CHAPTER 39

"Mister, let's buy this!"

Zam pulled Zion's hand as Ziex and Zaile followed them to a new shop. I knew I had a bad feeling about taking them to the mall. They have been everywhere, pointing everything they've seen and Zion buying everything they want.

I know it's his way of paying back after all those years that he haven't been with them but... Gosh! He even called three guards just to carry all the papers bags and because he doesn't want me to carry those stuffs.

"Wow! I want this car! It's huge."

I look at the car that Ziex was pointing and my eyes almost drop out of my lid. Hundred dollars!? That's already too much! And what kind of shop that would sell that expensive kind of toys!?

I glance at Zion, expecting him to say no to the kid but seeing him smile joyfully, I was about to interfere and stopped him first but he already agreed.

"Sure, we'll buy everything you want." He answered and all I could do was look at the kids as they jump in too much joy. "Hey, it's fine." Zion came to my direction and his arm instantly circled through my waist.

I glared at him for some seconds and followed them as they enter the shop. They've had too much already, we can buy a whole year supply of food with that money he used to buy all this.

They finished shopping for everything, and I mean it when I say everything. The time has passed by and the triplets decided to eat outside. I was sulking and pouting because I want to cook for them for dinner.

"You still look pretty even when sulking." I almost jolted in surprise when Zion carefully hugged me from the back. I can feel my whole face burning when I felt his hot breath touching my cheeks. The kids are busy choosing what food they want at the counter. "What do you want to eat, hmm? And you haven't buy anything for yourself, Allison. You can take anything you want, just tell me." He continued to hug me like that and I can sometimes feel some stares.

I keep myself compose and just thought that this might be the last time I'll feel his warmth on mine. Sooner or later he would probably go home to his family and I'm sure Zion is good enough not to cheat on his wife. And I don't want to be a mistress either.

"I don't need to buy for my own, Zion. You already bought a lot for the kids." I let out a sigh and slightly lean my back to his chest. He tightened his hug on my waist.

"It's just money, Allison. I can work triple times just to have more for our kids.. and for you."

"Mommy, this!"

I immediately pulled Zion's arm from my waist and walk towards the kids to distance myself from him. It's not a normal thing to do since we're not best friend's anymore.

They chose more expensive food and I almost jump of happiness when Zion told them that we should eat them at home. Already on our way to our house, the kids finally jump in glory, taking the bags of toys, books and clothes inside so they can open it instantly.

We didn't stop them and I went to the kitchen to prepare the food we bought. I also cooked a little since I know I'll be the only one to eat them. I felt sour at the thought that the Triplets won't eat the food I cooked.

"Let's eat first," they were busy opening all the bags that they didn't even hear my calls. "Babies..." I gave them a warning in my voice but they just won't listen.

I gave up that easy because I don't want to shout at them for my selfish reasons. Yes, it's too selfish for me that I don't want to share them with anyone. I was with them since the first day they were born but now I suddenly felt rejected. What if when I tell that Zion is their real father?

I sat on the dining table and ate by myself while letting my tears fall one by one. I'll wipe them quickly but another batch would escape again.

"Mommy, are you eating already?" Zaile's voice echoed through the whole room so I forced myself to stop crying as I eat. I also stood up so they won't see my reddish eyes and left them there so I can calm myself inside the room.

I stayed there and felt bad for treating them like that. They're just kids for heaven's sake, Allison!

I didn't know that I already fell asleep with heavy heart. I just woke up when I felt little fingers on my face, wiggling and caressing, causing me to wake up. My eyes warmed up when I saw this three little cuties.

All of them were sleeping soundly and peacefully, changed in their pajamas and the toys were arranged at the corner of the room. I then try to look for Zion if he was also sleeping with us but he wasn't there. We only have one room so I think he went home.

"He could've at least told me."

I whispered to myself and carefully stood up, I kissed them all on the cheeks and went out, only to be surprised again when Zion came up to my view. He was topless again, sleeping soundly at the small couch looking so uncomfortable.

He was huge and tall so he doesn't fit. His face also looks so tired. I bit my lower lip, trying to convey if I should wake him up and let him sleep at our room or just let him stay there and stared at his handsome face while he sleep?

"Why did you left us earlier?" I jolted in surprise when he suddenly start talking. His eyes were still close but his lips were moving as he talks. "The kids were worried." That's when he finally opened his eyes. He sat down and I saw how his muscles stretched, making him much hotter than he already was. "What's wrong, hmm?" I can listen to his soft and husky voice all day.

My plan was to not give him any replies but he already pulled my wrist and made me sit on his lap, my back was on him so I felt his chin resting gently at my shoulder.

"Tell me, Allison. What is it that's been bothering you?" I closed my eyes and felt his warm hands gently and softly caressing my arms to my waist.

"Nothing," my voice squeak. How can I tell him that I'm jealous because none of them wants to eat the food I cooked? "I'm just overreacting." I stated with pure honesty and sat sideways on his lap.

The side of my head was resting on his shoulder, my lips are almost touching his neck and my arms instantly wrap around his naked body. It's been too long since we have been this intimate and I missed it.

"Tell me..." He urged me to talk and that was the last line of my thin patience. I was always that person who needs to let go of my negative thoughts if I don't want to overthink. I always needed someone I can tell everything I felt.

"I'm just a little jealous." I let out a sigh and I saw how his face changes into being serious. "You always gave them what they want to the point that no one even want to eat the food I make. They don't listen to me anymore and they just want to be with you. What if your wife and children don't like them–"

"Allison..." He cuts me off and his voice sounds like he was already losing his patience towards me. I saw how his face crumple as if the thought of what I told him was the most ridiculous thing he can do. "Listen, I already knew that you're pregnant when run away. I am not mad or angry at what you did. In fact, I tried to look for you everywhere and did my best to take care of myself. Instead of going to jail I entered a rehab, I also took care of your company while running mine to make sure that you still have something when you return. I did all of those things thinking of you and our children, Allison. Do you really think I'll still have time to find another woman and build another family when I already have you and our kids?"

I don't know what to say when he confessed that he don't have any family. It made me feel relieved. I already expected for him to do that with regards my business, but what I'm actually amazed was how he wasn't able to find us in this place. "How come you don't know that we're here?" It would actually be too easy for him especially with that much money. He has enough to connection to find us.

"Honestly, I don't know too. I hired the best agent I can get. Evelyn Roswell has been my private contact since then and she never once failed."

My eyes widened and I literally caught his eyes woth shock. He looks so confused at how I reacted.

"Evelyn Roswell was also the one who helped me hide from you!" I exclaimed as I squinted my eyes at him. What does it mean? Why did Evelyn did it?

"Seriously!? Fuck it! I payed her millions to find you and all this time, she was hiding me from you!? And why did you know her?" It feels like this was the first time he burst out after all those years of searching for me. He used both of his palms to hide the anger in his eyes.

"She always give me a whole bag of money every month though. Maybe that was your money she was giving to us." I concluded. We have been friends but surely she won't take responsible of our own problems and sudden plans.

We stared into each others eyes, he shook his head while I forced not to smile. I'm sure Evelyn has a good reason for her to do it. At least now we know something about what happened.

We stayed like that for a couple of minutes and I don't know why I felt so hot with his body pressing against mine. His hand wander from my waist to my thigh, squeezing it gently. Then there I was, unknowingly brushing my lips on the side of his neck until I found myself sitting in front of him.

My legs rested at the side of his legs. My bottoms slightly teasing and feeling his bulge as soothe of electricity sent through my whole body. It feel so familiar yet new. I've never done it since our last.

His eyes finally met mine and without a split seconds. His lips touched mine and I don't have to think twice, and kissed him with the same ferocity. Lapping, sucking and nibbling my lower lip, I moan inside his lips and grind my hips more to his boner.

I wanted to go further but was disappointed when he stopped me. I still followed his lips but he's already unmoving.

"I want to start all over again, Allison. Please, I will anything you want me to do. I will do everything that you ask, just please... give me a second chance."

My eyes instantly close as I feel his voice. I was also conveying my feelings for him. I would love to give the Triplets the complete family they deserve, but I'm not sure if I have the same feeling as I have for Zion.

All I ever know was we were just a thing who both needs sexual desire. We were never much intimate to build a relationship. We only have pure friendship.

"I don't know, Zion... I'm not ready for that."

Yet.