Chapter 59
Dylan’s POV
I could see the rage in her eyes, the disappointment which made my heart freeze. I didn’t want to disappoint her like this, but it was really necessary.
“We can’t announce we are mates now.” I told her calmly, as soon as she asked if we can announce it.
I feel a worse because I had not really been there for her after I got better. I was more fixed with trying to settle everything with the Alpha.
Lily’s face twisted. “Why do you keep doing this?” Her voice was layered, almost bitter. She looked like she was going to burst out crying.
My heart tightened. “I—"
“If you don’t want us to be mates, I can understand. Just reject me and stop playing me.” Her voice broke, and she looked away, blinking back her tears.
I reached out to her. “Lily, that’s not what I meant. I—”
But she didn’t let me finish up what I was saying. She flung my hand away and stepped back. I could see the tear gathering under her eyes.
“Goodbye Beta Dylan.”
She was being so professional; I couldn’t explain why that made my heart race. Before I could respond, she turned and walked away, half running.
I stared after her, my legs rooted to the spot. Why did I always manage to find a way to make her sad?
Just a few minutes ago, she was so excited to talk to me about it that she left her friend outside and rushed onboard.
But now, that wide smile she had on her face was already gone, and she was running away from me, with tears in her eyes.
My animal crawled inside my mind. I knew Jinn my wolf was angry with me for making our mate cry. I bit my lip looking away.
Should I go after her? Never in my life have I ever felt this torn and restless. I want her more than she can ever imagine. I want the whole world to know she belongs to me, she is mine. But I can’t. This is not a good time, the Alpha is already like on the edge of emotional collapse, I need him to relax for a bit before I break the news to him.
I ran my fingers through my hair, trying my best not to lose my mind. Oh Goddess, was I wrong?
Just then, Alpha Damon mind linked me about getting somethings on board for us to leave. I sighed and went away; I needed the distraction of work more than anything right now.
I didn’t see her again after that, but I forced myself to relax, knowing that she was safe somewhere. I could feel her energy around, but I could also feel her sadness.
It took everything in me not to go after her and pull her into my arms to comfort her. I headed out to make sure everything was arranged for departure, while still being on the lookout for any prominent threats.
Alpha Damon still didn’t quite trust his brother, he had instructed a close watch environmentally, until we were far away from the Pack lands. Another threat flowed around us increasingly. The death of the Alpha of the Blackmoon Pack has already been annouced, and they were already on the lookout for those who had murdered him.
We weren’t safe, we couldn’t feel any safe until we were far away from here. That was why I convinced the Alpha to bring Lily with us. He didn’t know why, but I was able to convince him that it was necessary for the Luna’s settling.
If the Blackmoon Pack found out about the involvement of Alpha Morgan in the death of their leader, they wouldn’t hesitate to attack, and that could endanger my mate, something I couldn’t bring myself to let happen.
Apart from that, I knew I would lose my mind without her. The days I had tried to avoid her in the past, turned out to be the worst days of my life. I had almost gone rogue then and there is no guarantee that won’t happen again.
I sighed, rubbing my temple as I made sure everything was in place. I had been notified about some potential threats, two members Alpha Morgan’s Pack, one who happened to be his son, and the son of his Beta.
We had watched their movements to know if they were actual threats, but when we found out they had come to say their goodbyes to the Luna, we relaxed a little. But it clearly didn’t sit well with the Alpha, and for the first time, I saw jealousy on his face.
If it was a good time, I would have probably teased him about it, but I knew deep down I would feel the same way if it were another man hugging my mate.
After we began sailing, I went out to look for my mate, but I was stunned at the sight before me. She was drunk and leaning on to the Luna.
I swore that my heart did a flip over when I saw how red her face was, and how unfocused her eyes were. I didn’t even realize when I lied to the Luna that the Alpha was looking for her, so she could hand her over to me.
The Luna not suspecting anything did just that, thanking me as she hurried away. As soon as Lily’s body touched mine, I felt my whole body burn with a desire I would never have thought existed.
She looked up at me with those beautiful eyes and said, “hey leave me alone, I am angry with you.”
She looked so cute right now.
I want to kiss her so badly.
“Be quiet.” I whispered, and scooped her off her feet. She yelped in drunk surprise, and then held unto my shirt as I carried her off to my room. For times like this, I am more than grateful that this yacht had rooms in it.
She snuggled deeper into my hold, her hot breath fanning my neck. My breath hitched and my hold on her tightened. I felt blood rush to my lower region. I let out a soft groan.
Damn, I want her so bad.
I carried her into the room, shutting the door behind us.
But as though noticing we were now alone, she turned her face to my neck, murmuring some intangible words as her lips found the croak of my neck, and her teeth nibbling it softly.
I hiss.
If she does that one more time, I doubt I would be able to stop myself.
As though she heard my thoughts, her hold on me tightened and she whispered. “I want you.”