Chapter 49 Drugs

Chapter 49 Drugs
Time passed. Weeks and months passed. Daisy got over it all. She could walk again. She didn't have to use crutches. After a long time, I saw a smile on her face and a radiant face. It was as if she had forgotten about James. We don't talk about him. We don't even talk about Lily or Mark.

"Liaam. What are you doing?" she asked me and smiled at me. She sat down on my bed. I put down my laptop.

"I was writing an email to the hospital, Daisy. What would you like to do?" I asked her and raised my eyebrows.

"Well.. I don't know.. What do you suggest?"

"I suggest doing nothing. What do you think? That's also a good way.. We can stay in bed and do nothing," I said and pushed her to the bed. She was a doormat.

"Liaam," she said and laughed. I grabbed both of her hands and smiled. I knew exactly what I was going to do to her.

"Or we could do this. That's also a very interesting activity. And you would definitely want to do it. And don't say no. Everyone needs sex. Me too," I said and kissed her on the lips. I held both of her hands and she couldn't move. She ran her foot over my crotch. I took off my shirt and looked at her.

"Daisy.. Even if you don't love me. Even if you don't feel anything for me, I still need you.  I know you need me too,"

"You're right, I need you. You're the only man who can touch me, after all this. You're the only man I'm not afraid of. But Liam. I don't take any pills. I know it would be hard for me to get pregnant, but if I did,"

"I'm not really afraid of that, Daisy. I'm not.  I always wanted a daughter," I said and laughed. I unbuttoned her blouse. You'll be mine again. Again.

One Hour Later:

Daisy lay down exhausted next to me. I smiled and pulled her into my arms. I felt her pulse. I felt her skin. I loved her. Honestly and purely. I tried to do everything I could to make her fall in love with me too. I had to give it some time. It's easy to fall in love but even harder to fall out of love.

"Liam. You're a really wonderful and wonderful man. You're so gentle. And I'm sorry I can't give you the love you need. But maybe someday Liam. Maybe one day,"

"Don't worry about it, okay? I believe that one day you'll fall in love with me. Maybe it just takes time. Time for you to forget all about it. But Daisy.  Am I better than James?,,"

,,Liam,," she screamed and punched me in the chest. I laughed and kissed her hair.

,,You're amazing Liam. Better than him,,"

,,That makes me happy. Daisy. I want to ask you something. We haven't talked about it in a long time. I didn't know if I should tell you. It's the kind of thing that maybe you can give me the answer to,,"

,,Then ask. I'll answer you honestly,," she whispered and sat down on the bed.

"When James was dating you. Did he do drugs? Daisy. Don't lie to me. I need to know,"

"He did. Meth. When.. When I was with him and you sent him money, he used the money for drugs,"

"Why didn't you tell me? I should have known Daisy,"

"Liam. If I had told you, it would have really hurt you. I didn't want to add to the situation that was there. But yes, James was doing drugs Liam. I don't know how you found out but it's true,"

"Chris was here.. You were asleep. He saw him doing it and when he told me, I couldn't believe my ears Daisy.  I wanted to ask you," I whispered and looked at her.

"Sorry Liam but I couldn't.. I want to ask you something too. Can I?" she asked and smiled at me.

"Why is Chris coming to see us? Why does he keep asking me if I'm okay?" she asked me. Now think about it Liam. What are you going to tell her? Should you tell her the truth? That Chris is her father or are you going to lie again?

"Liam. Are you listening to me?" Daisy asked me and looked at me.

"You remind him of the daughter Daisy lost. He lost his daughter and because you are Lily's daughter, he feels a huge amount of affection for you, like for his own daughter. I tried to find his daughter but I can't.  I don't know where she went or who adopted her,"

"I feel sorry for him. I would give anything to know who my father was, to be able to hug him and tell him I missed him," she whispered softly

"What would you tell him, Daisy?" I asked her and smiled

"That I missed him. That I always wanted a father. At least I would know that I'm not alone here,"

"But, Daisy. You're definitely not alone. You have me. And I promise you that we'll find your father. There are possibilities and the home has to tell me something. They have to tell me certain information and somehow we'll find your father.  I would like to know who he is too,"

,,My mother will never tell me Liam. Really Never. She keeps it a secret. She is very cruel and heartless. She has been like that since childhood. But she feels love for Zoe. Huge love,"

,,Yes. Because she is Mark's sister. That's why. Because she is their dearest daughter but they will all pay for what they did. Lily for doing what she did and separating you from your father. Mark for how much he hurt you and what he caused and James for all of it,"

,,James is your son Liam," she muttered and looked at me.

,,I'm not so sure about that Daisy. I'm not.. I'm going to have DNA tests done soon. If I do the tests and find out he's not my son. Becky will pay me dearly for it. I always wanted a daughter to run around my house.  I was happy for my son too but look at how he is and what he does,"

"Maybe one day it will come true for you," she whispered and smiled at me.

"Maybe," I said and kissed her on the lips. Only with you Daisy. Only with you.

I didn't want to lie to you Daisy. I didn't want to but I had to. I couldn't hurt Chris. He'll tell you one day and you'll be happy. Very happy.