Chapter 9

I completely lost myself into the research I was carrying out, the sounds of the taps against the MacBook keys filled my whole ears as I compared results and confirmed if the sources concerning my research were legit or fake. I wrote down a few lines from the results of the laptop and even took a quick picture of the result with my phone before finally saving it and turning it into a pdf file. I leaned back into my seat and stretched a little, turning my head from side to side to relieve the knots in my neck muscles a little. 

I glanced backwards at Jonas to find him grinning at his phone, his fingers moving vigorously over the screen of his phone while the light from his phone lit up his face. His hair was currently scattered over one of my pillows and I took my time to admire him without being caught. 

I bit my lips as images of me being held beneath him with his tongue moving over different spots of my neck made me swallow emptily while willing the thoughts out of my head. I turned back towards the MacBook and transferred the file to my phone before quickly forwarding the file to Joey.

I closed the MacBook quickly before slowly pushing to my feet and stretching slightly, my top riding up a little. Jonas’s eyes moved away from his phone towards me, and I watched his eyes dropped to my bared stomach for a few seconds, I stopped stretching and leaned against my desk with my arms folded against each other, Jonas’s eyes raked upwards from my now concealed stomach to my blank face.

The lights in my room were quite bright and they all illuminated Jonas’s eyes beautiful, I’d have to say.

“How was your game?” I decided to ask after we’ve been staring at each other for a few minutes.

“It was really good, and it’s been long since I played in a life team, so it was definitely good,” he replied truthfully, a small smile tugging the corners of his lips, he sure is head over heels for his games.

“why don’t you frequently play games that way?”

“Well because I’m really busy with finals and playing games that way can be really addictive and also distracting, and also because my former roommate was a hardcore gamer, so we collaborated as a team until he graduated and moved out since he was a year above me... since then, I’ve been really lazy to start going over to my friend’s house for a game,” he explained slowly and for a moment, the thought of he and his former roommate being intimate with each other and having sex drifted into my mind for a fleeting second but I pushed it aside, angry at myself for even caring enough to think that far.

A tiny part of me was disappointed because I had thought I was the first person he’s been this intimate with in a long while.., I guess I was wrong. Only that the thoughts won’t leave my head in the next minutes that followed of us lost in our different thoughts.

“So, um, do you make out with your former roommates and stuffs the way you did with me?” I asked quietly when the stupid thoughts wouldn’t leave my head no matter how hard I tried not to think about it. 

I watched him turn his head until he was fully glancing at me once again. I wanted to look away from his intense his gaze, but I fought against that urge. He chuckled a little and I scowled at him immediately. Did he think this was a joke?

“Remember when I said I wanted to talk to you about it? I think this is related to it. Come sit,” he said after a few more seconds and I gnawed on my lower lips for a few seconds before shrugging my shoulders and walking towards the bed even though I’d have preferred to stay where I was before.

He patted the spot beside him, and I stared at it warily. He was still lying down and kept on watching my reaction. With a tiny huff, I sat down and stared blankly at him, willing myself to not get carried away by his distracting eyes.

“So, I wanted to talk about us,” Jonas started to say, and I blinked a few times before muttering a quiet ‘oh.’ He nodded his head and continued as we stared at each other.

“Let’s start from your previous question. The answer is definitely a big no, I wasn’t interested in them. I have a lot of straight friends, so I’ve never made out with any of my previous roommates,” he replied and another quiet ‘oh’ left my lips. I glanced down at my fiddling fingers on my thighs and felt color flood my cheeks in embarrassment, feeling stupid all of a sudden.

For a moment back there, I acted like a jealous boyfriend.

I’m not even gay to begin with.

“I like you a lot more though, a lot more than I’ve liked someone in years. I know you say you’re perfectly straight which I’m not arguing about, but I really do like you. And I’ve always enjoyed talking to you from the start, I also got really intrigued by you from the very start, y’know,” Jonas paused and I blinked once then twice, staring pointedly at him with my lips a little bit parted in shock because I definitely didn’t see this coming.

His hand came out of nowhere and pull one of my fiddling hands off my thighs onto his cloth covered stomach, my fingers rested against his warm palm while his thumb lightly moved over my warm skin slowly. I bit lightly on my lips to stop myself from doing something stupidly embarrassing to myself and instead stared at him without saying a thing since words seems to have deserted my brains.

“I enjoyed doing a lot of stuffs with you, including cooking with you even though I barely help and just hang around the counters,” he paused and we both chuckled lightly, I stared at his smiling face for a few heartbeats and felt my stomach tightened before quickly glancing away, there was just something his smile manages to do to me every single time.

“I also enjoyed teasing you and watching you flush in embarrassment, especially whenever you think I’m not watching and you start running your eyes all over my chest hungrily, only to see me watching you all those while, your reactions after being caught was always priceless,” he continued and I turned even redder, I hate my life right now.

He chuckled lightly on seeing my telling reaction and I forced myself to glare at him, but he only laughed harder.

“Do you know how silly you look while glaring at someone? Especially with a red face,” Jonas gushed while laughing heartily this time. His whole body vibrated with his rumbles, and I felt my fingers vibrate a little on his stomach. I flipped him the bird with my free hand since I didn’t know what to say to that.

I know he was just exaggerating since I knew how menacing my angry face looked, but never with a flushed face though.

“As I was saying, I really do like you, Andy. And I did get a little bit jealous than I should have the first time we kissed, and you mentioned your girlfriend.”

I swallowed emptily as I felt guilt damper the flutters I was feeling all over the inside of my chest and stomach at the mention of my girlfriend, I really am a shitty boyfriend.

“But technically, I do have a girlfriend,” I mumbled and I felt his grip on my fingers tightened a little with my heartbeats skipping at that small reaction, he really did get jealous...

“Just So you’d know, I only kissed you after reading your body language and studying you thoroughly for a week, I knew you wanted me as much as I wanted even before you realized it yourself, that was why I risked our friendship that night.”

Oh.

I blinked at him as realization started to sink in slowly... no wonder I did crave in after a few seconds.

I really am a slut.

“You’re not saying a thing,” he said when all I did was move my fingers lightly against his.

I shrugged a little. “I think your smile is really mesmerizing...” I started to say without thinking and on seeing the surprised expression come over his face, I decided to proceed honestly since he just finished pouring his heart to me when he didn’t need to.

“I think you have a really beautiful smile and there’s just something that it does to me, my insides especially. I think you have a really amazing body and I’d kill for your height... I really like your hair and your piercings are really hot, especially your lip piercing.” I paused and puffed out the breath I sucked in without nothing just as I started pouring my mind out...

Now that I think about it, all what I said sounded gay as fuck compared to his.

Before I could think of something else to say, Jonas suddenly wrapped his free hand and pulled me downwards to lightly brush my lips against his. Our eyes stared into each other’s and for the first time since we’ve been holding each other’s gaze since I could remember, he blinked, the sight managing to still my racing heartbeat.

His light grip left my neck, and I pulled my lips away while staring at his lips a few times, on second thoughts, I leaned back down and lightly brushed my lips against his. We stared at each other for a few seconds with none of us moving, in the next second, our mouths were slowly moving against each other. My eyes fluttered when he nibbled on my lower lips before sucking it into his mouth, I pulled away a few inches apart and stared down at him, his blue eyes blinking up at me.

“Does this make me gay? Does the fact that I want to kiss you make me gay?” I asked quietly before pulling away completely and returning back to my former position, my hands once again on my thighs. He sat up immediately and tugged not one but two of my fingers into his thighs, his fingers moving over the inside of my palms.

“Why are you so scared of being gay?” He asked and I glanced away from him, slapping myself upside down in my head for asking such a stupid question some minutes ago.

“Um, no reason,” I replied and scowled at him when he snorted unbelievably.

“What?” I demanded while trying to tug back my hands, but he wouldn’t budge and instead informed me. “I’m not buying that.”

“But that’s the truth.”

When he didn’t reply and instead gave me a long look, I sighed and puffed out a deep breath.

“Fine, I just never saw myself as someone who’d get attracted to guy since I was a teenager, and I guess my parents too.”

“What’s up with your parents?”

“Relax,” I chastened on feeling his grips tighten on my hands before continuing. “They’re not so open minded and have always hated the LGBTQ+ family. I guess they rubbed off on me until I got into university though. Then I became a lot more open minded. I know how disappointed they’ll be in me once they find out. They’ve been looking forward to the day I came home with a nice girl and introduced her to them. Y’know, as the remaining child, they hold high expectations of me. It’s also why I don’t have a car like most people. They’re scared I’ll end up dying like my brother.” I paused and glanced up at him. He blinked once when our eyes met.

“That’s a lot, and a little bit toxic,” he stated and I shrugged slowly. They were really toxic, but I guess it was because they were over-protective, and because they loved me, of course.

“I don’t think you’re gay, but you do want me, right?” Jonas asked and I gnawed on my lower lip lightly before slowly nodding my head. I did want him, no matter how confusing my thoughts were. That fact has always managed to be the clearest in my head, with my body perfectly following my mind by getting turned on by him.

We stared at each other for a few moments before he tugged my face forward and fused our lips together, his hands holding my head while his mouth kissed my lips and slowly deepened the kiss until I was moaning into the kiss, the sounds muffled by his lips. I didn’t know what to do with my hands, so I left them on my thighs while my mouth got willingly plundered by him.

He leaned over me with our mouths still fused together and I reclined until my back was pressed into the bed with him hovering over me, he pressed my body into the bed with his and I felt my heartbeats quickens in excitement and anticipation.

His hands tugged on my hair hard, jerking my head sideways and I breathed out a sharp gasp which quickly turned into a moan when his mouth moved over my ear slowly, his tongue flicking over my ear and sending shivers down my spine.

His mouth reunited back with my parted lips, harder this time and I returned the kiss a lot bolder this time. I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him as hard as he was kissing me, for the first time since we’ve started kissing, I slipped my tongue into his lips and groaned lowly in my throat with my body vibrating lightly when he wrapped his lips around my tongue and sucked hard on it.

God, I didn’t know a kiss could be half as hot as this until Jonas. Was this all I’ve been missing?

I asked myself as Jonas and I continued to kiss, I buried my fingers into the soft curls on his head when his mouth found my throat and started sucking on my pulse. I’ve always wondered how his hair was going to feel in my fingers ever since I moved in and became his roommate and now I was pulling on his hair with my two hands while holding his head against my neck at the same time.

There was a lot of firsts concerning me when it comes to being with a guy. For the first time in my life I’m being held down against the bed and enjoying rendering the whole power to the other person, for the first time in my life I was getting thousands of hickeys and moaning without control through every bite and suck.

For the first time in my life, I was attracted to a guy, I was also kissing him and enjoying it, turns out my previous kisses were slacking real hard compared to his.

His lips trailed back up from my neck and claimed my mouth once again and at the same time grinding his hard on into mine, I didn’t even know I was hard in the first place. I moaned uncontrollably into the kiss and kept on tugging on his curls after every grind of his dick against mine. He broke the kiss and watched me while grinding into me, I moaned against his lips, my voice coming out needy and unrecognizable to my ears. He repeated the motion without stopping and claimed my lips in a searing kiss, grinding my hips into the bed and tugging on the roots of my hair.

He stopped grinding all of a sudden and my eyes blinked unbelievably at him, my impending orgasm stalled for a heartbeat, then two, then three before finally rolling off the edge to my disappointment. I wanted to complain about him stopping when I was about to climax, but I just couldn’t find the right words so instead I scowled up at him, he watched me for a few moments, his face breaking out into a laugh. I didn’t have the time to admire his beautiful laugh since I was still angry that my orgasm got denied. I pushed him off me and rolled to the edge of the bed.

“Fuck you,” I spat at him which only made him laugh harder.

“Aw c’mon Andy, I didn’t do a thing,” he managed to whine out after calming down a little.

“Of course you didn’t,” I snorted out, my hard on not reducing one bit, instead the sight of Jonas’s laughing face and his eyes reduced to tiny skits seems to be getting it a little bit harder to me amazement.

Jonas rolled towards me and pulled me across his body, I spluttered and blushed. I tried to roll off him, but his arms snaked around my waist and squeezed me to him, pressing our erect dicks against each other.

I didn’t mean for my eyes to flutter helplessly, and I also didn’t mean for my dick to jerk up and leak more precum into my sweatpants. I definitely didn’t mean to move against him and gasp out a quiet moan.

My hands were splayed on his hard chest, and I quickly placed them on the bed beside his shoulder, ready to demand he let go of me so I could leave this embarrassing position. But before I could get my mouth to start moving, his hands moved off my waist and grasped my thighs. He pulled me forward by my thighs and spread them apart until my knees were on either side of his hips, and to my shock, my butt was on his hard dick.

I gasped and tried to move away since it felt weird. But at the same time a small, nervous shiver washed over my whole body. All I managed to do was to grind my ass and slowly over his hard on. I groaned and panted as my hair fell into my face and almost rendered me blind.

“Oh God,” I whispered shakily as pleasure washed over me when Jonas’s hands slid over my back to grab my butt and push my ass against him. He repeated the motion, and I threw my head back uncontrollably, my body shuddering above him as pleasure washed over me once again.

“Fuck, this is so hot, you’re so hot,” Jonas whispered hotly as he led my body over his in another slow grind and I stared down at him after pushing my hair out of my face as pleasure more intense than anything I’ve ever felt in my entire life washed over me.

He squeezed my ass through my sweatpants, and I jerked above him in shock. The sudden movement made me grind a little bit harder against him. I felt sweat dot my skin, and my dick leaked uncontrollably in my pants as my orgasm raced forward once again. 

Shocking Jonas as well as myself, I lean down and pressed my lips against him, kissing him heatedly, his hands never ceased their movements of grinding me against his hard dick. I pulled my lips away from his and panted against his wet mouth.

He lifted his head from the bed and joined our lips together, licking into my mouth and flicking his tongue against mine and at the same time grinding our hard on again each other until my orgasm hit me out of nowhere.

“Oh fuck,” I whimpered against his lips on feeling my orgasm zing throughout my body, which was the very last warning before I was plunged headfirst into a mind-blowing orgasm.

I shook above him as I felt my orgasm pumping my blood and exploding in my head. I pulled away from the kiss and threw my head back, groaning harshly into the air. Jonas’s lips attached themselves to my adam’s apple and I felt him suck on it, prolonging my absurdly long and intense orgasm, way longer than what I was used to.

I panted heavily above him while he pulled me over his length for a few more seconds before he was cumming. I watched as he threw his head back and groaned thickly, his eyes squeezed shut, and his hands tightening hard on my hips. I was mesmerized by the sight of him cumming and losing control. I bit my lips to stop a stupid moan from slipping out when his tongue slid out to lick his lower lip.

He peeked his eyes open and stared at me for a few seconds before slowly smiling up at me, and my heart skipped a few beats in response. It was at that moment that I was able to accept the fact which I’ve been unconsciously trying to deny from crossing my mind, that I was indeed fucked.

I was also crazily attracted to my roommate.

Fuck me.