Chapter 44

Johana Morin POV

They say, time flies so fast when you're happy. But why does it still fly so fast even if I'm not happy? Maybe it just flies so fast because we want it so bad to slow down... we want to control it... even if we can't.

I admit, I still don't want Bea to leave. I can't afford not being with her for two years. I am really used to being with her everyday. It is just so hard to be away from someone who's always right beside you. This feeling sucks.

But I am quite confident that Bea and I can manage long-distance relationship because Bea would always assure me about that. She even told me that we will prove to many people that distance is not a hindrance in relationships. That it does not matter whether you're miles away from the one you love for as long as you know how to love and trust one another... it will surely work.

Days have passed so fast. Bea will be leaving tomorrow. That is why we made sure that we will enjoy this remaining day before she leaves. We thought of doing road trips together today, we planned on going to our secret place in Tagaytay, have lunch, and just spend the rest of the day with each other doing the things we love.

And now that we're here in Tagaytay, we decided to have our lunch.

"Bei, let's take picture first! I really love the view!" I said because the view is so pleasing to the eyes.

"Let's eat first baby. We can do that later." She said while we're heading inside the restaurant.

"But we might forget about it later." I said.

She just sighed and nodded. "Alright, my baby Jo." She said and we went to the beautiful view near the restaurant and took pictures together.

"Can I see?"

She laughed and give me her phone. "You look cute in this photo, baby." She said.

"I know." I said confidently.

"It makes me fall for you even more."

I laughed at her. "You're just hungry, Bea."

We ordered food for the two of us and no one's talking. We're just enjoying the food. I glanced at Bea and she's busy eating. I don't want to ruin this moment but I just feel like crying again because I will surely miss having dates like this with her. But I just shake my head and focused on my food.

I know how much Bea's trying to give me a happy day before she leaves. There's no room for sadness today.

So after we ate our lunch, we just do road trips again around Tagaytay. Then we went to our secret place. It's been some time since we last went here and to our surprise, there are many tourists here as well, enjoying the nice view in this overlooking.

We both just sat on the bench. Bea's arm is wrapped around my waist and I'm just resting my head on her shoulder.

"I love you, Jo." I hear her whispered.

I smiled even if she can't see my face. "I love you more, Bea. And I will really miss you. Don't find someone else there okay? Ria told me she'll beat you up if you start breaking my heart!"

She laughed. "She really said that to you? Don't worry, Jo. I won't ever cheat on you. Plus, why would I do that if you're the only woman I see? If you're the only one I want to be with for the rest of my life?"

I looked at her. "Really?" I asked.

She nodded. "Yep. I just love you so much... in fact, I'm planning to marry you as soon as I'm back."

My eyes widened and stared at her. "Bea! Are you serious about that? You should not make marriage as a joke."

She frowned. "And who told you I was joking?"

"But... you have never told me about that thing before. It's the first time I hear you talk about marriage and I was just kind of surprise."

She looked at me intently. "Jo, even if I don't tell you often about it. I always think of marrying you someday. I really do. That's why I will work very hard for it to happen..."

"Aww... Thank you, Bea. You just made my heart melt." I said and smiled at her.

She held my hand... "I promise to love you always and forever my baby."

**

It's already 6 PM and Bea wanted us to have our dinner here in Tagaytay before we go home. She told me that her friend prepared a dinner date for us.

And now... it is slowly sinking in my mind that there are only few hours left before she leaves and there is no turning back. I feel something heavy in my chest... I find it hard to breathe. Two years may be short for other people but for us... it's quite long and it's really challenging.

After some moments, we went to a private dining room and I saw a candle-light dinner waiting for us. I guess this is what Bea's talking about awhile ago.

Bea smiled at me. "My friend Tina organized everything. Did you like it?"

I pout... "Did you ask her to prepare this?" She nodded and I hugged her instantly.

"Thank you... Thank you so much."

She looked at me and kissed my forehead. "Anything for you."

We decided to eat our dinner together while talking about random stuff. Then Bea would just throw random jokes that will make us laugh... until we finished eating.

I looked at Bea when she stood up and walk towards me.

"What?" I asked while laughing at her because she seems so tensed.

"Can... we dance?" She asked while scratching her head.

I laughed so hard at her. "What the heck, Beatriz? That's it? I know you can do better than that. Try asking me again."

She laughed. "Okay, this time I'll make it more romantic."

I just stared at her. She took a deep breath and stared at me as well. "Would you like to dance with me? Please?" She asked and offered her shaky hand.

"Oh gosh, Bea! You're so funny! Why is your hand even shaking? I'm your girlfriend! Stop being nervous." I said while laughing.

"It's because I don't know how to dance, Jo! You know I only dance when I'm drunk." She said while scratching her nape.

I pinched her nose. "Stop being so cute, Bub."

She just smiled at me. "So, what now, Bea? How can we dance if there's no music?" I asked.

"Oh shoot! You're right... I was not prepared for that but I think I can sing while we're dancing."

I smiled with what she said. "I would love that."

I placed my hands on her shoulders while she's holding my waist. We swayed slowly as she starts to sing...

"You're the one that never lets me sleep

To my mind, down to my soul you touch my lips

You're the one that I can't wait to see

With you here by my side I'm in ecstasy..."

I just keep on staring at her while she's singing... her voice is my remedy. I would never get tired of listening to it. I know I should feel happy, I know I should enjoy this moment but how can I do it if I'm hurting inside? I really don't want to be away from her. I miss her even if she's still with me... what more if she left?

Bea was so close to singing the chorus part of the song when I hear her voice cracked... and the tears that she's been holding back are all falling down right now. She was not able to control it... and so am I.

Bea hugged me instantly... so tight and full of love. She's hugging me as if this will be the last time. But I'm sure it's not... after two years, we will be together again.

I know that we're both trying our best to be happy but we just can't. It hurts a lot.

"I'll miss you, Jo." She said while crying and hugged me even tighter.

"Please don't stay sad when I leave, okay? Don't let that loneliness ruin your day. Make sure you'll rest after training, make sure to take care of yourself while I'm away, okay? I love you, Johana. I love you so much... I'll be back soon." She said and kissed my forehead.

"I love you more, Beatriz. Take care of yourself too, okay? Be responsible of your things because I'm not there to fix it for you. Just remember that I will always wait for you, whatever happens." I said and kissed her lips.

I hope nothing changes after years of not being with her... I hope nothing changes with the way she kisses me, with the way she smiles at me, and with the way she looks at me... I hope it will still feel the same as today.

After our dinner date, we decided to go home and take a rest since she's leaving tomorrow.

But even if we're both tired, we both find it hard to sleep... so we just decided to tell random stories while cuddling with each other...

We ended the night feeling each other's warmth... for the last time before she leaves.

**

Location: Airport

And this is it. It's final. She's leaving.

I feel sad but Bea does not want me to cry in front of her today. So I'm doing my best to hold back my tears and I don't want it to be hard for her that's why I am doing this.

"You ready? Is everything settled?" I asked before she went inside the airport.

"Yep baby. Thanks for helping me. I really appreciate it." She said.

"Alright. So... see you soon?" I said and smiled at her.

She smiled at me too. "See you soon, my Johana."

I hugged her so tight. "I love you. Message me when you get there."

She nodded. "I love you, too. I'll miss you baby."

"Aren't you gonna go inside?" I asked.

"I will but you forgot something." She said.

"What?"

"Kiss."

I laughed at her. "Alright." I kissed her forehead down to her lips.

She cupped my face after that... "I'll be back soon. Take care of yourself, okay?" She said and kissed my forehead.

And now, it's time for her to go in.

"Good bye, Bea."

"See you again soon, my Johana." She said and waved at me as she walks to the entrance of the airport.

I bit my lower lip as my eyes follow her way... she glanced back on me and waved her hand again so I waved back.

Until I no longer see her...

And that's when my tears began to fall...

I turned around and was surprised to see Jia and Ella. They hugged me instantly.

"She already left..." I whispered while crying so hard.

"Too bad, we're late." Ella said as she rubs my back... "Shh... stop crying, Jo. Bea would not want to see you like that."

"I can't help it. I missed her already..."

"Don't worry, Jo. We're here for you..." They both said.

I know it hurts so bad right now... but I will surely be used to it and I am just so grateful to have friends like them... who's willing to be with me through ups and downs of my life.

I will wait for you, Bea. I promise....