Chapter 13

I lift myself up wanting so badly to feel her and just when she begins to do just that, her phone rang.

I watch her get up and pick it in disbelieve .. she fucking left th.. this.. Me? For a common phone call. 

I'm actually angry and I know I'm not gonna let her come back after the phone call to continue touching me at the moment so I stand and begin to put on my discarded clothes as I eavesdrop on her call which sounds quite so tense and confusing .."Did they have Noah arrested? 

Hmm.. looks like the guy did something very bad to them in the past." I mused.

"Claire, I'm really hungry." I said to her as I got to her and hugged her. For some reason she's quite sad and I don't want her to be .. besides I'm also hungry and my Claire actually loves cooking so perhaps it will help take her mind off the things that the said Noah did that got her so moody and sad.

She hugged me back then stood up and walked to the cardboard, she crab one macaroni and then she moved to the cylinder .. on it then she turned to the gas cooker and just stood there staring at it but I know she's not even seeing it. Her mind is somewhere else and it's bothering me a lot.

"I'm actually depressed right now" she said all of a sudden and more to herself as she began putting the macaroni inside a pot.

"I know and I'm sorry, I brought our late baby up and now you're so sad" I said in my mind sadly.

I watched her as she placed our food on the table then sat but she didn't attempt to eat. 

I started to eat another spoon but realized that Claire hadn't had any then I began to feed her which she surprised me by opening her mouth each time I raised a spoon full of macaroni to her mouth. I didn't even know she could see me right now .. her eyes are looking at her food but I know she ain't really seeing it. It's like her mind wants to be here and at the same time somewhere else.

After she couldn't take any, I cleared the table .. cleaned her mouth with a wipe and sat back down on the same seat then I began looking at my wife wanting so badly to know what's troubling her.

"This is frustrating." She said as she looked at me but I didn't say anything then she said in a low tone.

"I want you.. Fuck Le, I want you so much." She muttered desperately while looking at me in the eyes .. her once sad eyes now filled with lust and a little sadness.

"You can have me Claire .. anytime and anywhere, I'm all yours to take." I said meaning it and at the same time hoping it will wipe out that sadness in her eyes and put a smile on her face instead .. but it didn't.

She looked lost, confused and then confused again.

"Ok wife, start spilling it out now. What's bothering you? .. you've been sitting down there as if you're forced to and you've been giving me these different mood swings. I'm not a mind reader so if something is bothering you tell me, please and let's talk about it .. ok? I said as I took her hands in mine.

"Fuck Le, you're letting me touch you .. not just making out but it seems like you'll even let me make love to you _which I want so damn much but I also want to be there too .. pressuring that bitch to tell me where our baby is. 

I don't know, for some reason you don't want me to go and I know .. maybe she ain't even alive, maybe I'm just opening a fresh wound but... But I just.. I don't know .. I just"

"You just want to be very sure. She's your baby Claire, she's my baby .. she's our baby but I thought Blair said she died. What are you still confused about and what are you trying to dig up?" I was confused.

"Le the email you sent to Blair said baby Jane is alive and that Noah has something to do with her disappearance .. although you didn't get to finish.. I know, my mind is telling me that, that boy knows something." Claire said which made me stand up in shock.

"Oh my god! Claire why didn't you tell me that was the reason you were beating him up. I'm so gonna kill somebody. Fuck! I'm so gonna kill him! How dare he? .. how dare he lay his filthy hands on our daughter.

"Oh my god! I keep muttering as I grab my purse and begin to rush out of the house.

"Le.. Where are you going?" Claire asked, now standing as if trying to figure out my next move.

"Let's go find our baby" I said as I ran back to Claire, grabbed her hand and started leading her out of the house in a hurry.