Chapter 24

Janine’s heart couldn’t stop beating really loud upon knowing that Johann is back in town. He’s back and he’s going to see her later.

She walked back the office with her mind all over the place.

Guilt.

Pain.

Sadness.

She wanted him back, sure. But she didn’t expect that he’s back this early. So, that explains why Johann hasn’t contacted her for two days already.

“Are you okay?” Yasmin asked her as she sat on her desk.

Yasmin’s voice was a bit loud so everyone looked their way. Even Porter who’s talking to Jonas about a deal glanced at her.

Janine looked at Yasmin and nodded. “Uh? Yes. I’m fine.” She lied but Yasmin could see through her. She knows that she’s lying.

“Did your boyfriend tell you something sad?” She asked.

“Did he hurt you, Manager Kwon? I’ll beat him to death if he comes back! Don’t worry!” Hector, one of the male employees, tried to comfort her but then he made them all laugh at him.

Janine looked back but she accidentally looked at Porter and she was stoned. That’s where the guilt was coming from. Porter Kim.

He’s too vocal about his feelings to the point that Janine already feels obliged to give him back. He’s too vocal and transparent and Janine couldn’t help but fall for him all the more.

“Mr. Kim would kill him too!” Hector added and everyone laughed even more.

Hell, yes. Of course Porter would kill him, too. That way, he’d get rid of the enemy and have her all for himself. That’s a win-win situation for him.

Janine smiled. “My boyfriend didn’t hurt me, Hector.” She replied that made everyone gang up on Hector.

“Then what?” Yasmin asked.

Janine sighed hard. “He’s back. I’m meeting him later.” She said and everyone cheered.

Everyone except Porter, who’s looking deep into Janine’s eyes with an unreadable expression.

Janine sighed. She knows that no matter how L tells her that he doesn’t mind if he’s the second man, he is dying to be the first. Of course, no man wanted to just be the second best.

And this. This is going to hurt him so bad. This is going to beat him to death.

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From: Porter Kim Is he really back? Where are you meeting him?

Janine gulped as she read his message. She couldn’t help herself but get worried of him. He’s going to get hurt and she’s going to hurt him even more.

To: Porter Kim I don’t know yet. But I’m certain we’ll have dinner together.

She sighed as she sent her reply. She knows that this will hurt him a bit more but Porter has to endure this. If he really loves her, he has to endure this, right?

And besides, time with Johann would help Janine realize if she really loves Porter or if this is just a phase. A phase where she just misses Johann and she sees a potential in Porter, making her drawn to him.

From: Porter Kim Alright. Have fun with him.

She narrowed her eyes on her phone. Why doesn’t he like the idea of Porter getting jealous? Why does she feel comfortable that Porter is jealous?

To: Porter Kim Are you jealous?

She sighed and waited for his reply.

From: Porter Kim Nope. I told you. I’m cool with being the second one if it means I could be with you. So, do me a favor and have fun with him so I won’t blame myself if you’re not happy.

Janine’s heart is beating really fast right now. Is Porter naturally a good talker or…ugh. He is making it hard for her to enjoy someone else.

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“Baby Love!!!!”

Johann was jumping up and down as Janine walked inside their unit. He called her that he’s just going to wait for her in her unit instead of going straight to a certain restaurant.

Johann hugged Janine really tight like he didn’t want to let go. Oh hell, he really didn’t want to let go. He even promised himself that after studying, he’d propose to Janine and finally marry this girl.

Janine smiled and hugged back.

“I missed you, Baby Love.” Johann whispered and kissed her hair. “Oh, damn! This is what I’ve been missing for a year.” He grunted as he sniffed her scent. Sniff. Yes. Like a dog.

“Hey, Johann Kim!” Janine beamed as she was shocked at Johann’s reaction to her scent.

“What, Babe?” Johann chuckled as he placed his chin on top of her head. Only God knows how much he misses her. Too much. Too dangerously much.

Janine smiled as she hugged him back. “What do you want to eat?” She asked but Johann groaned. “Can’t I hug you for a little while more before I think about eating?” He asked as he led Janine on the couch and cuddled her.

Janine stopped and looked at him. Why does she feel a bit different now than when she had cuddled with Porter?

She sighed and shook her head. Johann just came back. She should stop thinking of other guys when he’s here, hugging her and wanting her bad.

Johann kissed her cheek. “Damn. I really miss you and I can’t stop telling you that even though you cry asking me to stop.” He beamed and Janine chuckled.

Nonetheless, she missed him as well. Too much as well.

“I want you now.” Johann whispered to her.

Janine’s eyes widened.

“I’m sorry, Baby Love, but you just smell so damn good that makes me want you even more than before.” He beamed. “I’m sorry for wanting you too much.”

Janine looked at him and sighed. “You don’t have to—”

Her words were cut as Johann’s lips crashed on her lips. She immediately shut her eyes and kissed him back. Her lips are moving with his but all she could think of is how Porter’s lips tasted and felt different from Johann’s.

She couldn’t compare clearly but Porter’s lips are just…

She stopped thinking as she felt Johann carry her to her room without breaking the kiss. Damn. With the way he is holding her right now, she can feel how badly he wants her tonight.

She could understand him because it’s been a year since he was away from her. His needs. His urges should’ve increased as well.

He carefully laid her on the bed as he laid on top of her and kissed her tenderly.

Janine couldn’t think straight. This is not the first time she’s doing it with him but why does it feel so different than the last time. She could remember it clearly. The first time was her heaven. But right now, why does she feel like she’s entering hell when Johann’s treating her like a delicate glass as the first time?

Johann’s lips went to her jaw then to her neck, making her moan with the mere touch of his lips on her body.

His hands went down to her waist, brushing her skin up and down before traveling to her back, unbuckling her brassiere even with her clothes on.

Janine but her lip and breathed deeply as Johann’s fingers touch her breasts, making her feel certain sensations that she missed.

She missed this. She missed him.

But why does she feel so empty?

Johann’s lips traveled down to her breasts as his hands lifted her shirt up. He nibbled on her bossom as his hand massaged the other one.

“Johann,” she moaned as he sent her sensations she had not felt for a long time. “Please,” she pleaded as Johann did his best on her bossoms.

His kisses traveled down to her stomach then he sucked her navel, making Janine arch her back in delight.

“I love you.” Johann said as his kisses traveled to her skirt. He’s holding her core.

“I love you, too.” She replied.

Johann smiled.

But are those words really directed to him?