BELLA.
"No. Please don't say like that," I panicked seeing the pain in his eyes, I felt my heart ache in his pain. "I-I love you, Caspar. I have always loved you, after marrying you there has never been a man who made my heart flutter other than you. You are the light of my messed up world… you–"
"Bella!" He thundered as he called my name in order. Glaring at me, he retorted, "Lies. All you say is lies. Do you think I'm blind? I have seen you making out with your male nanny Lucas even after our marriage."
"I can… I can explain to you…"
"I do not want your damn explanation which is nothing just a bunch of made-up excuses to prove yourself innocent," he scoffed as if he gave no fuck about my damn words and proceeded to scold me further. "I can still imagine you riding on his fucking dick even after I killed him with my very own hands. Was your male nanny that attractive to you, huh? You forgot about me!"
Oh no, Caspar isn't willing to understand my situation. That time I wasn't aware that Caspar was my one-night stand partner, Xavier. And there is something that I don't even know about my body. I wanted to explain to him but couldn't find the right words to express myself.
How should I tell him that I was groomed by that man? How should I make him understand that the playgirl personality I developed was because… Lucas exposed me to the world of sex and masturbation at an early age. I blame my parents for being unbothered parents all the time.
'I lost my virginity at the early age of sixteen and the man who did the deed was no other than Lucas himself!' I clenched my jaws as the past thoughts reminded me of my horror.
My first sex was painful, confusing and I begged Lucas to get off me however he kept forcing himself on me. I could say I was r@ped by him and that's why I felt nothing when he was killed by Caspar.
"Did I hit the nail at the correct wound of your heart?" He asked, sucking me out of my thoughts and I realized that I was still thinking of ways to explain my past situation.
However I don't know why I couldn't say anything, maybe I valued my dignity which was almost on the verge of becoming a joke to everyone. I was scared that after knowing about my past, Caspar would think of me as weak, who could be manipulated by any man.
Not only Caspar, I have kept the secret of my relationship with Lucas buried in my heart, it was not something I would like to share with even the ghost living in my room.
I lowered my eyes as a sign of defeat, I no longer knew what to say or how to calm him down. 'Should I tell him about his daughter, Karina? And about my brother being alive?' I thought and was about to tell him when suddenly Nancy walked in there with Erick.
I tried to push Caspar away from me so that they would not misunderstand but Caspar was immovable. He was holding onto my wrists tightly, and raising his one eyebrow he sarcastically commented, "What? Now you hate me? You feel disgusted because I'm this close to you!"
"What?" I was confused, why would he say something like that?
"Oh right, you prefer your new Russian husband now! The one you fucked with after assassinating me, had babies and god knows what else. He must be quite handsome and good in bed, you must have enjoyed riding him every night!"
"Caspar…," I gently called his name. "W-Who are you talking about? Where did you hear about–"
"Wow, look at you Bella," Erick's cocky comment distracted us both, as he inched towards us while clapping his hands.
Caspar immediately loosened his grip on my wrists and got back. Turning back to face Erick he coldly asked,"What are you doing here, Erick? Didn't I order you to stay with your sister-in-law at the wedding party? Why have you brought her here?"
I watched him rushing to Nancy, and started explaining to her how he needed to talk to me and let out the last bit of his anger. I assume he was now married to her, despite my refusal, he still went on getting married to her. Bravo!
And as if I no longer existed for Caspar, he ignored me and became busy comforting his new wife. One would not believe me but at that moment I felt like I was killed hundreds of times on the spot.
Caspar's way of revenge was definitely making me feel like dying every damn second. I decided to leave, it's not worth being treated by him… I have had enough already.
I was humiliated by the elite guests, the top millionaires and billionaires of the world had attended his wedding ceremony. The online bullying I will be facing from tomorrow is going to be insane. The news of 'Billionaire's crazy ex-wife causing a scene at his second wedding' will make the headlines of all news channels and social media.
I did whatever I could, seeing him worrying about his new wife gave me no hope. After finding out that Karina is his daughter, I'm damn sure he and his family will try every possible way to get my daughter away from me.
I know brother Olivier is willing to go to any lengths for me, but it's not a good idea to involve him in my problem. I don't want my dad to find out that the son he thought was dead is actually alive.
I don't want Dad to play with Olivier's life, control him and force him to return to take over the business, just like how he did with me. As much as I know Dad, he will threaten my brother to do as he says by taking me hostage and my daughter.
'Brother should always be Master Olivier Sharapova not Olivier Dior. And I'll not allow Dad to touch him and control him by using me as weakness,' I thought as I turned back to return to Vincent's car, he must be waiting for me.
When suddenly I heard Nancy calling me by my first name," Bella, I'm sorry for being disrespectful towards you in the wedding ballroom."
"You see," she began as she played with her fingers in a childish way. "I was scared that you might take my husband away from me. But no such thing happened so I have no issues with you. You can come inside and have dinner with other guests."
Wow, this girl makes me mad every fucking time she opens her mouth. Nobody has ever gotten on my nerves as much as this pretentious girl is. She was indirectly insulting me and saying that Caspar was now hers.
Without turning back, I replied," Thank you very much but I don't think I would be able to eat anything. My butler and bodyguards are waiting for me in the cars."
"Aww, that's sooo sad," she exaggerated her words in a taunt and walking forth in front of me she smiled. "Bella, you don't hold any grudges against me, right? Because I feel like you are angry with me…"
Headache! She's a headache! Suppressing my urge to slap her, I forced myself to answer politely, with each word holding the ounce of my patience,"WHY WOULD I BE ANGRY WITH YOU?"
"Because I married your husband and from–"
The last string of my patience snapped as I removed my gown's slit skirt, pulled my gun from my hidden thigh's holster belt and pointed at her forehead.
"Say a word more and I'll make sure you remain quiet for eternity, fucking bitch," I cursed at Nancy, I was pissed off and my killer instinct was telling me to end this pathetic woman's life.
"What the fuck?" Erick growled angrily as he tried to step forward.
I glanced at him and managing a wry smile I warned, "Do not try to oversmart me, Erick. You know very well that I will not hesitate to shoot her."
"Drop the gun, Bella," Caspar said, and the look he gave me was cold, devoid of any feelings. "Stop acting like a mad woman. Anything that happens to Nancy and your new family will be under their graves. I will leave nobody alive!"
"Caspar," I shouted aggressively. I have had enough of his nonsense. How dare he threaten me? Alright, enough is enough.
"I can endure your insults, I listen to your scoldings and curses all day, however I will not tolerate others making fun of me," I firmly declared my point. "I'm not a weak woman who anyone can order around, or pass insulting comments. I kept quiet and allowed your guests to humiliate me because I was groveling for your forgiveness."
"But. This girl has no right to humiliate me. I'll not be fine with her looking down at me," I glanced at Nancy as I pulled my gun's trigger.
"Brother, stop your crazy ex-wife. She's going to kill her," Erick panicked and Caspar clenched his fists.
Striding towards me, he grabbed my hand and snatched the gun. I was too focused on Nancy that I didn't notice Caspar's quick involvement.
"Get out of my sight," Caspar glowered as he pushed me away and hugged Nancy.
He meant to push me lightly, but his strength was so unbearable that I staggered and fell down on the floor. And instead of helping me get up, Caspar was busy comforting her. I almost cried as I slowly got up and dragged my body away from there.
While leaving, I kept looking back in intervals and his eyes met mine. He showed signs of worry but never approached me.
"Miss Bella, why are you walking like this? Did you fall down on your way?" Vincent panicked, as he got out of the car. I assured him that everything was fine and asked.
"I want to spend tonight in the club. I want to get drunk so that the pain of heartbreak lessens. I'm truly exhausted at this point !"