CHAPTER:29

I began to remember when the police were taking them out one by one. My parents, the girls, John, Carmen, Brother Mike, Belinda and Arvin. They are all in a decomposition stage. They are all rotten and stink. The fat, healthy worms that look so full by eating their flesh are going out from their mouths, eyes, ears and nose. They are the ones that I am talking too that I thought were talking to me too and they want to be with me. I thought they wanted to eat the food that I cooked, I thought they wanted to stay with me but that is all in my head. I just thought about all of it because of the sadness that I felt, because of the feeling that I am unwanted. I thought they need help but I am the one who needs help.

“You are crazy, Helena” Echo said while staring at me. Wants me to realize everything.

“No, I am not,” I answered while still covering my ears and shaking my head. I am sitting at the corner of my bed and I don’t want to look at him even though I know that he is staring at me.

“Accept the fact, Helena”

“No… no… no!” I said while I laughed at myself while my tears rolled down because I realized everything that I know is the world that I built and it is fake. It is not my fault if I built my own world to fit in because I am unwanted by society and now it is all bouncing back at me and I still feel unwanted.

“Helena,” A voice of a woman called my name and it sounds familiar. I turned around to see who she was and I couldn't believe to see my nanny Silva. She walks near me and hugs me. In an instant I feel relieved because I am in my nanny’s arms again. I cried like a child on her arms.

“That is alright, everybody will take revenge on you now” She said and her voice changed. I looked at her and I pushed her away when I saw Belinda now sitting beside me.

“Are you not happy to see me?” She asked and she put her hand under her pants and tried to pull her baby out and showed it to me full of blood that is color black and worms inside the mouth.

“Look at your brother” She said while showing me the baby that she is carrying on her rotten arms.

“He is supposed to be your protector because I will teach him to love you and be there for you because you are his only family if ever I will be gone… but you killed him” She said while still showing me my brother but I don’t want to look at it because it looks scary and disgusted.

“Why don't you want to look at him?” She asked me but I didn’t answer.

“Leave me alone, you are already dead” I said

“Why don't you look at your brother, Helena?” The girls asked me and they are inside my room now. Looking at me. Their eyes are popped and they are rotten.

“Go away! you are not real!” I shouted trying to remove them from my head because I know they are not real.

“Look at us… Look what you have done to us” Jean said and grabbed my arm and made me look at them but I didn't want to because I know that they are not real.

“Look at us!” She shouted furiously

“No!” I shouted and pushed her away

“I thought you were our friend, we accepted you and we are excited to let you join in our friendship” Irene and Shirley said but I am not interested because I know that they are not real.

“Stop! stop! stop!” I screamed but they didn't want to stop. Until Carmen got inside the room holding a needle and a thread. I know she is going to stitch my mouth too like what I did to her mouth.

“How about the feeling of being burned?” The couple asked me

“Go away!” They are holding a lighter and kerosene and I know they want to burn me as a revenge because I burned them.

“Or put a plastic on your head” John said

They are one by one appearing as if they are alive and I know they want to hurt me as their revenge but I need to fight them because I know they are not real.

“Do you like what we did to you?” Mike and Arvin asked me. I became furious when I saw the two of them because they sexually abused me and because of them I am like this. I ran to them and started punching them, kicking them and hurting them because I will never forgive them.

“I hate the two of you!” I shouted

“If I meet you in my next life I will kill you again!” I screamed. I keep on punching them until I get tired. I sat on the floor and cried.

“Helena,” Mom called me. She is with daddy and they are smiling at me even though my mom is crying. She tried to smile for me.

“I am sorry” She cried and hugged me. I closed my eyes and felt her hug because it's been a long time since she hugged me and I feel comfortable but it's too late now because her hug won't resolve everything.

“Please forgive us” Daddy said and hugged me too. Like mom. His hug is warm but it won't resolve everything either.

I don’t know what to say because I hate them too. They ruined my life too. Especially daddy and his mistress.

“Let us go from your head” Daddy said.

I ignore them. I just keep on crying because I am tired of everything. I am tired of my life.

They slowly walked near me and they surrounded me. “Stay away from me!” I screamed.

“You are all dead!”

“You are not real!”

“YOU ARE ALL DEAD!”

Carmen stitched my mouth, while John put plastic on my head and the couple wanted to burn me. I feel the pain that they are doing to me. It is the pain of revenge and it is very painful. My parents are just watching while crying and Belinda is laughing at me. I saw Echo changed into me and I saw myself looking at me now and she felt pity for herself which is me.