Chapter 65 - Insulting her self respect

Eva POV:

I woke up the next day morning and looked at Jason. He slept peacefully. I arranged everything for him and left to the kitchen. By the time I came to his room, he had woke up and getting ready. I kept the coffee cup on the table and hugged him from the back.

"I love you, Jason!" I said, thinking that he forgave me.

He broke the hug and looked at me. Then he opened his wallet and took a few currency notes from it. He kept that in my hand.

"What?" I asked as I didn't understand what's up in his mind.

"Payment for spending a night with me," Jason said.

I didn't understand anything immediately. But when I processed those words through my mind and repeated, again and again, I realised what Jason meant.

"What do you mean, Jason?" I asked.

"That's what you deserve. Just five hundred rupees per night. You are just a call girl in my opinion. Don't worry, even after leaving you, surely I will call you whenever I want you," he said, breaking me completely.

It is better if I die at that moment itself. I slapped Jason.

"You are such a jerk who doesn't know anything about relationships. How could I expect love and respect from a person like you? Now I am telling you, Mr Jason, you don't deserve me at all. I hate myself for loving a person like you," I shouted at him sobbing.

He caught my hairs tightly.

"How dare you to slap me? I will kill you. I didn't say anything wrong. When you had given a lip kiss to Rio to save his life, why can't you spend a night with me to save me from the stress even after leaving you," he said pulling my hair.

"Leave me, Jason. I didn't want to do anything for which I need to regret later. You already exceeded all your limits," I said seriously.

I didn't know why but now my tears stopped. I took a decision. I am not going to tolerate his torture anymore. I respect him, but it doesn't mean I will be quiet whatever he does.

"Show me what will you do," Jason said.

"Jason, leave me!"

He threw me on the bed. I moved back.

"I will show you what I can do," he said coming towards me. He tried to come top of me. I pushed him away and got out from there. I tried to escape, but he held my hand and pinned me to the wall. He pressed himself on me. I was struck between the wall and him. My breath hardened. I tried to push him, but I am unable to do so because of lack of energy as I had exhausted due to lack of breath.

"Viha...aan, I ...am...out...of...breathe," I said slowly.

He moved away and turned back. I took deep breathe thrice and sat on the bed. He threw few papers on me.

"Sign these papers, Eva or I will kill you."

He asked me to sign on the divorce papers.

"I will never sign those papers even if you kill me," I said.

"Really? What if I do something which will make you regret refusing to sign the divorce?" he asked with a smirk.

He again came near to me and sat beside me keeping his face near to me. I closed my eyes tightly. He pulled me towards him. He started moving his fingers on my forehead, cheeks and lips. Tears rolled in my eyes.

"Are you going to force me again? Maybe you are habituated to it. But it's not love, Jason," I said closing my eyes and lay on the bed.

"I love you, but you degraded my love and my character. After fulfilling your wish, kill me. I can't live anymore, "I said while tears were flowing from my closed eyes continuously.

"Sign these papers before I return from the office. I will never interfere in your life anymore. Otherwise, I will kill you," he said, and I heard the sound of closing the room door.

I opened my eyes. Jason is nowhere. I sat on the bed hugging my knees and crying hard. Why did this happen to me? I never committed any mistake in my life until now. I was so happy in his love. But suddenly everything got changed. What should I do now?

Should I silently bear his torture as I love him? But to what extent? He had already broken me completely. I thought he is my husband and gave myself to him even after hurting me so much. But in return, he gave a title of call girl to me. My heart was unable to leave him even now. Why? I was so confused about the feelings of my heart. For his words and acts, I must hate him. But why couldn't I hate him? Why do I love him? Why am I hesitating to sign those divorce and leave him? Why am I behaving like a fool?

God, please give me the strength to handle him. Please, give me my courage back. Why am I becoming so weak in his case? First time I was feeling lame. Why am I stuck in such a relationship where I have no value? Why am I still loving a person who was not treating me at least as a human?

I closed my eyes remembering the sweet moments we had shared together. All the moments such as his love, care, support, understanding and the way he apologised to me in the past appeared before my eyes. Why did he behave this way all of a sudden?

I took a decision. I should leave before Jason returns from the office. Yes, if he returns home, he will force me to sign the divorce. I couldn't save myself from him as I couldn't fight with him. Because still, my heart feels for him. I will leave him. I will go far from him. But I won't divorce him. If he planned to give my place to anyone, I wouldn't allow him to do so. If we don't take divorce, one or the other day, we can get united again. But divorcing gives him the freedom to do anything.