Chapter 18 Back from the dead
Blake's P. O. V
"Jason its all my fault," I said to him its been 2 months and she is still in a coma.
He hugs me "it's not your fault Blake stop blaming yourself "he murmurs in my ear
"I wish I took the bullet "I sob really hard
I haven't slept, I barely eat, I don't talk to anyone, the school's over, my parents are worried sick, and Grace she is in worst condition then I am, Hope was her only family member, and now she is in the hospital because of me
"I already lost you once, and I won't let that happen again," he said and hugged me tight
We sat like that for a few minutes, Grace came out of Hope's room looking like a mess, she doesn't hate me now once Jason explained her everything,
She might have forgiven me, but I never forgive myself
I don't deserve to be love or to love, they end up either dead or half-dead, I just want her to wake up, and when she does, I will leave and never come back, she deserves a better life
I walk in her hospital room, I can't see her like this, different types of pipes are attached to her, and she is wearing a hospital gown, every day is the same, she just lies there without any moment
I remember the time, she never sat in once place, always moving here and there, and she is a chatterbox, I really miss her voice, our argument, every night I made sure she slept peacefully, I never showed her any of my feelings but since the day she stepped in my life, she is light in my dark life, if am sleep, she is my dream, she is the smile on my lips, her thoughts make me laugh without reason, her eyes so deep I find myself drowning, is this love?
When I lost all my hopes, she found me, Hope found me.
"Hey," I said and sat on a chair near her bed
I am always waiting for a reply
"Well the Ball is over, but none of our friends went," I said trying not to blink, I might miss a body moment if I did
"Derek is sent away to a mental asylum, they say he is mentally ill" I breath out a heavy sigh, tears in my eyes
"Please open your eyes, please I can't see you like this, come on, get up, annoy me, fight with me, glared at me, hit me, laugh at me, throw things at me, do what you want to, but please open your eyes, I promise I'll never shout at you, I'll do all of your assignment for the rest of my life"
"I'll let you cook, hell I'll even let you burn my house to the ground cooking, I'll eat all burnt food you cook for the rest of my life, or I will eat only baked things for as long as you please, but please just open your eyes for once please please please please " I kept on crying
And then her... her... Fingers moved and the damn machine started beeping "doctor. Doctor "I yelled holding her hands in mine
Then she opened her eyes, I felt like my whole world came back to me, I got my light back, I got my Hope back
"What's wrong?" Asked doctor Mira
I was just staring at her, with a bright smile on my face, I can't believe she's back
Hope's P. O. V
I tried opening my eyes but they are so heavy, my body feels so numb, where the hell am I ? And what happened?, then I heard a familiar voice
"Please open your eyes, please I can't see you like this, come on get up annoy me, fight with me, glared at me, hit me, laugh at me, throw things at me, do what you want to but please open your eyes, I promise I'll never shout at you, I'll do all of your assignment for the rest of my life" is he crying?
I felt something wet on my fingers, that's the first thing I felt.
"I'll let you cook, hell I'll even let you burn my house cooking, I'll eat all burnt food you cook for the rest of my life, or I will eat only baked things for as long as you please, but please just open your eyes for once please please please please " aww
I tried so hard to move, after some effort, my fingers moved,
I forced my eyes to open and when I did, the light was pricking me in the eyes
He started yelling to call the Doctor, I heard a feminine voice, I looked around to see a lady in a white coat maybe she is a Doctor
I am in a white room, and there are lots of machines, and one is beeping so loud, I am going to throw it out the window
Then I saw Blake, he was a mess, he looked so pale, his eyes were bloodshot, this reminds me of the night of his birthday, he is wearing a button-up shirt whose first few buttons are open, his hair is messed up. Stop drooling your in a hospital for god's sake
"I am so glad your back," she said smiling, she checked my nerves and the machines
Everyone came rushing towards me, Luke, Jen, Mia, Jason, Peter, Grace, June, and John they all were a mess, like none of them have slept
Grace hugged me tight and Blake moved away but his eyes never left me
"Oh my god, I am so happy that your back, I missed you so much, how are you? Are you in pain? Do you want to say something? Please say something" she was freaking out
I tried speaking but nothing came out, seeing my struggle Blake handed Grace a glass of water, she helped me drink it
"I am fine Grace " my voice came out in a whisper
She tugged again and Anandnd started crying, I slowly lifted my hands and hugged her back
Slowly Blake walked out of the room
I spoke with everyone, they are still the same, I saw Mia blushing when Jason made fun of her, and he blushed when she teased him
Its good to be back, but I can't concentrate because my mind is on certain someone, my heart speeds up just to the mention of his name
"Jason can you please, send Blake in if you see him," I said him when everyone left to let me rest
"Yeah sure, and Hope he really likes you, you know right? "he said smiling
"I know," I said smiling and he went out
I closed my eyes a little, I am in sitting position and I am leaning on the pillow behind me
I heard the door opening, I slowly opened my eyes to see Blake entering and trying not to make any sort of sound
"Hey," I said smiling
"Hey? Don't hey me. What were you thinking to take the bullet for me, I knew you are an idiot, but that was heights, did you think if something happened to you, what will Grace go through, Grace was so broken, so much in pain" he kept so babbling taking out his frustration
I just kept smiling, he might sound angry but there was relief in his voice, I really wanted someone to yell at me for being stupid, and there is only one person who can make that happen
And I think I am falling for him
"Stop smiling. this is serious, do you think its a joke, you almost died you idiot" he started pacing in the room
But all I did was smile "are you done yelling because I really need a hug right now" I said rolling my eyes
He shook his head but smiled and embraced me into him, and it might sound silly but at that moment I felt complete, I felt whole, I felt alive, I found the missing piece of my heart which finally completed me
"Your stupid," he said hugging me tighter
"Only for you" I could feel him smiling
Can life get any better,
Who said you need three simple words to express your love, a lovely hug is enough to make me fall in love with him all over again