Chapter 29:

Chapter 29:
"I take a sharp breath in and realize what this would mean if we got together."-Cassidy

Cassidy

I pull Remi into my arms and breathe in his delightful scent. I look deep into his eyes, but before I can kiss him, a bright light and warmth hits me. 

I groan as I open my eyes and realize it was a dream, but the slender body of my best friend is indeed in my arms with my morning wood pressed against his firm ass and the pillows that were between us strewed across the bedroom floor, yet again. This has been the case every night since we switched to sleeping in the same bed. I carefully draw my hips back, so as not to disturb Remi, yet put some distance between my hard dick and his body.

Remi squirms and groans, “It happened again, didn’t it?”

“Yeah, sorry,” I sigh.

“I’ll admit something if you don’t read too much into it,” Remi says. “I’ve slept better while in your arms than I have in a long time.”

“Really? Because I sleep so much better with you in my arms!” I gasp in surprise.

I know Remi said not to read too much into it, but my heart is racing. There is a glimmer of hope on the horizon. Maybe, maybe…we could have something, but I can’t risk pushing my best friend away, so I need to calm myself down. 

“We should mark one another before the full moon run. We need to be certain the scent is strong and fresh. Tonight, at sunset Dixon will take his oath, at The Packhouse. There will be feasting at the grand hall and then dancing followed by the midnight run in the forest. I will meet you back here. I showed you the ways both through the woods and using my car,” I say to Remi, going over the plans for the hundredth time, like it will make me feel any better about shifting and leaving him to find his way alone, but the first run of a pack with a new Alpha is too important for me to skip it, especially since my twin brother is that Alpha.

“Your mother told me you could have been Alpha alongside Dixon, or even could have chosen to take it up on your own since you have an Alpha wolf and were first born. Why aren’t you doing that?” Remi asks, beside me.

I can’t exactly tell him the truth. Saying, “I don’t want to leave you,” or “I’m in love with you and could never ask you to give up everything in your life to be with me here, so I would rather suffer by your side as your friend,” really wouldn’t work in my favor. 

“You know me,” I laugh. “Running a pack isn’t my style, besides you wouldn’t be here to keep me out of trouble, would you?”

Remi laughs but there is something both sad and hollow in the sound of it. 

Shit! Did I say something wrong?

Remi gets out of bed and goes to the bathroom then gets dressed before turning to me at the door and saying, “I’ll shower after we mark one another.”

Fuck! My dick is so hard and just the thought of him showering and the marking makes it twitch painfully. I grab some lube and a hand towel. I’ve explored anal play with a few of the more kinky and adventures women I have been with, the first time was a surprise. I was fucking her and she suddenly stuffed a toy in my ass as I reached my peak. I came so hard that I decided it was worth doing again. So I have a secret toy I slip into my hole and turn to vibrate while I pump my cock in my fist as I shamefully imagine my best friend naked and pissing on me. I cum all over my abdomen and then clean myself up quickly and get ready for the day. 

We eat breakfast with most of the family and then Remi and I head into the forest to the swimming hole where we strip and piss on one another, no longer closing our eyes, but also not touching one another the way I wish we could. Remi won’t look directly at me during the act or when I coat him, but I look at him and how beautiful he looks as he coats me in warm piss and turns to hide his erection.

“You know, people always assume I’m a bottom because I’’m a petite guy,” Remi says as he splashes in the cool water. I’m vers, But I prefer to top. That is what freaked Greg out the most about you knowing. He figured you knew my preferences. Most people assume that you know and now you do.”

I take a sharp breath in and realize what this would mean if we got together. 

“That’s cool. I never thought it mattered. There is no shame no matter how you like dick. I’d still be here if you liked it either way,” I reply, but Remi’s response makes me feel like maybe that wasn;t the right thing to say.

His shoulders sag and he sighs, “I know. You always have my back, but I don’t tell you a lot of the personal stuff. Since we are pissing on each other and sharing a bed, I thought…maybe you would need to know some more.”

“Do you have any kinks?” I ask playfully as I splash water his way with my foot. 

“I think I discovered one or two recently,” Remi laughs. “I really haven’t explored kinks a lot though.”

“I have some and I’d enjoy exploring more with the right person,” I admit, shifting to hide my hardening shaft at the thought of exploring them with Remi. 

“Maybe you’ll meet her…you know, the right one,” Remi replies.

“Maybe I have met them and the right one doesn’t know it yet,” I sigh. 

“Do you need help telling her? That isn’t like you…or is it? You have never been serious about anyone before,” Remi replies. 

“Yeah…no, I don’t need help. I’ll figure it out,” I say quickly before realizing I am dry and pulling on my clothes. Remi hops behind the rocks and dries off with the towel he brought along and then gets dressed and we return to my family’s estate and take turns showering and getting ready for the swearing in ceremony.

My mind is filled with thoughts about this morning’s conversation all through the swearing in and dinner and even as everyone dances. We all file out to the big clearing in the forest behind The Packhouse shortly before midnight and people strip, leaving their clothes in trees or on the benches. 

Suddenly, Remi doubles over, clutching his stomach and cries out in pain. Sweat rolls down his face and he creams in agony a second time. 

My heart skips a beat.