Chapter 93 I'm Pregnant
NADIA
I got back from the pharmacy twenty minutes ago.
And you're probably already guessing what I went to buy there, right?
Well, that's exactly what you thought, I went to buy a damn pregnancy test.
And imagine my embarrassment at having to say loudly and clearly that I wanted to buy a pregnancy test, since the clerk seemed to be deaf in one ear, because the damn woman made me repeat the name of the thing about four times.
But putting my indignation aside, here I am now sitting on the toilet with the pregnancy test strip between my thighs, and the fear of peeing and discovering in five minutes that I'm pregnant.
"No, Nadia," I told myself.
"Think positive, I mean, think negative."
Oh, fuck it, I'm going to pee right now!
I closed my eyes in silent prayer as I let my urine hit the strip that would give a negative result.
Then I removed it from between my thighs and, after standing up, I placed it on the sink.
It's now... - I murmured, closing my eyes.
God may it be negative... God may it be negative... God may it be negative...
Although there was humor in my head, it was playing true or dare.
I kept repeating this to myself for the next five minutes, the longest of my life, because when my iPhone's timer beeped, I felt a chill in my stomach and an urge to run away without looking at the result.
"Now I'll open my eyes and see only one line," I said, still with my eyes closed.
So I groped around the sink with my eyes closed until I found the strip, and when I found it, I picked it up with both hands and took a deep breath.
And now...
In 3, 2, 1, and go! - I exclaimed, opening my eyes at the same time as the " go".
And when I saw the strip, all my hope vanished along with the breath I exhaled in disbelief.
No, it can't be...
I was looking at two pink lines, meaning the damn test came out positive.
Oh my God. - I said, pacing back and forth.
What am I going to do, i said in shock.
I'll tell Dean.
"No!" I exclaimed in fear.
What if he blames me? Or worse!
What if he leaves me alone with a baby in my womb?
"No, he wouldn't do that," I said thoughtfully.
"After all, he loves me."
But I'm not ready to have a child and I'm too young for that now!
I still want to enjoy my life, and I am not ready to be a mom.
"What if I have an abortion?" I thought
No, I wouldn't have the courage to kill an innocent life.
Even if this life is still just a tiny bean.
"My son is in here," I murmured, touching my still-flat belly.
"Or my daughter."
I smiled at the thought of having a little girl with blue eyes running around the house, shouting "Mommy" or "Daddy."
Would Dean feel the same way I do? After all, he's the father.
"He needs to know," I said, picking up my iPhone with trembling hands.
He'll be happy, I know it, or rather, I hope so...
I dialed Dean's number and pressed call, and to my surprise, he answered on the first ring.
"Hello?" he said, but I remained silent.
Nadia? - He insisted.
Hi. - I practically whispered.
"Hi, my love," he said.
"Are you okay?"
"I don't know," I replied honestly.
"What happened?" he asked, worried.
Well, I...
I am a coward.
"Tell me, Nadia!" he exclaimed.
"Are you hurt?"
"No," I sighed.
Did someone show up at your house?
No, not that either. - I sighed again.
"Then tell me what it was!" he exclaimed nervously.
Oh my gosh, now's the time to tell...
"I am pregnant"
I thought he would yell in anger or joy, curse me, or say he loves me, ask how it happened, or say he'd already thought about it, but no...
There was nothing but an unexpected, and let's say unbearable, silence.
Dean? - I called, but there was no answer.
"Are you there?" I insisted, but there was still no answer.
"Please, Dean," I insisted again, and the damn silence continued.
"Tell me something, damn it!" I exclaimed nervously.
"I'm coming over there," he finally said.
Wait... Is he coming this way?
But before I could question him, he hung up on me, leaving me with devastating anxiety.
After all, I was already afraid to hear his reaction over the phone.
Imagine seeing his reaction live and in color.
"Oh saint of pregnant women, protect me in this moment of distress," I said, closing my eyes.
Well, my son's father is an amazing man, not to mention a complete madman...