LIII *NOT EDITED*

Karma

It's been two weeks since the building that ruined my childhood and innocence blew sky high, two weeks since Vincenzo told me he loved me for the first time. I'd be lying if I said it's been flowers and rainbows since, if I'm honest it's been hell. We have fought every single day, Every. Fucking. Day.

Now, the make up sex we've had everything after fighting all day has been amazing, well, more than amazing but things are tense, everyone in the house knows it, I cant even look at Vincenzo without wanting to rip his fucking throat out with my bare hands, stupid fucking asshole.

"I miss you Em" I mumble under my breath, I hear her sigh through the phone "I miss you too Karma, what's been going on?" She asks, what the fuck hasn't been going on more like it. "He wont let me off of the fucking property, I keep having panic attacks because the only time I've left is under the close watch of someone else, he's treating me like a fucking kid" I basically growl "He's so fucking paranoid it's driving me crazy, Nonna gave me some Xanax when we first touched down here, and I've been taking them every fucking day but they don't fucking work". I hold the orange bottle of pills in my hand running my thumb over the smooth plastic, "Is there any reason why? Or is he just having a moment? And Karma you know you shouldn't be touching any of the shit especially because of your past" She questions, I put the lid between my teeth and twist the cap off before shaking a few out onto my bed sheet "He's been over reacting since I told him I didn't want to travel around the world for our honeymoon and jesus Emily I need something even if the fuckers don't work, I have to up the dose because I can't feel shit" I scoff as I reach to my bedside table for the glass of water.

I scoop the pills up and shove them into my mouth before sculling the water to wash them down "You don't want to travel the world? Why the hell not? And seriously Karma you're playing a dangerous game, you don't want to fall into bad habits again" She replies, little does she know I've indeed fell into the habit again, the one day I didn't touch them was when Vin and I spent the night at the hideaway house, most likely because I forgot to bring them with me. I roll my eyes and lay down on my bed shoving the pill bottle between the mattress and the bedside table "Because it's too dangerous and my mother is completely and utterly unpredictable" I remind her, she stays silent for a few seconds before replying "I forgot about that witch... But at least we get to hang out soon!". A small smile graces my lips for the first time in a while, "I cant fucking wait, we're going to rip this country apart" I laugh, there's a knock at the door and I take a deep breath "I've gotta go Emmy moo, I'll see you in a few days, I love you", "See you soon gorgeous girl, I love you too".

I hang up and put my phone next to me before calling out for whoever it is to come in, Ryan comes in, now there's a face that's been clung to my side like a fly to shit these past two weeks. "What's going on Ryan?" I ask sitting up watching him walk to the end of my bed and sitting down. "Ace wanted me to tell you that he's going out for the night, got work to do", As soon as he finishes his sentence I can feel my blood begin to boil, this asshole can waltz out of this fucking prison whenever he want's and he expects me to stay put like a fucking dog? "Don't shoot the messenger" Ryan says holding his hands up as if I'm pointing an imaginary gun at him, I roll my eyes and lay back down onto the mattress. "Will you at least hang out with me today?" I ask looking to him as he stares out the window, he shakes his head no "Ace has requested I help him with some legal things, but I'll be home around 7pm?".

" I thought the business was both of ours now that were married, obviously not. But, if that's the case I should start my job again, if he's not going to let me work by his side I'll work by myself, I've done it before I can most defiantly do it again" I say the last part mostly to myself but Ryan hears it "Karma you're not going to be able to get past the army of guards at the front of the property to work, anyways, I've gotta head off, I'll see you for dinner" He half ass smiles at me before leaving the room.

I lay on the bed for awhile just staring at the ceiling before I eventually peel myself off of the sheets and make my way downstairs to the kitchen. Literally no ones here, Nonna and Nonno are out celebrating their anniversary for the day and night, Vincenzo's parents are at their holiday house on the coast because apparently their mansion is 'too over crowded', maybe Stefano will be here, we haven't hung out together just the two of us in a few years, maybe we can be close, maybe we can fix the damage. I walk around the house knocking on everyone's doors, first is Stefano "Oh big brotherrrr" I call out while knocking loudly, I press my ear to the door and listen for any type of moment but there's nothing, he mustn't be here.

Next I go to Lukas's room, "Lukey?" I call out while knocking, I wait a minute and realise he probably Isn't home either, next is Gio's, "God damn it Gio tell me you're in there" I plead banging on his door, to my surprise it opens but he's naked from the waist up and covered in sweat, "Baby come back to bed" A woman calls out and I realise what I've interrupted "Lordy I'm sorry" I say looking at my feet so there's no awkward eye contact between us, "All good Karma, if you're looking for Vin he's out" He explains which sets off my bad mood again "I know that asshat's gone don't worry" I hiss through my teeth, I look back up and watching him swallow the lump in his throat uncomfortably.

"Is anyone in this hell hole?" I ask, damn I'll even hang out with one of the maids or something. "Well your big boy Hades is out being walked at the moment, and uhhh, oh yeah, Iggy's here" He chirps, I nod my head as a silent thank you and make my way to Iggy's room, I thought if Vincenzo was going to take people with him it would have been Iggy at least otherwise that would of been the first fucking room I went to. I knock on Iggy's door and call out for him "oooohhhhh Iglooooooo" I sing, his door swings open and I'm met with a very smiley Iggy, "Well what's got you so happy?" I ask leaning against his door frame "Seeing my favourite gal" He replies obviously trying to cheer me up because I doubt I'm anyone's favourite girl at the moment since I've been chewing everyone's ass out about the smallest things. "Wanna do something?" I ask hoping he will stupidly agree, "Like what?" He asks rubbing the back of his head, I know Vincenzo would have ripped into him about keeping an eye on me, he must be shitting bricks.

There's a long pause between us as I work up a plan to get me what I want, freedom "Let's go out" I smile grabbing onto his hands, he laughs and shakes his head no "Absolutely not, Ace told me he'd rip my head off if I let you out of the property". I purse my lips before folding my arms over my chest "If you don't come with me, I'll go out myself, I'm fucking sick of being locked away like a princess in a castle" I warn watching his body for a reaction, "And how do you think you'll get past all the guards?" He asks raising an eyebrow, "I'll find a fucking way Igloo I don't care if I have to shoot every motherfucker down there" I reply with a smile, "Come on let's go" I say pulling on his hands to follow me. "Well don't you want to get dressed?" He questions stopping us in our tracks, I look down at my outfit and laugh "I am dressed?".

He looks at me and his face goes as red as a tomato "Karma you're not even wearing... you know... a bra" He whispers the last part, let's have a little fun with him "You looking at my nipples?" I ask looking him up and down he shakes his head no furiously "No, no, no, well... I mean yes but not in the way you think". "I'm just fucking with you Igloo, calm your tits" I joke nudging him, "I don't care anyways, it's not like I'll ever see those people again", He takes a deep breath and agrees alright, but we HAVE to be back by 6, if people notice you're missing they're going to come for my head" I nod in agreement and drag him down the hallway and into the garage to where the cars are kept, thing is Iggy wont be held responsible because I have a plan, in theory he wont even be leaving the property it will just be me.

I grab the keys to Vincenzo's Lamborghini and shake in excitement, well it's either excitement or the Xanax kicking in "Oh shoot, I forgot my phone. Iggy can you go grab it from the kitchen bench?" I ask fluttering my eyelashes, "Of course, I'll be back in a second" He smiles before turning around and heading towards the kitchen. I open the garage door and get in the car, starting it and driving off before he realises the my phone isn't in the kitchen at all, infact it's still in my bedroom, I look the the passenger seat and tap my purse softly, were going to burn a hole in my bank account tonight buddy. Rolling up to the front gates the guards come up to the window and try to look inside but the tinted windows makes it impossible, I do two honks like Gio usually does when he leaves.

The idiots open the gates and make way for me to drive out, good luck to them when they find out what they've just done I laugh to myself. I have no idea where I'm going so I put the word discotech which means nightclub according to Nonna. I look for one that's not too close yet not too far away, there's not many to pick from so I choose the one about an hour away.

I roll down all the windows and blast music as I drive along the beautiful Italian country side, I cant wait to drink twice my body weight and dance my fucking ass off, my smile falters when I think of Iggy getting absolutely ripped into when everyone realises I've vanished, I'll have to make it up to him when I get back. Soon enough I pull up to the club, it's just turned to 4 so it's only just opened, it's almost empty besides a few locals I assume. I sit down at the bar and the bar tender comes over right away "What can I get you beautiful?" He asks looking me up and down whilst licking his lips, "Tequila sunrise please" I ask in a somewhat flirty tone lowkey hoping he will put more tequila in it than normal so he can get me 'drunk'.

The longer I sit here the more it starts to fill up, and the music gets louder too, the atmosphere picks up and I'm finally having some fun. I watch as people talk and laugh, having fun and can't help but feel envious of them, oh how fun it is to be carefree, well, just free in general. The liquor must be hitting because I've gotta pee I think to myself, I grab my purse and keys, shoving the keys into the purse so I don't lose them before making my way to the bathroom. I stumble into a wall and giggle to myself, the walls nice and cool so I lean here for a few seconds before peeling myself off of it and continuing to the bathroom. When I walk in I swing the door and it hit's the stopper loudly scaring the shit out of me and the woman in there too, "Oh I am so sorry" I laugh, "I didn't know it was gonna do that" I explain pointing at the door.

She drops her shoulders and relaxes letting out a laugh in return, damn, she kinda sexy tho I think looking her up and down. My eyes move to her hands that a covering something on the bathroom bench, "Watcha got there?" I ask slowly taking steps towards her, she looks me up and down and smiles, an addict can see an addict from a mile away, it's like a sick 6th sense or something. She moves her hands and reveals what looks like MDMA, "Want some?" She asks holding out a glass straw. I pull out my purse and count $100 before putting it next to her hand on the sink as a payment I guess, "Wanna play tonight?" I ask taking the glass straw out of her hand, she grins and puts the money down her bra before pulling out a baggie of assorted pills from her pocket "Always".

I use a card and make a line just the right size for me, just one line wont hurt... Right?