Chapter 12 What Words Couldn’t Be Said
By the time his body allowed rest for the both of them, she was already delirious and drifting off to sleep. A proud smile crossed Kian’s face while he looked over the aftermath of their intense breeding session. She wanted to be breed and he couldn’t refuse for her even if that thought lingered in the back of his mind.
He knew something wasn’t quite right. He felt it in the air. He could feel it in his bones. There was too much desperation in her kiss as if she was chasing after something like she was chasing after ghosts vanishing before her eyes. He felt like he’d do more damage than good if he refused her advances. It wasn’t like he had a choice either. His body instinctively chased after hers, craving everything she gave him.
Now that he acknowledged and accepted the mate bond, his mind, body, and soul seeped into hers. Her desires, urges, and pleasure were fire in his veins. He was addicted to stoking her flames so he could feel the scorching heat. He wanted her to burn for him, just like he was burning for her. When their bodies intertwined, his soul and heart fused with hers, burying deep into each other like roots of a tree.
Whatever they had was now growing and they were growing together. He felt it the first time he spilled his seed inside of her. He felt it deep in his soul as their combined pleasure blinded him, burning his entire body up until all he could feel was their connection. His teeth ached to claim her then, but there was just too much between to claim her. There was still too much to speak about and too many obstacles still in there way.
He sighed, slowly pulling out of her body. Finally, his dick had softened, no longer needed. Her eyes fluttered open for a moment to gaze up at him dazed.
“Kian,” she murmured his name.
He gave a small smile. “Rest. You need to rest.”
“But Kian,” she argued, shaking her head. “I-I need to tell you something.”
He leaned down and kissed her gently — an innocent one not one that burned with dark lusty promises. She sighed against his mouth. Tears escaped down her cheeks and he could feel the dampness against his skin.
“I shouldn’t have done it,” she apologized and it broke his heart. “But I just wanted to feel what it was like just once.”
Panic laced into his blood like ice in his veins. He realized why she had been so desperate. She was going to do something stupid, but he wasn’t going to let her.
“Alpha,” she pleaded. His eyes snapped to hers. No Kian. She used his formal title. So this was what she had planned then. “Alpha, I, Raina Winters, rej—”
Without hesitation, he silenced her with his lips. He kissed her until only her whimpers released from her throat. He yanked her up into his arms, folding her into his embrace protectively. Her legs instinctively wrapped around his waist and his dick once against hardened against her.
With one arm still circled around her waist, he grabbed his dick and pushed himself inside of her. He savored her gasp as she sank down on him. Gravity willed her to stay in place as he held her up, just like their fated bond destined them to stay together. Both hands cupping her ass, he slowly lifted her up and down on his dick.
“Kian,” she whimpered as she tightened around him.
He captured her mouth with his as he continued the slow movement of guiding her hips up and down his length. Her body shivered against him as the low stirrings of pleasure built. The slow burn of pleasure sparked from the ashes.
He walked over to the large armchair facing his destroyed desk. He sat down and her legs unwrapped from his waist. Her knees pressed against the seat cushion on either side of him. His dick was still deep within her.
“Ride me,” he whispered to her between kisses.
She tried to nod her head, but he continued kissing her mouth. His hands once again were on her hips as he helped her, guiding her up and down on him until she slowly rode him. His arms wrapped around her back. One arm was around her waist and the other across her back with his hand reached up to cup the back of her head.
Her pleasure started to build up within him, coiling tighter and tighter. Groaning, he leaned back, letting her breathe. Her lips were swollen and puffy from his kisses. Her breasts swayed, catching his eyes. Taking her nipple in his mouth, he suckled. Her breath caught in her throat and as strangled soft moan went straight to his dick. His tongue laved at her hardened bud in his mouth while she squirmed against him. His eyes flicked up to her as she squeezed her eyes shut as she tried to keep her pleasure at bay. His teeth grazed her skin and her hips stuttered. He leaned back, waiting until her eyes opened and gazed into his.
“Raina, give in to it,” he commanded her.
She bit her bottom lip but nodded her head. Soon, her body followed his words, obeying him. A low rumble of approval in his chest sounded. He pressed her down against him as he thrusted deep inside of her and let himself go. Eyes still connected. Her emotions bled into her eyes, communicating what words couldn’t be said aloud.
He wasn’t going to let anyone get in the way, not even her. Nobody was going to ever separate them. She was his.
When she had finally fallen asleep, he gently put her in his shirt and tucked her into the blazer he kept in his office for impromptu business meetings. He tugged on his sweatpants and swept her up in his arms bridal-style. He opened the door to his office and walked through the pack house, paying no attention to the eyes following him as he brought her up to his suite.
Good. Let them stare. He wanted the entire world to know that this shewolf was his.
That wasn’t breeding. Raina had made love to him and now he knew it.
That was the first thought that shot through her when she finally awoke. She gasped, sitting upright. Her heart raced as she surveyed unfamiliar surroundings until she realized she was in Kian’s bedroom. She had only been there once and she had regretted it. She needed to get him up at an ungodly hour and she had to barge into his room right before he could sink into Mia.
He wasn’t particularly happy with her, but that was the night that his mother was acting strangely. Nobody had seen her and she had a sinking bad feeling. At the time, he was upset with her, but had forgiven her after he found his mother close to death.
Mia never forgave her for it especially when Kian hadn’t punished her for barging in. Mia’s kindness towards her disappeared. From that time on, it was like she had become the enemy.
Daylight streamed through the windows over the floorboards. Raina glanced to the side and spotted a tray of food and drink on the nightstand. Kian must’ve arranged for it. Then everything that happened last night seemed to snap into focus in her mind and her heart raced. What had she done?
Mia had told her that she was back for Kian and that she would be his Luna. Raina had let her fear consume her and she had kissed him. She threw herself at him, telling him that she wanted him to breed her. He didn’t refuse her. He fucked her over and over again until her throat was too raw from screaming his name over and over again for the entire pack house to know exactly what was going on.
They hadn’t been quiet at all. She was certain everyone knew by now what had happened.
When she had tried to reject him, they made love instead. That wasn’t breeding. He had looked straight into her soul that spoke too much and felt too much to not bare all her secrets.
As she moved to peel back the covers from her body, her entire body ached. Places she never thought would ache were sore. Her body had been thoroughly dominated by an Alpha. There was no doubt about that. She had never heard him like that before either. The entire pack house would’ve known if he had fucked Mia like that. They had been together for nine years and stories would’ve wagged on gossipy tongues. Furniture would’ve been replaced frequently.
She remembered how he had been at the end of the night. How gentle he had been and she swallowed thickly. That was probably how he had always been with Mia — gentle, soft, and loving.
She flushed as she remembered what Mia had called her ‘no good bitch-in-heat’ . Tears prickled the back of her eyelids as she squeezed her eyes shut. She felt her tears on her skin, gliding down the slopes of her cheeks. She asked him to breed her. She didn’t ask for his love. She was a body — a bitch-in-heat for him to fulfill his legacy.
Maybe, if she discussed it with Kian and return to the IVF instead, it would give Mia plenty of time to secure his affections. They could go back to normal… but what was normal anymore now that he fucked her like he did? Could they go back to what they once were?
There was a knock on the door, distracting her from her thoughts. She nervously walked out of his bedroom and to the door in the living room. Hesitating a moment as her hand wrapped around the handle. Should she even be letting anyone into his personal living quarters?
“Open the door, Raina,” Sterling’s voice called out. “I know you’re in there. Kian sent me.”
Raina’s eyes widened at that. She sighed before she opened the door and Sterling looked straight at her. She watched her twin sister scan her appearance. She wore only Kian’s shirt that went down to a little above her knees. Her sister’s eyebrow raised before a small smirk slashed her mouth.
“Seems like you’ve been busy.”
Raina groaned. “Don’t start. This wasn’t supposed to--”
“Oh, but it did,” she pointed out. Raina scowled. “Hey, don’t give me that look. You know Poppy is going to be ten times worse. Besides, you’re the one that chose to take up Kian’s offer to produce an heir naturally not me.”
“It was a mistake,” she whispered softly. How her sister said it was less crude than her way of persuading Kian to breed her.
“It certainly didn’t sound like a mistake.” Sterling crossed her arms and walked over to the sofas in front of the large TV screen and fireplace. She sat down on the sofa. “The both of you were pretty vocal with how much a mistake it was.” She raised an eyebrow. “Was is the first or second or fourth time or the tenth time did you realize it was a mistake?”
Her cheeks burned. Had it been that many times? She swallowed as she sat down next to her sister. No, it couldn’t have been that many times.
She didn’t realize she had said it out loud until Sterling chuckled. “It was definitely way more than ten times, but I lost count. Poppy said you two didn’t leave his office until like five in the morning. She checked the tapes. You can’t deny it. You slept all day, by the way? It’s four.”
Raina’s mouth dropped open in shock. She had slept all day?
“Well, it’s understandable,” Sterling chuckled. “I mean you were kept up all night by an Alpha. I’m surprised you’re actually walking.”
“But-But--”
“He’s an Alpha, Raina.”
She groaned. “I know that, but he was never like that with Mia.”
“I know.” Sterling snorted, shaking her head. “It makes you wonder if she ever satisfied him.” Raina’s breath hitched at Sterling’s statement. A small ray of hope threatened to break through the gloom and doom. Sterling frowned in confusion. “What? Oh, c’mon! Don’t you remember? Look, no offense to Mia but Kian’s an Alpha. He’s the strongest and fiercest leader of the pack. He’s a warrior. What I heard last night, that’s what I expected. Don’t you remember what it was like with Kian’s parents before Deidra and Ace showed up? Everyone heard them. It was impossible not to hear them.”
Raina’s eyes widened in realization. She had heard so many stories about Kian’s parents especially how madly in love they had been with each other. It had all changed though after and Kian broke up with Mia right after his mother and Ace officially mated.
“Anyways, Kian wanted to make sure you were medically taken care of now with this… new direction,” Sterling told her as she dug around in her pocket of her dress. She tossed a container at her. “You’ll need to start taking prenatal vitamins. Keep drinking those herbal supplements I gave you already. It’s probably what helped you recover and bounce back quicker.”
Sterling checked her watch and started to get up, but Raina grabbed her arm. “Mia wants him back.”
Her sister frowned at that that, slowly sitting back down. “Okay?”
“She told me last night and…” Raina trailed.
Sterling chuckled. “And you fucked him instead?”
“No, I was going to reject him afterwards,” she gasped, shaking her head. Sterling paled at that. “I-I just wanted to be with him once before I…”
“He’s not going to accept your rejection now that he’s been with you,” she told her, shrugging her shoulders. “There’s no going back from this point. He asked me to come up here to get you on track for a natural pregnancy. What does that tell you?”
Raina watched her sister give her a look before she got up and headed to the door. She followed her to the door. Sterling spun around and gave her a quick hug.
“Take a shower. Relax.” Sterling glanced around the suite. “He’s already moved your clothes into the Luna’s suite by the way. You might as well go take a bath.”
“Wait! What?”
Sterling shut the door before she could fully question her. Raina yanked up the door and tried to call out her sister’s name, but her sister just gave a little wave as she continued on her way. Raina swallowed hard when she noticed a maid freeze at being spotted.
Glancing down at herself, Raina once again realized she was only in Kian’s shirt. She blushed, rushing back into Kian’s suite and shut the door. She looked around the suite and returned to Kian’s bedroom. One door led to his personal library that led to his office. One door led to the master bathroom. The other door led to his wardrobe that led to the Luna’s suite.
She walked through his wardrobe and opened the door to the Luna’s wardrobe. Her eyes widened when she spotted her clothes already there. She swallowed as she surveyed the new pieces of clothing hanging up. They were beautiful things with luxurious soft fabric. Things shouldn’t belong to a shewolf like her, but more like a someone like Mia.