Chapter 30:
Chapter 30:
“It’s not a lie, but it isn’t the whole truth.”-Remington
Remington
I don’t know what came over me, deciding to tell Cassidy that I prefer to top. Maybe, it was because I have been fantasizing about his firm, muscular ass as I jerk myself off in the shower every day. Maybe it was the scent of him on me after the temporary marking or the way my cock hardens anytime I piss on him. I don’t know. Maybe it was all of that and some strange guilt that is eating at me for it all.
I try to pay attention as Dixon takes his Alpha Vows and I try to focus on the conversations during dinner. I dance with Melody and with Cassidy’s younger cousins. I’m surprised he doesn’t dance. I know at parties that is usually something he does.
Just before midnight we head out to a clearing in the woods and I try not to look at anyone below the shoulders as they all strip to shift and run.
Suddenly, pain shoots through me, radiating from my stomach outward. I feel hot and sweaty. Heat builds and another wave of pain wracks my body. I cry out with each new wave and Brooks and Cassidy flank me.
“Remi, get undressed!” Brooks orders. I look up at the former Alpha with pleading and questioning eyes. The pain is excruciating and my mind is boggled at this point.
“Cassidy, help your mate get undressed for his shift,” Brooks says to Cassidy and then looks at me in the eyes before continuing more gently. “You thought you didn’t have a wolf, but it looks like you were wrong. Cassidy and I will be right here for you. He’ll help ease you through it. The first one is always tough, but with your mate by your side it’ll be better.”
What the actual fuck?
I didn’t think I had a wolf side!
I’m vaguely aware of Cassidy urgently helping me take my clothing off. I am too hot and sweaty for a blush to be noticeable since my entire body is flushed bright red. As the moon rises higher, another wave of pain hits before Cassidy can grab the last pieces of clothing off of me and I hear a series of cracks while pain that is worse than anything I have ever experienced before slams into me, my skin itches and I fall over onto my side, beside me Cassidy smoothly shifts and his voice stays right there beside me.
“Come on, Remi. You can do this. Trust me, you will love it once you are through. I have your back,” Cassidy says and I feel his fur covered snout on my neck, nuzzling. “Remi, before my mind gets too feral, I don’t always remember everything after a shift, at least not in entirety. Most of us only remember it as if we were watching a movie at best and at worst, like we slept through the movie. Just stay with me.”
I turn even as my body sprouts fur and pain shoots through me once again and look into the intelligent eyes of the gigantic silvery grey Alpha wolf who I know is my best friend and then it’s through. I roll from my back to my front. I am shaky, but his big muzzle nudges me. I stand on shaky legs and take a breath. Everything smells stronger. It’s almost overwhelming, especially the sent of HIM, our scent. I feel my wolf-ish body react and his snout on my ass.
“Hey!” I yip.
“It’s normal, Remi. Werewolves sniff each other’s asses in wolf form. Do you want to know what you smell like?” He asks.
“Ummm…nope,” I reply cautiously.
“Come on! You smell good, and you smell like mine!” Cassidy says and now I know his feral wolf side is fully in control.
Cassidy would never say anything like that and I am sure his wolf only says that because he pissed on me earlier.
“Come, run with me, we can sniff things and mark trees and I have somewhere to show you!” Cassidy says, running off into the trees and glancing behind him as I follow, slowly at first then picking up speed as we run through the trees.
The forest blurs as we run faster and soon I feel my conscious mind slipping away and wolf instincts taking over.
I hope my wolf side behaves himself!
I wake up on a mossy bed with sun streaming down through the trees. I’m wrapped around Cassiddy’s naked body and…oh Fuck! I have no clothes to hide my erection.
As I look around, I notice a familiar outcropping in the distance…the swimming hole.
I get up and make my way to the clear pool of water. It’s icy cold, but refreshing and it allows me to handle my issue with a small semblance of privacy. As I cum, I hear a rustling behind me and the sunlight on Cassidy’s naked form and hard dick make my heart pause. Holy shit is he gorgeous!
“Is there room for me?” Cassidy asks with a laugh before diving in. “DO you remember anything from last night?”
I concentrate.
“I remember running. The forest, trees blurring, pissing on trees, you nuzzling me. The mossy bed on the outcropping over there…waking up…” I say, then I remember something I hope was just a dream.
Did our wolves fuck?
No, there is no way my wolf fucked Cassidy’s!
We could not have!
My mind reels.
“Um, Cassidy? DO we have clothes somewhere?” I ask, suddenly feeling lost and confused and like I need to escape.
“Yeah, let me get you some from one of the spots we keep some spares. They might be a bit big,” he replies and climbs out to get us some clothing and then comes back. I get dressed quickly and head directly back to the house and into the shower.
“Remi? Are you okay?” Cassidy asks through the bathroom door. “Is something wrong?”
“I…thank you for helping me through my shift, Cassidy,” I reply. “I know you are staying another day, but I think I am going to head home. I have an update I had been working on for one of the programs and I want to get back and finish it.”
It’s not a lie, but it isn’t the whole truth.
“At least have some breakfast before you hit the road,” Cassidy says.
I hear him sigh and then he whispers, but I hear it, “I wish you’d talk to me about what is bothering you.”
He sounds so deflated and it hurts me to hear him this way.