Chapter 96

It's been a couple of days since Faithlyn and I have been with my parents. My mother is shocking me. She is paying attention to Faithlyn and treating her very well. She has been trying to get her to say grandma, but she hasn't even said her first word yet. It's hard to believe that Faithlyn is going to be eight months old. She's getting so big so fast. I haven't been feeling the greatest. I have been pretty jet lagged. It's probably from just not getting enough sleep is all. My father and my mother have been really helping me out with Faithlyn which I'm so thankful for.

I am so surprised at how genuine my mother can be. She has never been that way towards me, but I am thankful that she's acting that way towards Faithlyn. I never thought that I would even want to build any kind of relationship with my mother. What made her change? I have no idea, and I'm not sure if I even care. I really like the person she is right now, and I really hope that she stays this person. I see her smiling more, and she just looks so happy. We haven't talked, which I know we should, but I don't want to spoil anything that has been happening. I don't want to break this happiness that we are all feeling by filling it with drama.

Anyways, why can't I just put all the bad things that happened behind me and move forward? I just want to forget about it all. I am so sick of the betrayal and heartbreak. I don't want to bring it up anymore. I don't want to talk about it, and I just want to let it go. I want to move forward instead of moving backwards. I just wish for everybody to be happy. Life is too short, so why not start living and be happy instead of just talking about the past?

As I am getting dressed to go downstairs, my phone rings. I look to see that its Derek calling. I'm not sure if I should answer it. I want to talk to him, but I don't know what to say. I just answer it anyway.

“Hello.”

“Amelia, I don't want to bother you, but I just wanted to call to see how Faithlyn is doing and you of course?”

“Faithlyn is doing great actually her and my mother really got to bond.”

“That's great that they got to build a relationship together finally.”

“Yes, it is. She really surprised me these past couple days.”

“How are you Amelia? Are you okay?”

“I've been doing ok I'm a little jet-lagged and not feeling well, but my parents have been helping me with Faithlyn.”

“Alright Amelia, I don't want to bother you too much. I will let you go, but if you need anything just call me. I love you.”

Hearing him say those three words made me so happy. I knew that he loved me. He was just being foolish. I want to tell him that I love him too, but I just don't know if I should. If I'm being honest with myself, I do love him. The games just need to stop. I'm just going to say it.

“Derek, I love you too. I know that we have been through a lot, but it doesn't change how I feel about you.”

It sounds like sobs on the other side of the phone. Oh my god, is he crying? I just want to put my arm around him. “Derek, I don't want us to be apart any longer. Why don't you get the next flight to Alaska?”

“Amelia, you have no idea how much relief I feel at this moment because you forgive me. I don't deserve you, but I am so thankful that I have you. I will be on the next flight down to see you soon, love you.”

I know that I shouldn't let him off so easily and that I should make him pay for what he did. I just don't want to live in the past anymore. I just want to move forward with my life. We have already wasted so much time, so I don't want to waste anymore. I finished getting dressed, and as I walked down the stairs, I see my dad and Faithlyn playing together they are so cute together.

“I just want to let you guys know that Derek is coming to Alaska. He called, and I told him I wanted him to come.”

“Amelia, do you really think that is such a good idea after everything he has done to you?”

“Dad, I know he is not perfect, but who is? I want to move forward with him because I love him.”

“If that is what you truly want then I will respect that decision. It is your decision to make not mine, even though I am very upset with him.”

“I know that dad, but I am just tired of living in the past. I just want to move forward, and I don't want to bring up old things that are already done. You can't change what he did, but he can make it up to me.”

“Is he coming here, or is he going to stay at a hotel?”

“I don't know. I didn't ask, but maybe we all could just stay here and enjoy some time together. Maybe then we could all get to know each other a little better.”

“If that's what you want Amelia, then fine he can stay, and I will try to contain myself.”

I know that my father is not happy with me wanting to be with him, but he's right. It is not his choice to make. It is mine. I know that he will respect my decision which I really appreciated. Even if he thinks I am making the wrong choice, I know that he will support me no matter what. Derek is going to have to make it up to him as well. At the moment, he really does not think very highly of him, but I know my dad will be civil with him and not start a fight.

“Dad, I know that Derek is not perfect, but no one really is. We all have made mistakes. It's what we do to fix them that matter.”

“Ok Amelia, I will do my best to respect him.”

“Thank you, daddy.” I kiss his cheek and give him a hug. I'm thankful that he is going to respect my decision.

I know it's probably hard for him to understand how I could be so forgiving of Derek so quickly. I like that he's allowing me to make my own decision and not forcing his decision upon me. I miss Derek and the way that things used to be. That is what I'm looking forward to the most is things going back to normal.

My mother walks over to me and says, “I understand your decision with Derek and wanting your family to be together. I am sorry for everything Amelia. It's partially my fault for the way he treated you.”

“It's fine mother. I don't want to fight anymore. I just want everyone to get along.”

I'm surprised by her actions when she walks over, hugs me, and says “I do love you Amelia.” 

I am also shocked by her words. I haven't heard her say that in I don't even know how long. Maybe she is changing to be a better person. I really hope so anyway. I am not so sure why she had a change of heart and is acting the way she is. I just hope that she's acting sincerely and not pretending.

I am waiting for the time to pass by, but doesn't seem like it's going fast enough. I am becoming impatient wanting to see Derek. I want to feel his hands on my body. It has been so long since I had his gentle touch, and I miss it. I miss the pleasure that he makes my body feel, and I'm excited for what is about to come.