Chapter 4 Chapter 2.1
My knees were almost shaking earlier, and I was already sweating inside the blanket. Why is he showing up now? I have no plans to talk to him or say anything about what I'm carrying. I'm scared, but I think I can raise our child alone. Their world is far from my world, they are hard to reach, and I won't fit in with them because I don't belong in their perfect world.
I was relieved when I heard him leave earlier, and just a few minutes later, I said goodbye to Sir Zachary, that's the name of the only son of our bosses at the company. It was still early, but he let me go home and said I should just go to the company tomorrow. I didn't refuse because I was afraid that he and that man might still meet.
I went home feeling very tired. I don't know how long I'll be like this because of my pregnancy. It's embarrassing to take a leave just for this, and I don't want to abuse Sir Zach's kindness.
"I'm here, Mom," I said when I saw Mom. She just blankly looked at me and then passed me. She didn't even ask why I came home so early. I just smiled sparingly, of course she's still mad at me.
I went to the kitchen to see what to cook for our dinner. Mom still didn't talk to me. Has dad found out yet? I just sighed, surely like Mom, he won't talk to me either.
"Hi Heaven, you're early today," I looked at our youngest brother. I smiled at him and slightly pinched his cheek.
"Something just happened at the office, that's why I came home early. What do you want for dinner today? I'll cook for you," Excitement drew on my brother's face, so I laughed.
"Can we have bulalo, Heaven? It's been so long since I tasted that, please?" He even rubbed his two palms together as if begging, so I laughed even more.
"Okay, I'll just buy it at the market," I answered him, so he almost jumped for joy, but I also stopped because it was already afternoon. It's impossible for me to find beef at the market anymore.
"We'll just have that for dinner tomorrow morning, it's surely sold out at the market, but don't worry. Heaven will still cook something delicious for you," I messed up his hair, and he still smiled at me.
I ordered him to change, I just looked for something I could cook for our dinner tonight.
When night came, Mom didn't join us for dinner. I called her several times, but she didn't talk to me, so I ordered Anica to call Mom to eat, but Mom just said that she was still full.
"Heaven, did you and Mom fight? She's been quiet since yesterday," Anica, the second of our siblings, asked me.
"I don't remember anything, maybe Mom is just tired, that's why she doesn't feel like answering. Just eat," I said to them, which they nodded at. I looked at Mom in the living room because our living room can be seen from here in the kitchen. She was sewing the torn shorts of my brothers again.
I just let her be, we'll probably be okay when her anger passes. She'll probably accept her grandchild even if it's not planned. I don't care what our neighbors will say, as long as I don't kill an innocent life just to be said that I'm still a maiden.
The next day, I was getting ready to go to the company because I was feeling a little better. I'll just be careful with every move I make. After giving my siblings their allowance, they said goodbye that they were going in.
A few minutes passed, and I was about to get my things to go to the company when Mom approached me.
"Mom," I called her in surprise because since the other day, this was the only time she approached me.
"You need to come with me, Heaven," She said gently to me, so I was wondering where we were going.
"Where are we going, Mom?" I asked her, but she didn't talk to me. She held my hand and led me out of the house. When we got outside, there was a taxi waiting for us. I had no idea where we were going. "Mom, I have work, where are we going?" I asked her again. I was afraid that I would be late for my work, and it would be deducted from my salary.