Chapter 5 Chapter 2.2
Mom didn't talk to me, her eyebrows were furrowed, and she seemed to be thinking deeply. Before long, we stopped, and Mom told me to get off. I was wondering what we were going to do here.
"What are we going to do here, Mom?" I asked her, I was nervous because we were outside a clinic. Mom held my hand again and pulled me inside. I was even surprised when a doctor greeted Mom as if they knew each other, and I was even more surprised when Mom was able to set a schedule here.
"Mom," I called her nervously, I didn't feel good about what we were going to do here at the clinic.
"Just stay here, Ma'am," someone called me, but I shook my head.
"Mom!" I shouted at her, but she tightened her grip on me.
"I'm doing this for you, Heaven! Can you just cooperate because you'll just ruin your life if you continue your pregnancy!"
"Mom, do you hear what you're saying?! Don't do this to me," I pleaded with her, but Mom just shook her head at me.
"Whether you like it or not, we'll have that child aborted! His formation in this world wasn't planned either, so just follow me. It's not too late for you, Heaven."
"I can't do it!" I removed Mom's grip on me and was about to leave when she pulled me again.
"Are you really out of your mind, Heaven?! I just want your life to be better, and you can still build your family when your life is okay! What don't you understand there? How will you raise your child alone?! I don't care if you can't help us anymore, but I hope you think about your life. Since you were a child, you already knew the hardship, you already felt the weight of the world, and I don't want you to carry that until now, I don't want you to carry that until your future children. I don't want your life to be difficult anymore!" My tears quickly fell because while Mom was saying those words, she was crying. She just sat on the chair while crying.
We didn't care what the doctor and nurses at this clinic would think.
"Heaven, I don't want you to carry the weight of life anymore. Your dad and I have nothing to inherit to you, so I'm choosing what's best for you," she said weakly because she was already sobbing.
"I understand, Mom, but this is not the solution. I can't kill an innocent child just to make my life better. You go home now, and I'm going to work," I quickly wiped the tears on my cheeks and left that clinic.
I was hurt while seeing Mom hurt and cry, but I couldn't do what she wanted. I'll just raise the child in my womb because if I kill him, I'll carry my guilt and conscience for the rest of my life.
I wanted to hug Mom, I understood her because she only wanted a good life for us siblings, but this time, she wanted the wrong decision.
I was absent-minded at work all day. Fortunately, I was still able to do my job right, but I couldn't avoid being shouted at by our manager because I was losing myself. I couldn't even hear her calling, so she was angry.
When I got out of the company, I let out a sigh. My shoulders were slumped, and I felt very tired.
I went straight home, but I just frowned when I saw all my things outside. I hurried to run so I could find out what was happening. Why were all my things outside?
"Aunty, calm down. Don't do this to Heaven. She needs you now," I heard Aleena pleading with Mom.
"Mom, why are you taking all my things out?" I asked her confusedly.
"I won't allow that shameless man who got you pregnant to not take responsibility for you, so I'll take you to him," she said angrily again and then threw another bag with my clothes outside.
"Mom, let's talk. Don't do this," I was stopping her from taking my things out, but I couldn't do anything. I was about to get my things and put them back in when Mom stopped me.
"I won't allow that man to just ruin your life, Heaven. I won't allow you to raise your child alone while he's indulging in life!"
"Mom, I'm begging you, don't do this. Let's talk about it first, don't be rash, oh," I almost cried as I pleaded with her.
"Yes, Aunty, talk to Heaven first," Aleena also worriedly chimed in.
"There's nothing more to talk about, I've already decided, and that's what's best for you, Heaven," Mom said decisively, she pulled me again when a taxi arrived. I looked at Aleena to ask for help, but she just bowed her head and, like me, she was also crying.
"Mom, let's go home, let's not make the trouble bigger. I don't even want that man to take responsibility for me. I don't need that man anymore, so please let's go home," I rubbed my hands together while begging her.
"No, Heaven, you both made that, so you both should raise it," She said emphatically, I was nervous about where we were going. I was afraid that Aleena had said who the man I was with that night was. I repeatedly begged Mom, but her mind was closed. Why did it have to come to this? I knew she was just worried about my future, but she needed to force that man on me.