Chapter 32 Chapter 32
Audrey
I had made a terrible mistake.
Or had I?
I just couldn’t bring myself to believe I had or that Gabriel would really hurt me.
Although the angry red finger marks around my throat said otherwise.
He had strangled me, literally tried to throttle the life out of me and the evidence was staring me in the face every time I passed a mirror.
So I covered them.
Between that and the storm raging outside the house felt like a maousleum. A dead thing that was hanging around my throat.
I had given up my friends, my dignity and my sanity for a man that had just tried to kill me and the bad thing about it was I would do it again in a heart beat.
I knew Gabriel. Maybe not the Gabriel that had shown himself this morning but I did know him because I had read the diaries.
His inner most thoughts.
That was the Gabriel I had feelings for. Not the monster with the crazy eyes.
I didn’t even know what had happened. What had made him flip like that? He could have killed me a hundred times over but-
“Audrey?” From the shadows of my bedroom, his voice whispered.
Or maybe it wasn’t his voice at all. Maybe this was all in my imagination.
I didn’t turn. Instead I headed towards the stairs.
“Audrey please.” He whispered again.
Coming to a stop I hunched my shoulders. “What do you want Gabriel?”
Maybe the better question would be how did he get in my room without me seeing or hearing him but I’d given up long ago trying to work out how or why Gabriel did anything.
“I came-“ his voice shook. “I don’t know what the word is. I wanted to talk to you about- what happened.”
The air behind me moved and my shoulders went up further.
“Apologise.” I said softly. “You came to apologise.” Hand trembling I reached for the banister.
At that moment the lights went out , a crash of thunder shook the roof, and I gave a startled cry.
“Yes.” Gabriel’s voice came from right behind me. So close i was surprised that I couldn’t feel this breath on the back of my neck.
“Yes, that's the word. Apologise. I am sorry for hurting you-“
“I don’t forgive you.” The words left my mouth before I could stop them
I heard his sharp intake of breath but I ignored it. Instead I took a step away from him, and then another until I was stumbling down the stairs in the dark.
“But I said-“ Gabriel’s footsteps were loud behind me. He wasn’t even trying to be quiet. But then why should he. We had moved so past the stalking. What we were doing now was different and so much more toxic.
“I heard what you said.” I snapped back. “And I don’t accept it. You can take your sorry and shove it so far up your ass,” my foot slipped and I fell backwards into his arms with a scream. “Let go of me.” I hissed. “I would like you to leave.”
My voice came out strong, not a single wobble to it.
Go me!
“You know I can’t do that.” This time his breath did tickle across the back of my neck. “I lost control back there and I’m sorry.”
“You didn’t lose control.” I shivered with the need to melt against him.
How crazy was that? Even after what he had done I still wanted to be close to him.
In his diaries he called me the drug that got him through the worst times of his life. And that’s how he felt to me as well. A drug. Only instead of making me better he was destroying me.
“You strangled me. You tried to kill me.”
“I would never,” his voice faltered. It was almost like he didn’t believe his own words.
Which made two of us.
“I’m sorry.” He said again. “Sometimes I get too lost in my own head and-“
“They are excuses Gabriel. Just excuses. What possible reason.” I stressed the word. “Could you have for doing that to me. You say you care , that you can’t live without me,”
He cut me off. “All of that is true. I can’t. I just can’t live without who I am inside either. Earlier I let the mask slip because, well because you want the mask to slip.”
I stiffened in his arms. “All of that because I wanted to see your face?”
“You can’t see what kind of monst-“
I wrangled myself out of his arms and continued to move down the stairs. This time I didn’t slip.
“I’ve already seen what kind of monster you are Gabriel. And I would like you to leave. Now.” In the darkness I pointed to the door.
“No.” His voice was flat.
“I’m not joking Gabriel. I want you gone. What you did-“ I shook my head, loose tendrils of hair whipping across my face. “It’s unforgivable. I don’t want you heat and I don’t want to see you again. And-“
“Run.” He cut me off.
Turning sharply I watched him take the last step down. The mask on place , the black hoodie up around his dark hair. The equally dark jeans.
He was like a wraith.
Or maybe death.
I took a stumbling step backwards. “What?” My voice did shake this time.
“Run.” He said again. “That’s the only way you are ever going to get away from me Audrey. Yoh will have to run so far and so fast that I have to let you go, because.” He paused. “If I catch you I am going to make you keep your promise never to leave me.”
He meant it. One look into his deep blue eyes and I knew he meant every single word of it.
Spinning on my heel, I bolted towards the front door and for the second time in a day launched myself into the rain.
When I had run from his house the light had been shining but there was none of that now. The world around me was dark. A perfect mixture of dark grey and black.
He chuckled, and then the sound of his booted feet on the wet grass was the loudest thing I’d ever heard.
It drowned out the heavy sound of my breathing. And the crash of thunder over head.
“Not,” an arm caught me around the waist and I went tumbling forward into the mud. Barely catching myself before smashing my face into the ground.
“Fast enough.” He chuckled again.
I kicked out with my feet , and that just made him laugh harder. Catching me by the ankle he pulled me towards him.
“You’re mine Audrey.”
“Get off of -“ he flipped me with so much force that the air was knocked out of my lungs.
Again I was left staring up into his beautiful eyes and knowing that he could end my life.
“You.” The bottom of his mask was ripped upwards and his lips came crashing down. Smothering my mouth with his, his tongue plunged into my mouth as the rain poured down on us.
“Are mine.” Tugging at my bottom lip with his teeth I could suddenly taste blood in my mouth.
“I am not-“ a moan escaped my lips. Even as bloody trickled down. “Yours.”
“No?” His head tilted to the side, the corners of his mouth curved upwards.
A smile, he was smiling at me. Like some demented-
His fingers brushed against the heavy seam of my soaked jeans again and again ,I moaned.
“Then tell me.” Over and over again his mouth crashed down. “You don’t want me even now. Tell me that you don’t -“
My button popped. Flying off to land somewhere on the lawn unseen.
“Please don’t do this.” I cried but it was no use. The second my jeans were undone his hand was inside. Pulling my panties tight against my aching flesh.
“Do this?” Two fingers speared me. Forcing my back to arch off the wet muddy grass.
“Gabriel.” I couldn’t help it, I grabbed at his hand. Not to pull it away but to hold it closer. “Please.” Tears swam down my face or maybe it was the rain. It was hard to tell.
“This is what we are Audrey.” He worked his fingers in and out of me. “I thought I wanted softness with you. But I don’t. I need this. I need your-“
Again I was flipped only this time instead of forcing me downward. He drew me upward, ripping my jeans and panties down to my knees in one violent movement.
“No, not like this.”
“This is the only way for us.” He pressed himself against my ass. His hand came around to touch my face.
Gabriel smoothed his fingers across my cheeks and down over my lips and then that hand was brushing against my core.
Smearing tears and blood across me, over and over again.
“Tell me-“
I was telling him I didn’t want it. I was sure I was.
He slammed home. Using my tears and blood as lube to ease his way and all thoughts of telling him anything disappeared.
He ploughed into me, harder and rougher than he had ever done before. Forcing my knees and hands to slide through the mud. I would have fallen again if his hands hadn’t gripped my hips and forced me back to meet him stroke by stoke.
I cried out. Blinking rain water out of my eyes.
“You feel so good Audrey.” He curled himself over my back, his hips slamming into me with unrelenting force. “This is what we both need. It’s why this feels right and laying together feels-“ he groaned. A low guttural sound in the back of his throat and circled his hips.
I screamed with a mixture of pleasure and pain and the overwhelming realisation that he was right.
We were never going to be a normal couple and I had been stupid to try and act like we were.
There was nothing normal about Gabriel King.
My fingers dug into the mud, raking it up.
“You always have to run from me.” He ground out. “Always.” He slammed forward.
But I didn’t want to run away from him. I’d promised him I wouldn’t.
“I’ll always chase you. If it’s safe I’ll come after you and if it’s not-“ he hissed like he was in pain and something fell with a wet plop in front of me.
The sightless eyes of his mask stared up at me. Unblinking. No face behind it because Gabriel was behind me.
He had taken off his mask.
“Gabriel.” I whispered his name.
In answer he pushed his lips against my shoulder and I could feel his face, not just his mouth.
He had taken off his mask.
“Always run from me,” he groaned again. “Because I’ll always chase you. I’ll always catch you. If it’s safe.” He sucked in a breath and his thrusts became shallow. “I’ll always come -“
He came with a grunt. Spilling his hot seed inside of me. And I could feel it. It seemed to burn me from the inside out.
“I love you Audrey.” Against his lips brushed my shoulder.
He fell against my back, his breath hot against my wet skin.
“I’m sorry.” He whispered.
“It’s -“ the water rushing from the heavens was flooding my face.
“I didn’t let you cum. I took my own-“
“It’s ok.” I said again more firmly. “But I need to get out of this rain before it drowns me and I’m covered in mud.”
He slipped from me, and my body protested because I liked him inside of me. No, I loved him inside of me.
“I’ll carry you back to the house, but I can’t stay.” His voice shook. “It’s not safe for anyone for me to stay tonight.”
Sighing, I nodded. “Here.” My fingers reached for the mask. He had taken it off but I didn’t want to turn around until he had it back on.
“Don’t.” He caught my wrist, swinging me up into his arms. “I don’t need it right now.”
The hood was pulled low over his face so all I could see was a shadowy outline but somehow that was enough.
Gabriel had taken his mask off for me. He was letting me in.
“Gabriel.” My fingers itched to reach j to the darkness of the hood and smooth my fingers across his face.
“Don’t Audrey.” He shook his head and my hand fell back. “Ok.” I closed my eyes. “Is this better?”
I could almost imagine his smile. “Yes you’re learning my love. And don’t worry one day, one day soon I will show you my face. I just hope-“
“I won’t run away.” I said flatly. “Not in the way you think. The only way I’ll run is when you need me too. When you want me to.” I peeked out from beneath my rain soaked lashes. “When I want to be caught.”