but i didnt pay attention and i honestly didnt care at this point if it meanti could be one of the popular kids i was willing to drink and smoke anything they handed to me. As i got closer i heard josh call out
“ yo chris, big man over here come have a drink and chill bro”
This was it i thought i had finally managed to make popular friends. As soon as i reached them i was handed a cigarette and a plastic cup. It must have been about mid day when my phone started ringing. I looked at the creen and saw it was mick, instead of answering i let the phone ring out and just carried on trying to establish myself as part of this new group. About an hour later my phoe went off again and yet again it was mick. Josh amused by the fact that i kept receiving phone calls and ignoring them jokingly asked
“Oh is that your boyfriend do you need to ask his permission to be out with us ?”
I laughed dryly as i replied
“Nah its just someone i dont really want to talk to at the moment im having to much of a good time here”
Josh smiled as i said this and offered me a smoke of whatever it was we were actually smoking. I felt the hot smoke travel down to my lungs and a feeling of light headedness begin to appear. I quickly followed this by a large gulp of the wkd adn again felt a warm rush to my stomach and the feeling of becoming tipsy. I still hadnt learnt my limits as i drank and smoked as much as i could to try a prove myself to these people who i barely knew and who 2 days ago hadnt even noticed me walking around the same school. My attempts to impress them continued through out the afternoon and into the early evening. I had continued to ignore my phone and when i finally came around to looking i noticed a text and 2 missed calles from my mum. My stomach turned and due to the smoking and drinking it was to much for me to handle. I ran to the closest bin i could find and immediately emptied the contents of my stomach into it.
Josh and his friends had a laugh at my expense due to me being sick. I ignored them for a momant as my ind pinged through possabilities as to how this was going to play out. I had no clue what my mums reaction was going to be especially as i hadnt answered her calls. I hesitantly called her and as soon as she answered i could tell that i was in trouble. Her voice was sharper than normal and her tone was definitely unhappy.