Chapter 54

"W-where are we going?" I silently curse at my self, why am I stammering? Im freaking anxious!

"Spain" he answered casually. He driving and we're about to exit the parking lot.

"You're crazy!" Hindi makapaniwalang sabi ko.

"I am, but you love me and that makes you crazier" he uttered matter of factly, kainis he really knows how to shut me up with his realtalks! Ikaw ba namang lumaki na ang tanging goal ay kupalin ako!

"Hindi ako sasama" humalukipkip ako at sinamaan sya ng tingin "I'm not asking for your consent, Azrielle. You want it or not, you're coming with me"

"This is kidnap!" Humalakhak sya at inabot ang kamay ko. May pinindot sya sa phone nya, niloudspeaker nya at narinig ko ang boses ni Mommy.

"Kidnap? Ask your mom then." Hinintay nyang sumagot si Mommy. "Tita, I'm with Azrielle and we're leaving now"

"Okay, ingat kayo. Azrielle, anak, you two need to settle everything. Nagpaalam sya sa amin at pumayag kami ng daddy mo, isang linggo lang naman kayo don"

"What? One week?" Tinignan ko lang sya, he played with my fingers habang nagmamaneho sya. This is unbelievable! Pati magulang ko nakasabwat nya dito?

"Oo anak, enjoy Spain... ang dalaga namin Coltrane, anak"

"Yes mommy Cristina" he said gigling. Aba!?

"Ugh" sumandal ako sa may pinto ng sasakyan nya at pumikit.

"I'm sorry, baby" he kissed the back of my hand, nag init ang gilid ng mata ko at nagbadya na naman ang mga luha ko.

"Azrielle, don't give up on me." He almost begged "Please give me another chance, let's start again"

Hindi ko sya iniimik habang nasa airplane kami, sinara ko ang window shade ng airplane at pumikit. Nag lagay ako headphones at nakinig ng music. Planado nga itong pag alis namin, kaya pala bago ako nagpunta sa Manila ay nasa bahay sila ni Eros. Si mommy ang nag pack ng bagahe ko.

I miss him so much, and I badly want to hug him pero may parte sa puso ko na galit sa kanya dahil sa paglayo nya sa akin at selos sa babaeng lagi nyang kasama.

May karapatan din naman akong magalit diba?

Hindi ko na namalayang nakatulog na ako, naramdaman kong may nakayakap sa akin. Tumingala ako at nakita si Coltrane na nakatulog rin. I caressed his face and he made a slight move, mas humigpit ang yakap nya sa akin at tuloy tuloy lang ang tulog.

Ngayon, I can see some changes in his features. Pumayat sya at mukhang hindi nakakatulog masyado, but it didn't made him less handsome, gwapo pa rin talaga sya sa paningin ko.

Pumikit akong muli, sumandal sa kanya at kumapit sa nakayakap nyang bisig sa akin. Humikab ako at natulog muli.

"Welcome back sir" tumango si Coltrane sa sundo namin, antok pa ako kaya nakakapit ako sa braso nya, feeling ko kasi hanginin lang ako tutumba na ako sa sobrang antok.

"Are you okay?" Tumango ako, umakbay sya sa akin at sinandal ako sa kanya. "Malayo pa ba tayo?" Sinabi nyang malapit na kaya nilabanan ko pa ang antok.

"Welcome back, sir Coltrane" Coltrane greeted them back, inabot nya ang mga gamit namin at pinakilala ako sa kanila.

"Asan si Mamila?" Tanong ko. "Nasa kabilang bahay, this is my house" nilibot ko ang paningin ko at namangha, sa kanya talaga 'to? Whoa?

"Come this way" nagpatianod ako sa kanya, binuksan nya ang pinto ng isang kwarto at pinapasok ako. I saw my picture hanging on the wall. "This is yours. You can fix or decorate this room according to your liking. But have a rest first"

Hinila ko ang braso nya nang tumalikod sya at akmang aalis.... mamamahay kasi ako for sure.

"I know, magpapalit lang ako" aniya, wala pa man akong sinasabi ay alam na nya ang sasabihin ko.

"Wala akong toothbrush" ngumiti sya at tinuro ang banyo. "Andyan na lahat ng kailangan mo"

"Okay, I'll take a shower"

"Sige, katukin mo nalang ako sa kabilang kwarto pagkatapos"

Katulad nga ng sabi nya andito na lahat ng kailangan ko, toothbrush, paste, sabon, shampoo, bath bombs, a bottle of my favorite perfume and towels.

Napatingin ako sa bath tub, gusto ko tuloy punuin iyon at gumamit ng bath bomb. Pero dahil antok na rin nag hot shower na lamang ako.

Katulad ng sinabi nya pagkatapos kong mag shower ay kumatok ako sa kwarto nya. Katatapos nya lang rin yatang maligo dahil nagpupunas sya ng buhok pagkabukas nya ng pinto.

"Come in" the manly scent of his room made me feel alive, it smelled just like him. I saw a photo of me again hanging on the wall.

"Bakit yan?" Nilingon nya ang picture ko at ngumiti. "So whenever I'm here it would still feell like you're with me" he pulled me closer and cupped my cheeks.

I hitched my breath when I saw tears pooled his eyes, but he still managed to smile.

"I missed you so much, baby"

"Do you still love me?" Tanong ko, he leaned his forehead with mine and nodded his head. "So much, Azrielle. Nothing's changed"

"Then why did treated me that way?" I wiped away his tears and he composed himself.

"There's no valid reason for me to leave you behind, and hurt your feelings. I was hurt, pero mas nasaktan kita and I hated my self for that lumayo ako kasi I know that I don't deserve you" hinalikan nyang muli ang kamay ko saka nya pinagsalikop ang mga kamay namin.

"Ako ang magdedesisyon kung deserve mo ba ako o hindi, Coltrane. You should've listened to my explanations and we could've solved it straightway! Hindi yung iiwasan mo ako, saka ka sasama sa iba" he hugged me.

"I'm sorry. I know sorry won't change anything, but I'll make it up to you, baby. Just don't give up on me"

"Hindi naman ako nag give up, Coltrane. I got fed up with you dodging me, napagod lang rin ako"

"I know, I'm sorry. Eros explained everything to me, Imogen is just a distraction. Nagselos ako, nasaktan ako pero alam kong hindi yun sapat para iwasan at iwan kita sa ere. I thought I lost you, I thought its better if I'll just let you and Eros be happy together. Perp noong nag usap kami narealize ko na ako yung unti unting sumisira sa ating dalawa. I was so afraid to lose you kaya hinintay ko munang magkabalikan si Angeline at Eros bago ako nagplanong lumapit sa'yo at bumawi, Eros knows everything about it but I asked him not to tell you. I can't explain what happened at the auction, my anger and jealousy got the best of me, because I saw you two having conversation before you went up at the rooftop, he even hugged you."

"He was just cheering me up, Coltrane. I hate you for questioning and underestimating my love for you. Sabi mo pa wala kang tiwala sa akin" he pulled me closer and tucked the loose strands of my hair behind my ear.

"I trust you, its my tongue that I don't trust when I'm angry. Ayoko nang mag sorry baby, I'll just do my best to make it up to you. Babawi ako, kaya ipinunta kita rito"

"Anong pagbawi? Eto bang pagpunta natin sa Spain?" Tumango sya. "This is my way of saying sorry, please allow me to court you again" he hugged me tightly and swayed our bodies together.

"Or we could get married here" my mouth went dry and my heart thumped slowly.

"Sira ka" he chuckled and kissed my head. "I'm not joking Azrielle, I plan to keep you for the rest of my life. The days without you are lonely, heart wrenching. Don't laugh, I know its corny. Ayaw lang kitang mawala ulit sa akin, I had to restrain my self from killing that Torralba guy, ang lakas pumorma hindi naman gwapo."

"Bata pa tayo" Nakaramdam ako ng kaba sa mga sinasabi nya, we're too young for this, but yeah I want to marry him... but soon

"I'm just twenty" he rolled his eyes upward

"Age is not an issue, Azrielle" he cupped my face and gave me a quick peck on the lips. "But yeah no pressure" Nakahinga ako ng maluwag at umupo sa kama.

"I also want to confess something"

"Okay, go on" tumabi sya sa akin at hinawakan ang kamay ko. "Noong nasa manila ka, andon rin ako. Sa guest room nyo ako natulog" magrereact palang sana ako nang dugtungan nya ang sinabi nya. "And kasabwat ko pala si Eros at ang family mo, at kung saan ka man pumunta during our cool off... andon rin ako."

Kaya pala hindi ako pinapasok ni Kuya sa guest room noon!

"You're creepy" I pinched his cheeks and kissed him. Wala akong gana makipagtalo dahil inaantok ako, pero for sure kapag dinalaw ako ni mother nature masasapak ko 'tong isang 'to!

"You're so good with surprises."

"I apologize for the times that I made you cry" he kissed my eyes before my cheeks. "Coltrane, wala ako sa mood makipag away ngayon ah pero kapag dinalaw ako ni mother nature humanda ka sa akin" he chuckled and kissed my temples.

"I'm always ready for your beast mode, sanay na ako" ah pingot ka sa akin ngayon!

"Rest and we'll talk again later" kinumutan nya ako at tumabi sa akin. Pumikit ako at dinama ang pag haplos nya sa ulo ko. "I love you, baby."

"I'm still mad so I won't answer you" he smiled and kissed my lips, mahina ko siyang sinampal. "That's more than enough, baby" yumakap ako sa kanya at pumikit para matulog.